Bringing It Up: Describe The Butch You Are

rustedrims · 06-10-2012, 08:13 AM

The job came up for bid that i have been waiting for..I have had a hand full of months to think about it..I knew it was comming..Tomorrow is the day i make my move..[literally]. The thing is that i have to go on day shift for 6 weeks to be trained.. That isnt a problem..I am on midnights now and love it..The guy that will be training me i absolutely cant stand.!!.He feels the same about me..At least we agree on that..How much can you learn from a guy that doesnt like ya..I can deal with all that..Here is the thing..It has been quite a few years ago but he was making comments about the lifestyle i live..I would hear it from a friend what he was saying..Didnt like that and felt uncomfortable..
I need to gather all my Butch strength and go in there and learn that job and deal with him..The up side to all this is he will be retiring the first of the year..Eventually i will work my way back on nights and work with the guy that is my friend and learn from him all i need to know..
My butchness will be put to the test and i will see how much of that will be forced out by that idiot..I am in a better place with my lifestyle that i live and can handle people a little better than in the past..

I need to take a step back and look at the big picture..I get a small pay raise and i will work with my brain but will still have physcial work..A big change as to what i am doing now..I will also be getting away from people i have worked with for 20 years..I just gotta wait it out..Now i will find out what kind of butch i am in the work place knowingly setting myself up to people that do not approve..

Ya know what..??. i will be ok..I need to do this..
s..

Ginger · 06-10-2012, 09:31 AM

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Originally Posted by rustedrims

The job came up for bid that i have been waiting for..I have had a hand full of months to think about it..I knew it was comming..Tomorrow is the day i make my move..[literally]. The thing is that i have to go on day shift for 6 weeks to be trained.. That isnt a problem..I am on midnights now and love it..The guy that will be training me i absolutely cant stand.!!.He feels the same about me..At least we agree on that..How much can you learn from a guy that doesnt like ya..I can deal with all that..Here is the thing..It has been quite a few years ago but he was making comments about the lifestyle i live..I would hear it from a friend what he was saying..Didnt like that and felt uncomfortable..
I need to gather all my Butch strength and go in there and learn that job and deal with him..The up side to all this is he will be retiring the first of the year..Eventually i will work my way back on nights and work with the guy that is my friend and learn from him all i need to know..
My butchness will be put to the test and i will see how much of that will be forced out by that idiot..I am in a better place with my lifestyle that i live and can handle people a little better than in the past..

I need to take a step back and look at the big picture..I get a small pay raise and i will work with my brain but will still have physcial work..A big change as to what i am doing now..I will also be getting away from people i have worked with for 20 years..I just gotta wait it out..Now i will find out what kind of butch i am in the work place knowingly setting myself up to people that do not approve..

Ya know what..??. i will be ok..I need to do this..
s..

Best of luck, Rusted Rims!!! Of course you will be ok. It sounds like you know exactly what you're doing, what the risks are, and most of all, what your strengths are.

Scout

rustedrims · 06-14-2012, 06:36 AM

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Originally Posted by IslandScout

Best of luck, Rusted Rims!!! Of course you will be ok. It sounds like you know exactly what you're doing, what the risks are, and most of all, what your strengths are.

Scout

Thanks Scout..
I will find out if i got the job tonight if someone doesnt call me before work..
The job was moved so i will not be working with that horrible guy..Looking good already..

s..

SleepyButch · 06-14-2012, 08:32 AM

What type of Butch I am:

This is a really good question. I have not thought of this in some time so it's good to remind myself as well.

For as far back as I can remember, I have always loved women. I had my first crush at age five on the neighbor girl who I think was a year older than me. Of course everyone thought it was cute at that time....

I had struggled many years as to my identity. I had no idea such a thing as Butch existed but I did know that I was masculine. I thought I must want to be a man because why else would I have these feelings.
Way back, I had a group of friends, none of who identified as Butch/femme. When I first heard the term Butch and found out what it meant, I told them hey I'm Butch and they laughed at me. So I was confused until I found out that there was a Butch/femme dynamic. How very exciting for me. I still remember the feeling of shopping in the men's section for the first time.

I am who I am. I am by no means perfect and never will be. I am always evolving and learning about myself, the good and the bad things. I am chivalrous, caring, funny, sarcastic, and romantic. I like to put my hand on the small of your back as I lead you through the door. I am protective and a care taker, which is probably why I became a nurse. I like to hold you but I also at times want to be held. I love to have my hair played with... unless we are going out.. don't mess it up... lol.

