What made you sad today...

sylvie · 01-27-2012, 11:32 PM

my father & stepmother -
they deliberately set out to hurt me, as often as possible..
& while i don't take on that anger anymore, because well - i just don't want to and simply won't play their dirty games back to them.. i am mature & do care and have love for them, as people who have been in my life for well.. my whole life..

But, what makes me sad, is their need to do this to me.. & need to ridicule and to try and lower my esteem.. They're not being supportive of the positive changes i am making..& when i think about this deeply, i realize it's because they're unhappy in their own lives. Not an excuse, of course.

But, no matter how mean spirited they can be, i'll continue to wish for happiness for them, some peace & to be gentle with themselves.. i distance them for my own well-being - but still want well for them..

SmoothButch · 02-09-2012, 06:01 PM

Hearing the news of a Virginia Paramedic Line of Duty Death.

RIP AFD Medic Weissman

Miss Scarlett · 02-09-2012, 07:43 PM

The death of an elderly client...working on his estate...he was such a sweet gentleman...

sylvie · 02-09-2012, 08:11 PM

Something i have been struggling with for a couple of weeks now..
Hearing my stepmother talking with her friend, at work under her breath..
& laughing at me as i was undressing in the girl's locker room.
i have lost a considerable amount of weight, however i need to tone my arms, because i have loose skin happening...

But how my stepmother ever thought that i would be okay overhearing her chuckling at me, saying how could i ever be comfortable showing that & then shivering like it was the most disgusting thing in the world.

While i know i've still a ways to go with my weight, it saddens me that she picks on me like this and not even to my face but rather, behind my back.. (or well, attempted to)...

While i have distanced both her & my father for about 3-4 weeks now (& this was a VERY good decision for my own well-being).. It's difficult to truly distance her when i work in the same building as her..

i don't like my body, however i am learning to LOVE it - and as my confidence grows, i'm learning to shake things like this off .. i still love them, wish them nothing harsh, but do wish them some peace of mind and some love in their hearts to not have to be so miserable and not be so judgemental.. life's too short.. But now i know, distancing them was indeed the right choice for me.

girl_dee · 02-11-2012, 08:17 PM

Whitney..............

Gráinne · 02-11-2012, 08:23 PM

When someone my age passes away, for no apparent reason. That makes me both sad and angry.

Greyson · 02-12-2012, 03:15 AM

Me too, the passing of Whitney Houston. Too young, too talented and her daughter still growing up.

Blade · 02-29-2012, 04:35 PM

The person at the store this morning who ask me for money. He had this sad story about taking his mother to the hospital last night and her dying this morning. Blah blah blah as he went on rambling. When he finished I said Phillip, your mother has been dead 12 or 15 yrs. Yes this was someone I knew. In the shape he was in, he didn't recognize me and I didn't recognize him.
Very sad how drugs can ruin the life of a good person.

Glenn · 03-05-2012, 03:03 AM

Comments made by some people online here about the Bible who are in no way experts. "The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are to be Spiritually discerned."-1Cor.2:14

Cid · 03-05-2012, 10:51 PM

I miss my friend

Jett · 07-22-2012, 06:52 PM

My cat of almost 15 years passed away today... R.I.P. Clovis my buddy

sylvie · 07-22-2012, 07:59 PM

Hearing from my father and realizing that he is back in the alcohol again.
This really, really saddens me, and i worry about him and his health.
i am dealing with it much differently this time though, shows the growth within me, that which is much healthier for me mentally & emotionally.

It's his addiction. i can love him, and worry about him. But i can't change him.
i hope, hope, hope that he finds his path to recovery..And if he needs my help, he'll have it 110%. Until then, i cannot take this on.. It triggers me, and it's not healthy for me...i recognize this and acknowledge it..

01-27-2012, 11:32 PM	#1
sylvie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she Relationship Status: fiercely protected ♥ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Moving home in OR with Him VERY soooon !! Posts: 2,548 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,834 Thanked 7,501 Times in 1,850 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	my father & stepmother - they deliberately set out to hurt me, as often as possible.. & while i don't take on that anger anymore, because well - i just don't want to and simply won't play their dirty games back to them.. i am mature & do care and have love for them, as people who have been in my life for well.. my whole life.. But, what makes me sad, is their need to do this to me.. & need to ridicule and to try and lower my esteem.. They're not being supportive of the positive changes i am making..& when i think about this deeply, i realize it's because they're unhappy in their own lives. Not an excuse, of course. But, no matter how mean spirited they can be, i'll continue to wish for happiness for them, some peace & to be gentle with themselves.. i distance them for my own well-being - but still want well for them.. __________________ my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all. my facebook weight loss page: http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney

02-09-2012, 06:01 PM	#2
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02-09-2012, 08:11 PM	#4
sylvie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she Relationship Status: fiercely protected ♥ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Moving home in OR with Him VERY soooon !! Posts: 2,548 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,834 Thanked 7,501 Times in 1,850 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Something i have been struggling with for a couple of weeks now.. Hearing my stepmother talking with her friend, at work under her breath.. & laughing at me as i was undressing in the girl's locker room. i have lost a considerable amount of weight, however i need to tone my arms, because i have loose skin happening... But how my stepmother ever thought that i would be okay overhearing her chuckling at me, saying how could i ever be comfortable showing that & then shivering like it was the most disgusting thing in the world. While i know i've still a ways to go with my weight, it saddens me that she picks on me like this and not even to my face but rather, behind my back.. (or well, attempted to)... While i have distanced both her & my father for about 3-4 weeks now (& this was a VERY good decision for my own well-being).. It's difficult to truly distance her when i work in the same building as her.. i don't like my body, however i am learning to LOVE it - and as my confidence grows, i'm learning to shake things like this off .. i still love them, wish them nothing harsh, but do wish them some peace of mind and some love in their hearts to not have to be so miserable and not be so judgemental.. life's too short.. But now i know, distancing them was indeed the right choice for me. __________________ my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all. my facebook weight loss page: http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney

02-11-2012, 08:23 PM	#6
Gráinne Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Neither, nada, out of the box Preferred Pronoun?: My name always works Relationship Status: Happy whatever happens Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: Little Rock Posts: 1,864 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,117 Thanked 7,386 Times in 1,457 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	When someone my age passes away, for no apparent reason. That makes me both sad and angry. __________________ The odds of going to the store for a loaf of bread and coming out with only a loaf of bread are three billion to one. ~Erma Bombeck

02-12-2012, 03:15 AM	#7
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02-09-2012, 07:43 PM	#3
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02-11-2012, 08:17 PM	#5
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02-29-2012, 04:35 PM	#8
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03-05-2012, 03:03 AM	#9
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03-05-2012, 10:51 PM	#10
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07-22-2012, 06:52 PM	#11
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07-22-2012, 07:59 PM	#12
sylvie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she Relationship Status: fiercely protected ♥ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Moving home in OR with Him VERY soooon !! Posts: 2,548 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,834 Thanked 7,501 Times in 1,850 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Hearing from my father and realizing that he is back in the alcohol again. This really, really saddens me, and i worry about him and his health. i am dealing with it much differently this time though, shows the growth within me, that which is much healthier for me mentally & emotionally. It's his addiction. i can love him, and worry about him. But i can't change him. i hope, hope, hope that he finds his path to recovery..And if he needs my help, he'll have it 110%. Until then, i cannot take this on.. It triggers me, and it's not healthy for me...i recognize this and acknowledge it.. __________________ my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all. my facebook weight loss page: http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney