PTSD and Trauma recovery

HeartBreak Kid · 02-09-2010, 12:38 AM

Someone who self-injures is caught in a whirlpool of sorts. The one thing that we depend on is something that is considered bad for us. So we have to build an elaborate web of deceit, much like someone hiding a drug addiction. This hurts us as much as it does you. In fact, it contributes to our downward spiral. We lie, feel guilty for lying, cut ourselves to alleviate the guilt, then it starts over — we have to lie again. Tomorrow will be better, we tell ourselves. Tomorrow I’ll do better; I’ll start over, a clean slate. Only every tomorrow turns to today, and we always ruin today. We spend our lives chasing that tomorrow, that tomorrow that never comes. We cut our skin, trying to carve our imperfect bodies into something pure and beautiful. We hurt ourselves physically to ease the pain that ravages our insides. We hide behind our scars because we don’t know what we are deep inside, and what we do know we are, we hate. Growing up in a world that hates us, we just never learned quite how to live. And it’s as simple as that. No sideshow freaks, no scary psychotic asylum patients… just a bunch of people who are essentially broken in some way, waiting for the day to come when they will find the strength to fix themselves. And that day will come. Eventually they will realize they’ve hit rock bottom. “And that there is, in fact, an incredible freedom in having nothing left to lose.” (Hornbacher, 279).

Canela · 02-09-2010, 02:58 PM

I'm here. And I'm glad you're all here, too.

Leaving you all many blessings,

Shug

Andrew, Jr. · 02-09-2010, 03:09 PM

Little Shug,

I am so relieved and happy you are here. You bring comfort to so many of us.

Love,
Andrew

Canela · 02-09-2010, 03:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

Little Shug,

I am so relieved and happy you are here. You bring comfort to so many of us.

Love,
Andrew

Awwww, thanks Andrew--as do you!

02-09-2010, 12:38 AM	#1
HeartBreak Kid Member How Do You Identify?: self Preferred Pronoun?: User formally Known as Tygerlily Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: my skin Posts: 372 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 260 Thanked 446 Times in 166 Posts Rep Power: 28	tomorow Someone who self-injures is caught in a whirlpool of sorts. The one thing that we depend on is something that is considered bad for us. So we have to build an elaborate web of deceit, much like someone hiding a drug addiction. This hurts us as much as it does you. In fact, it contributes to our downward spiral. We lie, feel guilty for lying, cut ourselves to alleviate the guilt, then it starts over — we have to lie again. Tomorrow will be better, we tell ourselves. Tomorrow I’ll do better; I’ll start over, a clean slate. Only every tomorrow turns to today, and we always ruin today. We spend our lives chasing that tomorrow, that tomorrow that never comes. We cut our skin, trying to carve our imperfect bodies into something pure and beautiful. We hurt ourselves physically to ease the pain that ravages our insides. We hide behind our scars because we don’t know what we are deep inside, and what we do know we are, we hate. Growing up in a world that hates us, we just never learned quite how to live. And it’s as simple as that. No sideshow freaks, no scary psychotic asylum patients… just a bunch of people who are essentially broken in some way, waiting for the day to come when they will find the strength to fix themselves. And that day will come. Eventually they will realize they’ve hit rock bottom. “And that there is, in fact, an incredible freedom in having nothing left to lose.” (Hornbacher, 279). __________________ ~Beautiful, sobbing, high-geared fucking and then to lie silently like deer tracks in the freshly-fallen snow beside the one you love . That's All~ ~Richard Brautigan, "Deer Tracks"~ Peace and Love http://images5.cafepress.com/product...x480_Front.jpg "Pssssst.......your STEREOTYPES are showing".... ~StabbyK~

02-09-2010, 02:58 PM	#2
Canela Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Queer Stone Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Babe, she, her, ella Relationship Status: Well loved… Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Texas Posts: 2,375 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 10,644 Thanked 6,502 Times in 1,694 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	I'm here. And I'm glad you're all here, too. Leaving you all many blessings, Shug

02-09-2010, 03:09 PM	#3
Andrew, Jr. Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Me Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Over the Rainbow in a House Posts: 5,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,004 Thanked 5,249 Times in 2,216 Posts Rep Power: 0	Little Shug, I am so relieved and happy you are here. You bring comfort to so many of us. Love, Andrew