...~* Diary in Blue *~...

[Kätzchen]

Dearest Diary,

I'm sleepless tonight before the morning of my early finals
with delivery of speeches carefully planned yet so horrifyingly real.

I made a poem tonight that speaks for
feelings that often run deliriously rampant with urgency - deliriously ravaging my capacity to find Zen.

You hear my words and
you keep my thoughts;
yet tonight I let them go
so I can remain mindfully present in my
pre-dawn moments, longing for tranquil peace.

The Etymology of You

Where shall I turn my gaze to?

Is it within today’s moment?

Which skin of thought will be capricious?

Around the corner, in my mind
A slow burn of fear
Cast waves of bent emotion
A paroxysm
Imploding
My existentialist point of view.

It seemed so ordinary

This seepage of entanglement:
But it floated off
Like a silken slip
Pieces
Jagged, sharp, puncturing –
The
Store of desire

Changing the garment with struggled stain

I’m no different,
You proclaim.
Everyone is just everyone –
Simple,
No pain.

Even in the immensity of shared feelings

The towering inferno
Of shame
Dropped like a floating balloon
It was swept away
By the fullness of this new moon.

Here and now

Appearing as light and
Emerging from the fog of life, is:
The Etymology
of
You.

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I'm off to slumber - dreaming peacefully of contentment, where I practice the *carpe diem * of nocturnal release into the unknown yet ever evolving paradigm of shared epiphanies, melded and tempered by kindness and quotients empowered by more than two. And it’s because of you, the Etymology of pristine infinity, my Dearest Diary.

Truest to you,
Yours Faithfully

[Kätzchen]

Lying in the darkness – on a heap of old dry bones, debris and cobwebs in the cave of the bear – it was with a dazed confusion that she awoke and still holding hands with CC. It appeared that CC was out cold from having broken their fall into the cave. She reached over to carefully brush off like huge clumps of dirt she felt on CC’z face.

*CC?* she whispered carefully. “Hon? Wake up dear…” She carefully kissed CC’z cheek, silently waited for him to rouse to consciousness. As she waited for any sign of CC coming to life, she tried to see in the dark but couldn’t. She rolled closer to CC and began to warm him a bit, with the already escaping heat of her body. It was terribly cold and damp in the cave. With no light to see, except the moonlit shadows that appeared from the opening above, she began to feel a bit petrified. Not wanting to break the clasp of their hands, she reluctantly let go of Hiz hand and managed to get his head under her arm, as she cradled CC and cooed softly in Hiz ear. “Everything will be alright” she said to Hym, over and over again. “Come on, Hon, wake up” she said, beginning to shudder from the cold. Lying in the dark, she willed CC to come alive. But nothing seemed to happen. She could hear the creek babbling outside; the gentle and mysterious moaning of the earth in the abandoned cave. But because she realized they were terribly cold, she had to think of a way to get both of them warm. And, do it quickly.

Not wanting to part from CC, she dug into CC’s pocket for the lighter that they used for smoking. Thank you Goddess for Zippo lighters: they always seemed to fair as well as a Timex watch. They just kept on ‘zippin’ like a Timex watch would keep ‘tickin’! She flipped the case of the beautiful and handsome lighter case open. …*wha~lah*… “and, let there be light!”

She could see that there were pieces of wood lying around the dead leaves and pine needles. “Ok,” she said to herself. “It looks like there is enough material here to build a fire” and up she arose with adrenaline to make it come to life. She was not a scout or anything, but she was determined to make it warmer for them and to help CC come back to life. Without him, they weren’t going anywhere and to add to the complication, (at least in her head) she worried that CC had broken bone or something. Time was of the essence because no one who knew of their whereabouts that day. Quickly, she gathered up the dead material from the floor of the cave and scraped it into a heap. Then she gathered the dead tree limbs and laid them upon the heap of debris. She found two huge tree stumps and drug them over to the place where she was going to build the fire. With no blankets or extra clothing other than what they had on, it was freezing and she worried about both of them developing hypothermia. She flipped the Zippo open and lit the flint. Quickly, she lit all of the debris. Wafting air around the newly lit fire she tried to stoke the flames, hoping to not make it too smoky. With one of the longer branches, she reached toward the huge hole in the cave to be sure the smoke could escape. By then, the debris caught on fire and she quickly loaded all of the spare limbs she could find onto the blaze. Within minutes, the branches caught fire – causing to her decide to put the stumps onto the entire flaming mess, too.

She looked at CC lying next to the fire. No movement yet, but at least she could see now and hoped that the fire would warm them both. Saving the longest branch to stir the fire with she skootched closer to CC and gently checked for his breathing and pulse. Thankfully, he was alive; just not fully conscious yet. “Oh my,” she prayed! “Please help CC to wake up! I need Hym! I want Hym to get us out of here and take us home! Without Hym, we are lost!”
About that time when the fire began to take on a life of its own, CC began to move, cough and come to life. “Hon?” Hy said, as she quickly laid the branch down to tend to CC. Tears fell upon on her cheeks, she was so happy that CC came back to life! Stroking the hair from Hiz forehead, she stroked Hiz head lovingly as she kissed Hiz nose, Hiz cheek and then softly Hiz lips, as she began to weep. “Oh Hon, I’m so glad you are waking up! Are you cold? Are you hungry? Do you hear me? Do you feel the fire???” she asked like she always did, when she had a million questions on her mind for CC to answer! CC reached up with Hiz arms (although his eyes were closed) and pulled her down on top of him. Through the soft light of the blazing fire they could see each other. Gazing at each other fervently while assessing each others’ damage – they decided it was okay to smile as they held each other with dearness. Both exhaled the sigh of inner knowledge that they both had survived their fall into the cave.

