Grieving

[MsTinkerbelly]

"One Sweet Day"


Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

[Chorus:]
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Momma I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

[Chorus]

Although the sun will never shine the same again
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

[Chorus]

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

[Ginger]

Andrew, I'm so sorry for your loss of your sister. I wish I could say it gets better with time but I don't think it does; I think we just learn to integrate the loss into our sense of self, and it becomes part of us, in way that expands who we are. Which in the end is a good thing. Take care of yourself. IslandScout

[fever]

I am on my way to the cemetary where my mom is buried. It is a year today that she lost the fight with her kidneys and that nasty C word. Has it really been a year? It feels like only yesterday that I was heading off somewhere with her to shop, eat, talk. There are so many things I didn't tell her, so many times she wanted to have private time with me so she could reveal some of her hopes, dreams, alleged failures and wonderful successes. She was kind hearted yet had a sharp tongue. We are of British heritage, maybe that is why. lol I miss her, I love her, I am thankful that I had her for a mother. And I apologize for all the times she waited patiently for me to come to visit, and I had something "more important" to do.

Candice

[Stronghealer]

Just having a difficult time with grieving.The four year anniversary of her death is fast approaching-and damn it-I miss my mom immensely!

[Babyangeleyez]

I'm glad I found this thread. I just want to say I'm sorry for everyones loss. I lost my son May 3, 2008. He was 16. I grieve everyday for him. Half of my heart died the night he took his final breath. Its odd for me now when I lose family or friends....I don't cry for their passing, instead I cry because I'm jealous. I'm jealous because they get to see my son again. They get to hug him, talk to him, and the only thing I get to do is look at his pictures or spend time at his grave. I will never get to look into those big beautiful brown eyes or run my fingers through his curls until it is my time to "go home".

[Blue_Daddy-O]

Originally Posted by Stronghealer

Just having a difficult time with grieving.The four year anniversary of her death is fast approaching-and damn it-I miss my mom immensely!

Hugs Grey.

[Ginger]

Whenever I experience loss, I start to dream again about my sister.

After she died I found two poems on her hard drive she'd written about me, that I'd never seen. She left me that gift.

And now that I'm leaving my partner's or I guess ex-partner's house and my sense of home and security is in a little bit of distress (it's also an exciting time), my sister is more present in my mind.

"The sea will never be displaced by me," she wrote in an ironic poem I insisted they put in the program for her funeral, though it had people scratching their heads. She was humble and also had this wry distant sense of how unique her mind was.

Twice I've called my ex by her name, and last night I dreamed my sister was my roommate, and our apartment was incredibly light and sunny, with lots of people coming and going, and the chaos was comforting. I thought it was a good sign.

[Greyson]

My mom passed away this week. She was the eldest daughter of seven children. My mother helped raise her siblings. I was the eldest daughter of my mother's seven children. I was named after my mom.

When I last saw my mother this summer she told me that my name Greyson fits me perfectly. She told me I was her "Grey Son. Not quite one or the other." My mom told me my name suited me perfectly.

I wrote my mom a letter to take with her into eternity. I am comforted to know she cried with joy when the letter was read to her. My letter was cremated with my mom. The truth is, not only the letter, a piece of me too. I love you Mom. Until we meet again.

your Greyson.

[Bella~Vita]

Originally Posted by Stronghealer

Just having a difficult time with grieving.The four year anniversary of her death is fast approaching-and damn it-I miss my mom immensely!

I can so relate it's my moms also but back in may, the 28th on memorial day ... I think I wrote you before on the dash site, my name was Ally_J2005.
I'm sorry for your loss and your hurt. But know one thing she is looking down on you.

Someone who shares your pain ! ~KatFl~

[not2shygrrl]

Originally Posted by Stronghealer

Just having a difficult time with grieving.The four year anniversary of her death is fast approaching-and damn it-I miss my mom immensely!

January will be 4 for me and my Ma........I try and talk to friends about it, and visit her grave side and talk with her, but sometimes nothing works and you just want a hug from your Mom......SH, I hope you find something or someone(s) that will sustain you thru this heavier than usual grieving time........

[MsTinkerbelly]

Originally Posted by Stronghealer

Just having a difficult time with grieving.The four year anniversary of her death is fast approaching-and damn it-I miss my mom immensely!

It is a very hard loss

[~SweetCheeks~]

I just sat here and read all 10 pages so many loved ones gone. I send prayers of comfort to all those grieving their losses.

I am about to turn 30 in a few months and it feels so much of my life has been dealing with death. I went to my first funeral at 2 years old and have attended more funeral services in my life than I am in years of birth. The hardest ones for me seem to be my Uncle and Cousin who committed suicide, so many unanswered questions and so much pain. I was close to both of them and it hurts so deep. Watching my cousin plan her wedding and her confiding in me that she feels so lost without her daddy tho its been 8 years the pain is still deep leaves me lost for words.

