The Subtlety of Softness

Julien · 11-16-2011, 08:09 AM

The Man I Want to Be

This journey I am on from female to male is a difficult one.
For me the way is filled with both dangerous pitfalls as well as joyous events.
While I am unable to see what my body will become, I can affirm what type of man I am becoming.
To weave together the woman I’ve lived and the man that I am is to blend the best of both in this gender queer body.
I am not my father’s daughter
I am not my mother’s daughter
But neither am I their son.
I am my own unique individual with the sensibility of what it means to be a woman as a man in this world of ours.
Left behind is their daughter with long hair, frilly clothes and make-up.
What is ahead is the man I want to be, something that was hidden behind the façade of femininity.
My masculinity has finally revealed itself after years of pretending to be something I am not and will never be.
I know deep down that I was born to take on the self as male and hopefully the lessons I have learned as a female will help create the man I want to be.

By Julien F.

11-16-2011, 08:09 AM	#1
Julien Member How Do You Identify?: TG/GenderQueer Preferred Pronoun?: I'm flexible, but only up to a point. Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Alabama, Gulf Coast area Posts: 1,007 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,247 Thanked 2,702 Times in 737 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	The Man I Want to Be This journey I am on from female to male is a difficult one. For me the way is filled with both dangerous pitfalls as well as joyous events. While I am unable to see what my body will become, I can affirm what type of man I am becoming. To weave together the woman I’ve lived and the man that I am is to blend the best of both in this gender queer body. I am not my father’s daughter I am not my mother’s daughter But neither am I their son. I am my own unique individual with the sensibility of what it means to be a woman as a man in this world of ours. Left behind is their daughter with long hair, frilly clothes and make-up. What is ahead is the man I want to be, something that was hidden behind the façade of femininity. My masculinity has finally revealed itself after years of pretending to be something I am not and will never be. I know deep down that I was born to take on the self as male and hopefully the lessons I have learned as a female will help create the man I want to be. By Julien F. __________________ Julien “Self-plagiarism is style.” Alfred Hitchcock Formerly known as Graphiteta2s