But that didn’t last long as a huge rush of wind blasted through the cave with frightening power – enough power that a giant apparition of a Grizzly Bear appeared in the smoky haze of the fire.

Frightened beyond belief, she shrieked so loud it would have made the fur fall off of any so-called Grizzly! “CC” She shrieked, as CC eyed the image conjured by the fiery blaze amid the smokiest of smoke, the strangest of haze!!!

The proclaimed, legendary, ghost-like beast of Mt. Grizzly roared with terrifying growls! And then, as if beyond the comprehension of a drunken stupor, the bear began talking to them, uttering words from ancient days. Did they hear what they just heard??? Could it be true, what that bear said??? They looked at each other in sheer astonishment, making sure that neither of them was losing their wits. Silently confirming to one another, they returned their gaze to the apparition roaring in front of them, through the smoky haze of the fire which was burning at full height as sparks flew everywhere. But the Grizzly Bear still stood its ground. And as if caught doing something very compromising, both of them rose from the floor of the cave, hand-in-hand and in utter fright and ran for any exit they could find! Running toward the creek through a labyrinth, they ran for their lives! It was as if it were a miracle that they found the cave’s exit as they scaled a rocky crevice that led to the original path. By the time they made it to the parking lot, both were heaving breathlessly.
“Don’t go to your house,” said CC as Hy tossed a spare set of car keys to her. “Go to the ranch and drive as safely as possible. You better drive the speed limit and not hurt the corvette or I’ll tan the hide off your pretty ass, woman!”

*the hell I will, CC* - as she caught the keys in mid-air while standing like a deer, frozen by on-coming headlights! She hit the electronic switch to unlock the car, got into the drivers seat and lit a cigarette, then turned on the motor and did a 1-80 in reverse.
“You better hurry, my dear man, if you want to make sure I get to the ranch without hurting your Vette!” she yelled into the wind, as she left CC and Hiz truck in a cloud of dust. Licking her lips and mouthing a sensual kiss to him, Hy stared at the way her breasts swelled under the t-shirt she stole away from Hym at the river. Waiting for Hiz eyes to meet hers, she felt CC collaring and devouring her with Hiz eyes. Once Hiz eyes locked with hers, she collared CC with her smile…

Tethered invisibly to each other, the night had only just begun. Following her closely, CC watched her as she applied lipstick to her mouth and while smoking a cigarette, she led them home: bound by their own shared telepathy and singular devotion to a dance that was theirs and theirs alone.


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Dearest Diary,

You know, it’s been awhile since I asked questions of you and I know you don’t want me to let you down. How long until then? When? Where? Do you see how you are, Dearest Diary?


Until then,
I’m Yours faithfully.

[Kätzchen]

Driving up the canyon on Route 66 toward the Green Springs, they leaned lazily into each curve while taking in the scenic beauty of the drive to CC’z property. When it came to the curve where she and Jezebel took a dive down the mountain side, she slowed down. CC slowed down too, wondering what was going through her mind, as he followed her home. As she proceeded on, she glanced into the rearview mirror with a beautiful smile as she mouthed a kiss to CC from her lips. CC’z strength of character made her heart swell with pride: especially the memory of how he commandeered her rescue when she lost control of the car on that snowy winter night. Picking up speed, she decided that she had better hurry up because they were going to be late for the party and dance!

Soon, they approached the entrance to CC’z ranch. She carefully eased the corvette down the dirt lane, so as not to kick up the gravel and dust from the road. The sun had already set and the first evening star had appeared as well as the moon, as it rose into the storybook heavens of the eastern skyline. “On a beautiful night such as this…” she thought silently to herself, as she traveled slowly down the drive. It was about then, when she slowly made the last turn on the pine-shaded hill, that she saw how many cars and trucks were parked at CC’z home…

“For heaven’s sake, what is going on out here tonight?” she silently mused to herself, as she slowed down to take it all in while watching in the rearview mirror for any sign of expression on CC’z face. “I thought the party was in town tonight,” she silently thought to herself. She saw the smile emerge on CC’z face in the rearview mirror. There must have been at least 20 vehicles she could account for in plain sight. Some of them she recognized, others she didn’t. Dayle’s truck was there, and several of her girlfriends’ cars were there; but as soon as she pulled up to the triple car garage and hit the door opener on the visor, she saw Dayle waiting for them impatiently on the wrap around porch of the house. Dayle had a lazy grin on Hys face and was smoking a cigarette. She watched Hym as Hy secretly signaled to CC as she pulled into the garage. As soon as she pulled in completely, she shut the engine off and sat thinking about what was really going down at CC’z home.

“It’s about time you two got here!” Dayle practically shouted in the garage, while CC parked the truck directly behind the Vette. Still seated in the car, she waited for CC to get out and come over to open the door of the car and help her out. She lit a cigarette while the two of them quietly exchanged information that apparently was a secret to be kept from her. Finally, CC came up to the Vette and opened the car door for her and helped her out.

