A Butch Mirror

AtLast · 02-16-2010, 10:13 PM

I have always been comfortable with my body, except when I had a run with obesity. I found OA was what worked with my dealing with this. I do have to stay on top of my compulsive over eating. mainly, this is about health for me. I also have a congenital back problem and severe poly osteoarthritis and RA- so weight has a whole lot to do with pain with me. taking off a few more pounds would help me out.

I certainly had a lot of negative comments as a girl growing up with having broad shoulders, muscles, and slight hips/butt. I am a C cup. Not from my parents, however. They praised my athletic ability and strenghth and did not say I was a big girl like so many did. I feel very fortunate about this as I just did not have a girls body if one goes by the usual societal standards.

I like how my body is more of a weaving of female and male. I embrace both. I love my breasts and they are an important component of eroticism for me. I love my vagina for the same reason. Sure, I strap, but it is simply a matter of giving pleasure to a lover that desires it. It just does not have a thing to do with my butch identity with me. Sometimes I have felt strange about this in relationship to other butches (and even been riducluled), but I'm just not vested in butch cock. I pack upon request, LOL! We are all different about this. I'm female identified and honestly like being a butch woman and having both feminine & masculine body features.

I was always proud of my strong legs and thighs. My Mom used to tell me I had my Dad's legs. She loved his legs and met him when he was a professional bicycle rider. He trained me as a kid to race. Due to multiple back surgeries and permanent nerve damage, my leg & thigh muscles have atrophied some. And hell, I will be 59 next month. My way buff days are gone! But I am a physically active person, but certainly don't run the miles everday anymore. My joints won't allow that. I walk, dance, hike and swim. I still cycle some.

I'm large boned and 5'7". Seems like this is rather average, dunnno. I have the body I have and feel at home in it. I am grateful for this as I know a lot of butches struggle with body image.

I have lousy skin. I hate it. I have to deal with continued break outs and always have. My RA is multi symptom in nature and I have psoriatic RA along with the usual joint deterioration. So, I will not wear tank type shirts. I hate this as my upper arms and shoulders were once quite nice with good muscle definition, or at least I was told this. Who knows! But, I miss wearing them. Shorts are OK.

Write14u · 02-17-2010, 02:24 AM

Great thread!

I know I struggled with my body image greatly when I first came out, but I feel like I've come into my own, particularly in the past 5-6 years.

I can't figure out how in hell every single person in my immediate family has no hips/ass, yet I do. *sigh* That aside, it doesn't matter to me.

I love my shoulders most of all. I love my strength. One of my exes, who is still my best friend, always says I'm "strong like bull!." I think I have nice hands, as well, and I have great skin. It's softer than a baby's butt. LOL

OK, OK....I'm vain. I own it. *grin*

But in all seriousness, it's a hard-won fight with self-image to see myself in a positive light. And I'll give much credit to the women I've been with over the years because of all the loving support I received from them. These women helped me see the positives, which made my acceptance of myself come along easier.

02-17-2010, 02:24 AM	#2
Write14u Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: I'm easy Relationship Status: She's some kind of wonderful. Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: I keep my heart and soul in the boondocks Posts: 626 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 240 Thanked 714 Times in 325 Posts Rep Power: 759422	Great thread! I know I struggled with my body image greatly when I first came out, but I feel like I've come into my own, particularly in the past 5-6 years. I can't figure out how in hell every single person in my immediate family has no hips/ass, yet I do. sigh That aside, it doesn't matter to me. I love my shoulders most of all. I love my strength. One of my exes, who is still my best friend, always says I'm "strong like bull!." I think I have nice hands, as well, and I have great skin. It's softer than a baby's butt. LOL OK, OK....I'm vain. I own it. grin But in all seriousness, it's a hard-won fight with self-image to see myself in a positive light. And I'll give much credit to the women I've been with over the years because of all the loving support I received from them. These women helped me see the positives, which made my acceptance of myself come along easier. __________________ "I believe in the sweet spot, soft-core pornography, opening your presents Christmas morning rather than Christmas Eve and I believe in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days." -- Crash Davis, Bull Durham

02-16-2010, 10:13 PM	#1
AtLast Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Woman Preferred Pronoun?: HER - SHE Relationship Status: Relating Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: CA & AZ I'm a Snowbird Posts: 5,408 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 11,826 Thanked 10,827 Times in 3,199 Posts Rep Power: 21474857	I have always been comfortable with my body, except when I had a run with obesity. I found OA was what worked with my dealing with this. I do have to stay on top of my compulsive over eating. mainly, this is about health for me. I also have a congenital back problem and severe poly osteoarthritis and RA- so weight has a whole lot to do with pain with me. taking off a few more pounds would help me out. I certainly had a lot of negative comments as a girl growing up with having broad shoulders, muscles, and slight hips/butt. I am a C cup. Not from my parents, however. They praised my athletic ability and strenghth and did not say I was a big girl like so many did. I feel very fortunate about this as I just did not have a girls body if one goes by the usual societal standards. I like how my body is more of a weaving of female and male. I embrace both. I love my breasts and they are an important component of eroticism for me. I love my vagina for the same reason. Sure, I strap, but it is simply a matter of giving pleasure to a lover that desires it. It just does not have a thing to do with my butch identity with me. Sometimes I have felt strange about this in relationship to other butches (and even been riducluled), but I'm just not vested in butch cock. I pack upon request, LOL! We are all different about this. I'm female identified and honestly like being a butch woman and having both feminine & masculine body features. I was always proud of my strong legs and thighs. My Mom used to tell me I had my Dad's legs. She loved his legs and met him when he was a professional bicycle rider. He trained me as a kid to race. Due to multiple back surgeries and permanent nerve damage, my leg & thigh muscles have atrophied some. And hell, I will be 59 next month. My way buff days are gone! But I am a physically active person, but certainly don't run the miles everday anymore. My joints won't allow that. I walk, dance, hike and swim. I still cycle some. I'm large boned and 5'7". Seems like this is rather average, dunnno. I have the body I have and feel at home in it. I am grateful for this as I know a lot of butches struggle with body image. I have lousy skin. I hate it. I have to deal with continued break outs and always have. My RA is multi symptom in nature and I have psoriatic RA along with the usual joint deterioration. So, I will not wear tank type shirts. I hate this as my upper arms and shoulders were once quite nice with good muscle definition, or at least I was told this. Who knows! But, I miss wearing them. Shorts are OK.