Learning To Live Half-Alive?

[Soft*Silver]

thank you for reminding me that not all of us are as sick as some of us. I speak from my own perspective then...I appreciate the leveling of humility...

Originally Posted by Dude

I really take offense to you speaking for all alcoholics here. I am a recovering one who is now close to 28 years sober. At worst , my drinking caused me to be flaky and unreliable which was indeed a selfish thing. I was never manipulative or conniving even at my bottom. Huge sweeping generalities of any kind like this I think can be damaging. Sorta like all butch's and femme's are all the same. Hopefully >that< myth has been disproven enough for people to get it by now





Again, I have never taken a hostage nor had a back burner babe just in case person and I was never dependant on getting back in with anyone.
You may have done all those things but please dont speak for the rest of us.


Girl who is heartbroken,
Don't blame it on the drinking.That's a sure way to keep you stuck.
Stop trying to figure it out, just stick with the facts and move on.

[proximitywithoutintimacy]

Wow, so much to respond to. But, I will say, first and foremost, that in regards to exposing a few personal details - I know my limits and boundaries, and what I'm trying to do is simply provide enough information so that others can understand and help me to put together some of the pieces... since I keep cutting my fingers open on them, so to speak

I appreciate you all taking the time to respond, and for offering me your kind words. It's amazing to me.

I'm an overanalyser, that's one thing for sure... hence, I do over-think it and try to figure it out. It's agonizing to say the least... but I'm working on accepting things as they are, and trying to let go, without giving myself a migraine trying to decipher all the reasons why.

I do believe that, in her own way, she does love me. I just don't believe she's quite capable of showing it, save for those very rare times when she's exposed and vulnerable. She's a good person, deep down, but she's stuck underneath all the wreckage. It's up to her to pull herself out, and whether she does or not is up to her. I just can't keep sacrificing my emotional well-being to be her saviour.

to all.

And, a special thanks to June, for fixing my typo...

[The_Lady_Snow]

We've all only stated limits and boundaries due to the fact you've put it out there and asked for our help. It's obvious you are still clouded cause honey there is NO EXCUSE to be an ass hat.

Your ex, is an ass hat and that is NOT love.

[proximitywithoutintimacy]

I was in no way trying to be... I'm sorry if that is how it seemed.

I was only explaining myself... which I know I'm not very good at

I won't say anything more.

[The_Lady_Snow]

Originally Posted by proximitywithoutintimacy

I was in no way trying to be... I'm sorry if that is how it seemed.

I was only explaining myself... which I know I'm not very good at

I won't say anything more.

*sigh*

No one is trying to silence you. We're all concerned for you, your situation sounds dangerous, I have a kid your age, my heart goes out to you, we are scared for you cause frankly your ex is not stable.

[proximitywithoutintimacy]

I understand completely, and I appreciate the concern. I'm cutting off all ties with her, so there needs to be no worries. I'm focusing on myself, my family, and school. I'm changing my life. I promised myself that when I turned 24, I would - which includes learning to love myself.

Snow Thank you.

[The_Lady_Snow]

Originally Posted by proximitywithoutintimacy

I understand completely, and I appreciate the concern. I'm cutting off all ties with her, so there needs to be no worries. I'm focusing on myself, my family, and school. I'm changing my life. I promised myself that when I turned 24, I would - which includes learning to love myself.

Snow Thank you.

*smiles* thank you Prox, I'm glad you found BFP.