“Hon?” she said quietly, as she took her last drag off of the cigarette. “What is going on here tonight? I thought the dance party was in town at the Grange Hall. Did you fail to tell me about it?”

Leaning in towards her and kissing her earnestly for good measure, CC held her tightly for the moment and whispered in her ear: “Yes dear, I planned this party for you instead of the party we were going to go to. I’m sorry I didn’t let you in on my secret, but you know how life always interferes with our plans.” Nuzzling her gently, CC asked her to go ahead and go upstairs and clean up, while he and Dayle got caught up to speed on the party in progress. “Okay, hon” she said to CC, as she nuzzled him back while playfully taking his hat off and played with Hiz hair. “Whatever you are up to, Mister CC, I’m glad we don’t have to go back to town. So Hon, I’m gonna be in your bathroom taking a shower and what should I wear tonight? Is this casual or should I wear a pretty dress tonight?”

CC looked at her with a heated desire and told her to do whatever her heart desired; then quickly added that wearing a dress was something Hy had looked forward to seeing her in all day… So off she went up the stairs to the top of the loft, where CC’z bedroom was, to relax and get ready for the evening.

“Hon? I won’t be long but will you bring up some wine to the bathroom so I have something to sip on while I am getting ready?” she smiled a beautiful smile to Hym. Half way up the back stairs, she heard CC pop the cork on some vintage wine that Hy always kept for her in the kitchen wine collection. “I’ll be up in a moment with your wine Hon, Okay?” CC hollered up the stairs to her.

“Where have you both been?” Dayle asked with an incredulous tone in Hys voice. “I’ve been waiting here since 4 this afternoon getting things done while you were out gazelling around the universe today!”

“I found her down at the park and we,” coughing it out to Dayle, “took care of some really important business we have wanted to do for some time now, Dayle. Thanks for helping me to get all this done in my absence” CC said, as he put down the filled wine glass.

“Did you get the band all set up in the back yard?” CC asked Dayle.

“Yes, I did, and they are all ready to go when she’s ready to come down. I made arrangements for food to be catered and they should be showing up anytime now,” Dayle reported to CC.

“Great”, CC said with a huge relief. “I’m starving, and I know she is too. What about everyone else? Let’s get the show on the road. Did you remember to go to the jewelers to pick up the ring I had made for her?”

“Yes, and it’s a beauty!” replied Dayle. He retrieved the ring from the secret stash drawer where CC kept all his important things, like: spare keys, screws and nails, and old memos itemizing Hys to-do lists of yore. “Here it is, CC” Dayle said, as he opened the little box that held the ring.

There it was in all its glory was the ring that matched the missing earrings she had found months before at the park. CC had planned this orchestrated mystery for months now and the last thing Hy needed was for her to figure it all out, before Hy had the chance to recite Hiz ornamental engagement proposal to her. Hy had taken an old pair of stilettos from her “clothes to go to goodwill box,” a year or so ago, and had hoped that she wouldn’t have recognized them when she found the stiletto at the park that late afternoon. The earring was the hardest to retrieve from the fake crime scene because Hy had to have the detective take it in as evidence so as not to alert her to his plan of proposal. Thank God, Hy had the foresight to ask the detective to show up later to the party to deliver the earring that he needed to present to her, later on that night. So far, so good was the thought that prevailed. Soon enough, Hy would know.

Looking at Dayle, CC asked Hym to make sure that the detective had arrived and that the caterers were coming. “Dayle? Thanks for helping me pull off My biggest hair-brained scheme yet!” CC winked at Dayle. “I don’t know how I would be able to pull all this off without your help. I’m going to go upstairs now and take the wine up to her and clean up, too” CC breathed, as Hys voice relaxed.

“Okay, CC, but don’t be too long. Hurry up and put in an appearance while she is busy with getting around and help me run interference with the guests by keeping them entertained while we wait on her” Dayle drawled out, ever so slowly. “I’m going to get the band members together and get the music going; then check on the food that should be arriving shortly.” And with that, Dayle took off and made Hys way out into the crowd that was interacting in the living room and on the large patio that opened up to the back yard.

Slowly, CC made it up the stairs with the wine and heard the shower running in the bedroom bath of Hiz chambered loft. Hy could smell her scent being carried on the very air that was wafting from the shower. The loft was dim with candled light, as steam from the shower drifted out into the loft. Hy sat down on the edge of the bed and laid the wine down on the end table. Taking Hiz boots and socks off, Hy leaned back onto the bed and stretched and day-dreamed for a moment. Hy listened to the muzzled softness of her voice that came from the shower. Hy loved to be near her and dreamed of what sharing space with her would feel like. She was so fussy about things in life; but this was the wonderful part of knowing her that had led Hym to believe how Hy knew it was her that Hy wanted to spend Hiz life with. Slowly, Hy picked up the wine glass and took it to her in the shower area and sat it down on the counter by the twin sinks. There laid all her jewelry; her panties and clothes were strewn all over the place. Hy picked up her panties and smelled them while she was washing her hair in the shower. It made Hym hard with deep need that he nearly wanted to take her to bed right then, but that moment had to wait. Hy wanted to enjoy the special evening with her, wanting no other mishaps to taking place. Hy had waited a very long time for this moment: Hy consciously keep his wits about him at all times.