I am also grieving and having a very difficult time lately watching the shell of my grandmother who was always my best friend and rock. Tho she is still present in body she is not here. She suffered a massive heart attack 15 years ago and my grandfather who has been with her for 52 years has cared for her and couldn't let her go. The man surrounds his entire life around her care. I go over and help care for her anytime he needs me, never letting him know how much it hurts to see my grandmother but know she will never be the same. My family has made me the rock in so many ways and its hard even after 15 years I still find myself dreaming about all the things I wanted to share with my Grandma. It pains me that my younger siblings never had the chance to build a relationship with their grandparents as all have passed on besides our grandfather.

I recently attended the funeral for a childhood friends father who passed away from a life long illness. Knowing we are the same age and both my parents tho they are still young are not in good health makes my heart ache and scares me. This thread has been really good to read and sort my feelings. Thank you all for sharing your stories and grief, also your words of advice.

[KayCee]

Still missing my dad who died suddenly four years ago and all hell broke lose in my life. I was a daddy's girl, the youngest child and only daughter and I loved him very, very much. We were so like-minded and he always stood up for me and helped whenever he could. Although he wasn't home much, the time we spent together, us two just talking and him listening, was so precious to me...He was such an unique person and had a great sense of humor, oh! how much we laughed together, where other people were shaking their heads at us for so much silliness...And how intelligent he was, with so much life experience and the little stories he told me of his journeys he had in this world. I always loved listening to them, although I've probably heard some a few thousand times before....

Right now I would need him and his advice more than ever...his love and care I could count on no matter what...

Gosh!..I love and miss him so much!!!...My life will never be the same ever again!

[Glenn]

Thank-You Ms Tinkerbelly for this poem. My beloved sweet kind and good #1 cat son Scott Fitz got murdered by a loose pit bull today, and I could'nt find the words...


Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

[Chorus:]
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Momma I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

[Chorus]

Although the sun will never shine the same again
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

[Chorus]

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say[/QUOTE]

[ksrainbow]

A year ago today, my family and I returned my Mother to the earth she so loved! It was her final wish that she return to the land that so blessed her with all that is good and kind! She is now walking in the Garden with her God and holding the simple gifts of life in her kind and gentle hands.

Today we rejoice in the nourishment that she gave to all of us!

Ks-

[Saphyreies]

My mom died over 32 years ago, when i was 19.
For no particular reason, i miss her terribly today.
I want to lay my head on her lap so she'll play with my hair like i remember.
I dream about her a lot lately, and in my dreams she is old and frail - like she looked when she was dying, even though she was only 60.
I was taking care of her, unlike i was able to do when she was dying because of lack of resources at my young age.
I'm 51 now, but i don't care how this sounds:
I want my mommy.

[Heavenleahangel]

Its been 1 year exactly that my best friend and travel buddy, Brenda, went to be with the Lord. She was 18 years older than I am, but we were raised as sisters. She and I were sooo close and talked on the phone atleast 2-3 times a day! She died on the 11th and was buried a year ago today. I miss her so much. I still haven't taken the time to properly grieve....

[Graham]

Originally Posted by Graham

This morning my wife of 13 years left me....she says she will be back....just needs to find herself, spend some time alone. She said she hasn't been happy now for 2 years. We have seen some rough times this past couple of years....seemed happy to me, we had just got thru the last rough thing and where on our way to some sucess, and she decides to run. She did tell me that she loves me and that the next time I see her her hair will be longer you just wait. She said her boss will hire her back when she comes back.

She won't really give me a reason as to why she is leaving even though the past 2 weeks I have waited on this day anytime I tryed to talk to her she just put up the wall or changed the subject. I'm not asking for advice...just venting and trying to grieve. I know I will get past this and some days will be worse than others. Thanks for listening.

Now she just told me by facebook she is gone....done lied to my face all these 2 weeks...

[JustLovelyJenn]

16 years ago, on November 10th, you died. Some say maybe you knew it was coming. You even made a card for those who died of heart attacks, who would have ever guessed one would take you so young. 12 years old was far to young. I still miss you a lot. You missed all the important things. I went to prom, graduated from high school, got married, had my children, left my husband... I'm a different person now then I ever thought I would be. Grandma wrote another poem about you when you left... I read it again today. It make me cry. I hope you know I always think of you. I even named my daughter after you so you would always be close.

I love you Amber Beth.


Amber
Our Pixie has gone home.
Tonight the angels reached out their hands
And led her back
To that land from which she came.
Our lives will be less because she has left us.
But those who have gathered her home
Are rejoicing this day
And now she can sing with the angel choirs.

-Zelda Lorraine Kline