“Hon? I brought you some wine. Are you almost done? May I come in behind you and shower? Hon? Is that okay?” CC softly asked her, during that moment.

She slid the door to the shower open a smidge, as shampoo bubbles from her hair drizzled down over her coconuts toward her belly, telling Hym to get naked and jump in as she was almost through with her shower. “Come in, Hon” she said, as she took CC’z hand.

“Hon, I’m not undressed fully yet. Let me get these clothes off, ok?” And with that, CC made record time stripping off Hiz clothes and walked into the shower behind her, letting her soapy and silky body warm Hym up. As Hy wrapped Hiz arms around her in the shower, she rinsed off her hair under the steamy hotness of the water. She moaned as CC ran Hiz hands all over her body. Hy was grinding her ass gently in the shower when she turned around in Hiz arms and pulled Hym into the warm rain of the steaming hot water.

“Doesn’t this feel ever so good, Hon?” she softly moaned out her reply. Her warm breasts, with nipples so erect that would leave a dent in any guy’s chest, made him even harder with desire. CC enveloped her into a tighter hold and deeply kissed her under the steamy water. And as Hy did this, Hy pushed her into the shower wall and buried Hiz invisible cock into her garden of desire. Moaning with heated delight, she broke away from Hiz kiss and handed Hym the soap Hy liked to use. “Hon? I’m getting out so you can finish up while I get dressed, okay?” she said, as she kissed Hiz nose and let herself out of the shower knowing full well that she was going to make Hiz evening more than magical. She loved getting dressed up for CC and having tons of romantic fun with Hym. Teasing Hym with a deep eroticism, she loved how worked up Hy could get.

“Thank you, for bringing the wine to me Dear,” she said as she slowly took her first sip from the wine goblet.
“Save me a sip, for when I get out, will you Dear?” Hy said to her while showering. “Okay, Hon” she said, as she toweled her body dry.

She wandered over to CC’s spare closet, where she kept some of her wardrobe for when she spent the night with CC. She found only a couple of dresses, so it wouldn’t a difficult decision. She came across a delicately feminine strapless cocktail dress. Waltz length and zipped up the back, the skirt of the dress flowed with yards of a sky blue organza; while the bodice of the garment was made from a heavy satin, secured by a midnight blue bow strategically centered below her breasts. She found her Italian blue Stiletto’s with bows on them, as well as her silk stockings with seams. She laid them on the bed as she returned to the bathroom to dry her hair and put a touch of makeup on and a strand of pearls around her neck. She found her simple diamond-studded teardrop pearl earrings on the jewelry tree of the bathroom counter and put them on her ears. As soon as she finished, she went back to the bed and sat down to put her stockings on and slid them up to be caught into garters dangling from her hips. Slowly easing the stockings on, one at a time, she stood up to make sure the seams were lined up right then attached them to each strap of her garter. Making sure they felt even all over, she then stepped into her stilettos. Her stilettos made her tower like an Amazonian goddess. Smiling a sexily, she proceeded to put her dress on for the night. By then, CC was out of the shower toweling off, so she went to ask Hym if Hy would help her with her dress. Walking into the bathroom, CC let out a slow wolf whistle.

“Sweetheart, you are gorgeous tonight,” CC cooed to her. Laying Hiz towel down, she turned around and asked for help to zip her dress up. And while Hy did, CC gently kissed her shoulders and neck while Hy slowly zipped her up. She turned toward him and smiled that slow smile that told Hym everything Hy wanted to know!

“Hon” she dripped with coyness. “I’m going to head down stairs…” while CC watched her put a smidge more lipstick on her lips. When she was done, she winked at Hym in the mirror as she smudged the extra lipstick from her lips Hiz mirror. She loved to mark Hiz mirror with her lip prints, as a reminder of her, when she spent the night with CC.

“Hon, hurry up with your dressing and meet me down stairs. I’m hungry as a bear!” she leaned over to kiss CC, while Hy stood there stark naked awe eating her up for the loveliness she brought to Hiz vision.

CC followed her out of the bath area like a sweet puppy following Hiz playmate, spanking her bottom lightly as she slowly walked in front of Hym.
“Hon? I’ll be down in a moment, but I want you to know that you are stunningly beautiful!”


She curtseyed like a princess before Hym and slowly descended the stairs that led to the rest of CC’z house. Once she made it past the kitchen to the living room area (that led to the backyard and patio), she could hear the music playing and saw people dancing and eating the catered food that had arrived. Dayle was standing at the table of food and was making a plate for Hymself, when she entered the patio area. Although she wasn’t making a grand entrance per se, it seemed as though everything came to a stop because guests in attendance smiled and came forth to greet her. Dayle nearly dropped his plate of food, when he saw her. Catching Hymself, Hy sat his plate of food down on a nearby table and came over to help her down the steps that led to the cedar deck that spanned the patio area. Smiling at her, Hy asked if CC would be down shortly, as Hy was getting anxious for the host of the hour to make Hiz appearance.

(Part 1)

[Kätzchen]

“CC should be here any minute!” she lightly explained, with the musically infected tone of her voice. “I’m hungry, so I know you won’t mind Dayle if I excuse myself and get some food on a plate” she told Hym. There were all kinds of food on the table: Roasted breast of Turkey, BBQ’d steaks, salad of every kind, exotic fruits and breads of every kind and several desserts - miniature pies and cakes of every kind were arranged wonderfully on the table. She took a smidge of them all and made her way to an empty place at a table filled with guests that she knew. Practically inhaling the choice of foods she chose for her plate, she smiled and greeted the guests she was sitting with. “Isn’t this food the best?” she exclaimed as she ate small portions of roasted turkey. She adjusted the huge lap napkin on her lap to keep any food from soiling her dress. “I’m so glad all of you could come to the party tonight” as she lifted her wine glass up for a group toast. Merriment abounded for all, as CC finally made Hiz appearance on the deck with Dayle in tow. She glanced up to take it all in – how CC was so manly in Hiz appearance. Hy was handsome as hell: CC wore his dark slate Blue dress slacks and a starched button- down shirt adorned by the most romantic tie in Hiz wardrobe. He had Hiz custom cowboy boots on, made of leather and dyed-to-match snake skin. CC was so damned handsome in Hiz evening attire! She smiled that sweet lazy smile for Hym, motioning for CC to come join her at the table. And like a good puppy always does, he swaggered over to her and took a seat next to her.

CC put Hiz arm around her (near the small of her back) and leaned in to kiss her lips lightly. She smiled with joy when Hy did that to her. “Are you ready for a bite to eat, dear?” she asked Hym. And with that, she lifted a piece of roasted turkey to Hiz lips. CC devoured it and nibbled at her fingers playfully.

“Is that all you’re gonna give me Hon?” he asked with playfulness. She nudged Hiz ribs gently and smiled the answer to CC: “No, Hon, what else would you like?” she playfully asked Hym.


And no sooner than that playful remark left her lips, CC leaned in closer and took her deeply into an erotic kiss, after having devoured the piece of turkey she hand fed him. After the long and ardent kiss, she opened her eyes to see Hym looking deeply into her eyes. Blushing with heated breath escaping her, it dawned on her that this was a serious moment between the two of them. This moment was different; yet at the same time she asked CC, with deep fervency, when they were going to share a dance. Not missing a beat, yet picking up one last morsel of turkey from her plate, CC said “Right now Dear!” As a King would do, Hy stood up and lifted her by the hand for their dance.

And what timing it was, because it was if on cue that the band started to play a dance band favorite: a version of the Righteous Brothers’ Unchained Melody. Leading her past the torch lamps placed around the perimeter of the deck, they found a place in the crowd to dance slowly together. The stars were out and the moon lent a smoldering atmosphere to the eroticism of the dance in progress. Taking her into Hiz embrace, Hy held her by the small of her back and took her hand in the other while Hy danced with her into the Cedar patio deck.


“You are so beautiful tonight,” CC whispered in her ear as he led her around the deck for the dance.


“Hon? You are simply so damned handsome, I wonder often why you are not married yet!” she whispered into his ear, while they swayed to the music.


And with that, he took her tighter into Hiz embrace and looked into her blue-eyed soul with deep furtiveness; wondering if now was the perfect moment in time to propose to her…




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Dearest Diary,


Once again, another term is off to a harried bustle. So much work to do, and so little time to accomplish it. And again, the winter holidays were just as crazy as usual; but signaling the entrance to another season waiting to implode with brilliance. Soon spring will be here – slowly day after day, ushering in another season to be explored with renewed passion.


I don’t have anything to ask of you, dearest diary; but I do have one thing to say: I’m keeping that ember of hope lit in blue. Day into night and night into day, moment by moment, I know the universe will bless me with all that I need.


Until then,
I’m Yours Faithfully

[Kätzchen]

Dayle wandered into the house after keeping a close eye out for CC to deliver the cue – the secret signal to bring out the jewelry case to present to her that night. Hy watched CC holding her and cooing with her on the dance floor of the deck, while munching on desserts left for the guests to enjoy. Scanning the crowd looking for Hys date to show and make her appearance, Hy found her just entering the foyer of CCs ranch home. She was so beautiful to Hym. Flowing blonde hair, gorgeous blue eyes and petite and dressed elegantly in a pale yellow, waltz length, chiffon dress. Dazzled by her brilliant attire and beauty, Dayle rushed over to hug and kiss her with loving greetings. Holding each other, Dayle offered to take her out onto the patio where the food was arranged and offered to order a drink for her.

“I see everyone is having such a great time” Nikita smiled, with graceful bedevilment, to Dayle, “and what great music is playing!” Dayle asked her if she preferred to wait for her drink while Hy sat it on a table nearby and asked for her hand to dance. Her heart lit with up with smiles when Dayle asked her to dance.

“Let me have a sip first and then let’s share a dance,” Nikita spoke softly toward Dayle. Sipping on her Cranberry Mint Cosmopolitan, she laid it down, then motioned that she was ready to dance.

“Nikita, wait here for a sec while I go retrieve the gift for CC and put it in my vest pocket, so I’m ready for the cue when CC gives it”, Dayle softly whispered in her ear, kissing down a trail from her earlobe to her neck.

Nikita nuzzled Dayle’s nose before Hy left for the kitchen to get the jewelry. When Dayle came back, Nikita was still slowly sipping on her Cosmo and smiling in her heart as she watched CC and Hiz lady dance on the deck – oblivious to anyone watching them.

“Aren’t they so adorable, Hon?” Dayle whispered in Nikita’s ear.

“Ja” Nikita said, as she slowly turned toward Dayle’s face. “Come on, Hon, let’s join them out on the dance floor and make some of our own music,” Nikita smiled softly to Dayle.

As Dayle led Nikita onto dance floor, the band announced they were taking a break, while putting soft music on for others to dance too, while they stepped down to rest. Romantic melodies came from the P.A. system and those who were still dancing, kept their rhythm as they swayed amorously, deeply engrossed in each others presence without giving thought to anyone else on the dance floor. Mystery reigned heavy in the air. The moon floated gracefully in the sky where the stars shined brilliantly; some twinkling in deep whites, yellows or glittering oranges --- just what dreamy nights were made for. The air that night was fragrant with pine woods, food permeating the air, and flowering gardens that surrounded the deck. So delightful was the occasion that Dayle and Nikita were totally entranced with each other as the night came to life.

It was just about then that the tickle fairy emerged from the atmosphere: she and CC were so engrossed in their dance with each other that playful touches between the two of them led to fits of spontaneous giggling. CC was terribly ticklish; as was she. CC was ticklish around Hiz ears whereas she was ticklish around her hips. Giggling because she had caught CC unaware during their dance together, she playfully pretended to nip at Hiz ears. Her giggles were so contagious to CC that he couldn’t help wiggling while Hy tried to stop her from tickling him! Next thing you know, CC began to tickle her hips, secretly from within the folds in her dress while Hy cradled her in their dance: which made her squirm much more and made her start laughing, with glee! CC, trying to regain control of Hiz plans, quickly scanned the perimeter for Dayle. Hy noticed that Nikita had finally made it to the party and they were out on the deck dancing. CC whispered in her ear: “Hon? Let’s make our way over to Dayle and Nikita and say Hello to them,” Hy smiled that certain smile to her.

The tickle fairy left for the moment, and they danced ever so slowly to where Dayle and Nikita were smoochie-dancing on the deck. She and CC playfully bumped into them.

“Hello strangers!” both she and CC cooed to Dayle and Nikita. They broke out in smiles as both couples reveled in the night time romantic fun of the party.

“Do you have what I need, bro?” CC inquired playfully to Dayle.

“But, of course!” replied Dayle, with a wink. Both of them had agreed to a certain strategy to exchange the secretly packaged gift of jewelry, prior to the party. As she left CCs embrace to give Nikita a warm welcoming hug, CC and Dayle made the exchange. Putting the case inside the deep pocket of his dress suit pants and taking her back into Hiz embrace to carry on with their dance. As coupled, they drifted away from each other and faintly exchanged a look between them to indicate when they would hook up in a bit for drinks before party ended that night.

Not far off the deck, near garden, was a path that led to a gazebo. The gazebo stood at the top of a little hill on the property, in front of a natural pond. Around the pond were reeds and huge overgrown tiger lily beds. Trailing tea rose vines ensconced the gazebo’s woven frame, with properly contained English ivy that provided further privacy. CC led her by the hand and slowly made Hiz way, with her, to the gazebo. Crickets were chirping so softly, even though one could still hear music playing in the distance. Earlier in the evening, CC had asked Dayle to be sure to leave a tray with Champagne and stemmed glasses for his proposal ceremony at the gazebo. When they quietly ascended the walkway near the gazebo, there it was: the handsomely crafted table that Dayle had made for Hiz most peaceful place on the property. Several Adirondack chairs were gracefully placed around the area as well as the swinging love seat, made in the same style, which overlooked the pond.

“Hon? Where do you want to sit, dear?” CC said, as Hy enfolded her in Hiz strong arms. As they kissed each other gently, she motioned to the swinging love seat.

“Over here, Hon” she softly told CC. Leading her to the love seat to sit, CC softly said, “Let’s toast to our evening together with some Champagne.”

Smiling with loving eyes, she felt so deeply adored that CC would go to such length to provide the special party and atmosphere for both of them. She was so deeply proud of Hym in every way. Hy was gifted intellectually, yet not driven by Hiz ego. Hy always was such a sweet guy to her, and such a delightful playmate as well as her dearest friend. She liked all the different sides she knew about CC – like Hiz cute bursts of temper or Hiz devilish charms or Hiz secret life of the charmed gentleman and Hiz close friendship with Dayle and how Hy was responsible with Hiz family and friends in life. There wasn’t much to dislike about CC except his methods of madness when Hy drove or bossed her around playfully while they rode the horses or when he always helped her with her car that was as unpredictable as her. That darned Jezebel! T-Birds were always such a persnickety model! But she loved it when Hy would let her borrow his Baby, the corvette. She hadn’t given his Vette a nickname yet because she felt that Hiz Vette had a powerful energy, just like Hym.

“Hon?” she cooed softly to CC as he brought over their glasses filled with Champagne. “I think I have a special nick name for your Vette,” her voice rang melodically to Hym.

“Oh really,” CC lowered the glass of champagne to her. “What did you come up with?” CC asked, leaning into her for a kiss before he sat down beside her.

“Black Dragon,” she breathed magically to him.

Easing Hymself down to sit beside her on the swinging love seat, she picked up the folds of her dress so that CC could sit close to her. After they regained their balance in the swing, she laid her flowing dress over his lap and nuzzled in close, as they smiled to each other while looking toward the pond. Turning toward her, CC raised Hiz stemmed glass and proposed a toast to her.

(Part 1)

[Kätzchen]

“To the most complex, yet imperfectly sweet and most sassiest, honest woman I know on the planet: To your inner and outer beauty, to your brains – which we know was made for me – to your strength, your wit, your charm, our friendship – the bedrock of our world – and to this one night in paradise that has not gone amok yet!” CC smiled Hiz dazzling gentleman’s smile for her.


With her heart of hearts and flashing a brilliant smile to CC that said it all, she counter-proposed. “To You, CC: may all your strategies prove successful; may you always be the funniest guy I know on earth and for being just YOU; My someone who really cares about me, is always there and not smothering me, yet giving me all I need - just like the good Doctor that you are; and for that beautiful experience we finally had today down by the river, and for all the memories we share and dream about between each other. CC darling, You’re the best,” she raised her glass to Hiz and smiled that soft, yet sad, loving look to Hym.


“Prost,” CC’z low, deeply accented voice moaned back to her. They both sipped, while their eyes drank each other in measuring the moment strategically, like they always did with each other. Just then, a huge hawk-like bird flew over the pond in the darkness of the night, mellowed with moonlight.


“Hon?” she quietly whispered to CC. “That (the bird), must be an omen of some kind, don’t you think?” she added quickly without hesitation, yet on a positive note.


“Ja, it is” CC sighed with a knowing smile to her. “I think now is the perfect time to ask you something Dear…”


She sipped again and looked at CC with eyes of discernment. “What is it, Sweetheart?” she inquired, with gentle curiosity. CC sipped from Hiz champagne flute again, just like her, and then reached in his pocket for his cigarette case and lighter.


“Would you care for a cigarette, Hon?” CC opened up the case to her. “I would,” she said. “Do you want to share one or do you want your own, Dear?” she counter questioned him. “Let’s share” CC said, his eyes never leaving hers. She leaned over to kiss Hym for Hiz sweetness toward her. She loved this part most about Hym: How attentive Hy was with her, how Hy always made time for her during Hiz very busy and hectic life on the ranch. She knew a woman couldn’t ask for more, when it came to CC. They had known each other so long, shared so many funny and sad memories together and survived many a comical episode in life, too. They had a rich history between them. Her feelings ran deep for CC.

CC lit the cigarette, then took a drag and offered it to her. She took it, and inhaled the rich smoke of the tobacco and exhaled it into a thin sexy stream. Handing it back to CC, she asked him what it was he wanted to talk about. She tipped her glass and drank the rest of the Champagne. Mirroring her, he did too. She took his glass and rose to take them back to the table. As she did, he helped her up and followed her and asked her to refill their glasses again.


“Hon? Let’s sit again, while I talk with you – Okay?” CC offered the cigarette to her again as Hy took both of the filled glasses and followed her back to the love seat. As they sat, and returned to the cuddly closeness they once enjoyed previously, she took another drag off the cigarette, licked her lips, then leaned over to kiss CCz cheek and took possession of her glass of Champagne. Handing the cigarette back to CC for the last drag, she sipped on her drink while watching the waters of the pond: noticing that no music came from the patio – just the gentle lapping of the water and an occasional bird cooing nearby.


“I want to ask you how you feel about being my official girlfriend” CC spoke in a gentle, yet serious voice. “I want for us to become closer to each other in a formal way, but I don’t know what your response or feelings will be - but I want to talk about it and find out how you feel about us making our relationship official.”


CC knew how treacherous this subject was for her. She hadn’t really had too many successful relationships of the kind that he wanted with her. Yet she did have successful long-term friendships with members of her chosen family. The same was almost true for CC. Hiz life experiences were dotted by several relationships: Hy had one long term love that indelibly impacted his life – same as her. Both of them knew their strengths and weaknesses, as separate people, and, from past relationships. CC marveled in the moment, as was she, once CC’z words trailed of his husky masculine voice, what her reply would be. Seemingly, they sat in silence together as they both sipped Champagne while thoughtfully considering everything before them.


“CC?” she said, as she sat her glass down on the hand railing of the Gazebo behind them. “Will you put your arms around me? I’m getting cold out here” softly, she asked CC?


CC sat his glass up on the rail too, then retrieved a chenille wrap from the table, that Dayle left out there for him, to put around her – he knew how chilled she could get, on a spring night in the mountains. Returning to her, he opened it up and put it around her and then sat closer to her as Hy snuggled her and kissed her nose.


She started to speak, but he lifted a finger to her lips to shush her. “I want to tell you something special: I have something special to give you, even if you say no,” he spoke solemnly to her. CC reached into his pocket and delivering the case, Hy placed it in her hands. She looked at CC with such dearness. She leaned into CC and said, “Hon? Sweetheart?” she said with a lilt in her voice. “It’s so hard to answer you and I’m so glad that you said what you said, but CC? My answer might anger you and then spoil the whole night – and that is so much pressure, especially since we’ve had such a huge moment in our lives today. Is it okay with you Hon if I put off that answer until another day and tell you that I would love to have whatever you give to me that is in this case? Tell me Sweetheart, I won’t open the case until I know how you feel about what I just told you,” she said half fearful of what Hiz answer might be. But, neither one of them wanted to hurt the other; yet they had always found ways to handle their differences with playful hearts. Sometimes, they had lively disagreements that seemed to threaten their peaceful existence with each other --- but they always found a way to overcome it together: usually in bed. She loved those times, where they just fell into bed and ravaged each other after a heated duel of the minds. She wondered about now, if that silent volcano would erupt in CC. This was serious, she could tell.


“Let’s smoke again” offered CC, because they both needed some distraction so they could think logically without their sexed up energy clouding the present moment. CC got another cigarette out for them to share; placed it between her lips, then lit it for her. As soon as she exhaled, she handed it to him and watched him do the same. Both of them heavily weighing the outcome of the next statement made. She lowered her eyes, deep in thought. Hy lifted her chin and explained to her as he exhaled and handed the cigarette back to her:


“I can handle you telling me no, if our timing is off; but to be honest, I can’t handle not knowing if you will let me pin you as my girl. I want you to have this - it’s my gift of love to you – I want you to wear what I give to you” CC said, with a certain dominance. “How do you feel about that, Hon?”


She loved it when CC showed this side of Hym to her. How could she say no to him? She couldn’t and didn’t want to, but she wasn’t finished with college yet and Grad school was yet to come. And the last time something like this came up between them, he got mad (which was rare) and sulked for weeks, which felt like light years to her.

And that’s when it all started: WW3 on the patio…

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Dearest Diary,


It occurred to me today (looking back over last term), that life does constantly, and ever presently, provide for challenge.


Which is exactly why I relish this moment so deeply: It is Spring Break!!!!!! Can you believe it??? It's good to know that I can appreciate all the good in my life, too. Sometimes it is a good thing that we do not always understand or know the answers. It's just a miracle in itself, that life tastes so good right this moment. The truth is that I couldn't have known, but I did have some foresight that caused me to see that everything is, as it is, for a divine purpose (or a devilish one, for that matter)!


I feel happiness today. I'm content.

It's good to be present and live life each day.

And, oh, just for good measure: I have something for you to think about, my dearest diary. You thought you were getting off easy... haha!


Just when does dawn actually rise?


Until then,
I’m Yours Faithfully

[Kätzchen]

TOday is Saturday and things in life are ever evolving:
A new term gets under way; another son left the nest;
the house has been spring cleaned and I’m recovering slowly from my surgery.
But it's another day in Paradise…and a sweet one at that!
Trees are blooming, even though we periodically get snow in the mountains,
the grass and hills are showing that special kind of green, from spring; and today is a perfect day to just write some poetry.

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Pythagorean Melody

These thoughts,

Transposed: onto your Berlin Papyrus,

Come from the cosine
Of indexical, yet identical thought –
Not Euclidean, nor Chaldean by origin.
But some would say follow this star:
Star of night, or the
Star of day
Numbered in succinctness – a
Delectable: ballet.
Perplexed by the theorem
No angled cosine to save; yet
Though I know the camel travels
Isolated, yet free to roam rivulet – oh!
Water of life, plenty for thirst
The desert will not perish, nor its fruits
Dates, coconut palms, and currants bleeding with juice;
In Egypt the kings sleep – but the
Queen of the Nile,
Who walked more than many a mile,
Was buried at deep before birth –
Ideas born of myrrh
Frankincense adored with gold
Nonetheless, brilliant and bold
Pharaohs’ scepter was touching my soul:
Like a stealth mathematickoi
Code of honor
No breach of trust –
It’s a must.
Cicero’d by trig tempered rhetoric
Quietly listening as an akousmatikoi
Conceptualizing:
The akousmata, tis powerful
Bend it with imagination
Flow with the force of the river – you
Stepped into the waters
Cleansed; and as you emerged, the
Stellar musculature of medicine will
Take hold within your might:
For tis the principle of the strongest
Dreamed link, predicated on a starless journey –
No moon to wish on, but
Deeply moaning, we go into the night.
Never looking back,
There is nothing to gain,
‘cept the repeat of an egregious stain
Cultured by anger, greed and bane –
There is no ‘iron’ veil.
This Pythagorean Theorem
Remains steady,
For what is behind you
Propels you, feel the pain
Motivated by numbers, it
Will manifest in transmigration
Of the peculiar soul
Purification, rituals, mysticism
Equations translated into music
Pounded out by heart
The path to heaven
Is true, just start.
Harmonious, they don’t give a damn
This anvil of life
Cascades into a freefall,
Navigating perilously
Mitigated with gall,
Jettisoning the baggage
No time to stall;
This cup will not pass
This way again, for today – nor
Tomorrow, but certainly in the present, a
Diabolical amusement is
Explored from a lens:
Molten in lava black,
Red hot with thunder,
Encasing the problem
With shellac’d metaphysics,
Preserved forever more
Never: lack.
Hang on tight
I’ve got your back.
Arranged in the motion
Of a key
Sharpened with knowledge
Sting worthy of a bee
Hark! Hear that voice –
Carpathian Mountains speak the answer;
For in my heart,
I rejoice.

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Dearest Diary,
No questions or answers for today...
but just to say: I'm so very, very happy.