I am human. I have feelings just like everyone else even though I try to hide them at times to portray that I am strong and can handle anything. I've learned how to cry even if I don't like it. I am proud to be Butch but that does not define everything about me.

I am sure there is more to what I could say but for now, this is a good start.

rustedrims · 06-19-2012, 03:41 AM

Got to bed late,alarm went off,spilled my tea all over,whipped it up with my shorts on the floor,fell back to sleep,crap!got up late,no time to pack my lunch,forgot my banana on the counter,forgot to feed cats before i left,driving faster than normal and hoping an animal doesnt jump out of the ditch in front of me..

Got to work,grabbed my junk,checked to see if i got the job,D#mn.! Didnt get the job..A guy with 1973 seniority got it and i only have 1983..
Kinda funny i was thinking i had 5 more years to finish school when he started working there..I told a girl we work with Hey a guy 73 got the job i didnt get it and she said geezzz i wasnt even born yet..!!.. We all laughed..It was funny..

Plan B try again..

Thank-you for all the support and kind words..Very much appreciated..

s..

06-10-2012, 08:13 AM	#1
rustedrims Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: she/her Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Northern Ohio close to Lake Erie and ice-cream places Posts: 444 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,123 Thanked 2,553 Times in 367 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	Ok gonna do it.. The job came up for bid that i have been waiting for..I have had a hand full of months to think about it..I knew it was comming..Tomorrow is the day i make my move..[literally]. The thing is that i have to go on day shift for 6 weeks to be trained.. That isnt a problem..I am on midnights now and love it..The guy that will be training me i absolutely cant stand.!!.He feels the same about me..At least we agree on that..How much can you learn from a guy that doesnt like ya..I can deal with all that..Here is the thing..It has been quite a few years ago but he was making comments about the lifestyle i live..I would hear it from a friend what he was saying..Didnt like that and felt uncomfortable.. I need to gather all my Butch strength and go in there and learn that job and deal with him..The up side to all this is he will be retiring the first of the year..Eventually i will work my way back on nights and work with the guy that is my friend and learn from him all i need to know.. My butchness will be put to the test and i will see how much of that will be forced out by that idiot..I am in a better place with my lifestyle that i live and can handle people a little better than in the past.. I need to take a step back and look at the big picture..I get a small pay raise and i will work with my brain but will still have physcial work..A big change as to what i am doing now..I will also be getting away from people i have worked with for 20 years..I just gotta wait it out..Now i will find out what kind of butch i am in the work place knowingly setting myself up to people that do not approve.. Ya know what..??. i will be ok..I need to do this.. s.. __________________ I don't want to be perfect because if I was then I will loose the ability to learn.

06-19-2012, 03:41 AM	#5
rustedrims Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: she/her Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Northern Ohio close to Lake Erie and ice-cream places Posts: 444 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,123 Thanked 2,553 Times in 367 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	Job update.. Got to bed late,alarm went off,spilled my tea all over,whipped it up with my shorts on the floor,fell back to sleep,crap!got up late,no time to pack my lunch,forgot my banana on the counter,forgot to feed cats before i left,driving faster than normal and hoping an animal doesnt jump out of the ditch in front of me.. Got to work,grabbed my junk,checked to see if i got the job,D#mn.! Didnt get the job..A guy with 1973 seniority got it and i only have 1983.. Kinda funny i was thinking i had 5 more years to finish school when he started working there..I told a girl we work with Hey a guy 73 got the job i didnt get it and she said geezzz i wasnt even born yet..!!.. We all laughed..It was funny.. Plan B try again.. Thank-you for all the support and kind words..Very much appreciated.. s.. __________________ I don't want to be perfect because if I was then I will loose the ability to learn.

06-14-2012, 08:32 AM	#4
SleepyButch Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Dude Preferred Pronoun?: He, Him Relationship Status: Taken Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: Hidden Valley Ranch Posts: 3,511 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,220 Thanked 11,248 Times in 2,754 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	What type of Butch I am: This is a really good question. I have not thought of this in some time so it's good to remind myself as well. For as far back as I can remember, I have always loved women. I had my first crush at age five on the neighbor girl who I think was a year older than me. Of course everyone thought it was cute at that time.... I had struggled many years as to my identity. I had no idea such a thing as Butch existed but I did know that I was masculine. I thought I must want to be a man because why else would I have these feelings. Way back, I had a group of friends, none of who identified as Butch/femme. When I first heard the term Butch and found out what it meant, I told them hey I'm Butch and they laughed at me. So I was confused until I found out that there was a Butch/femme dynamic. How very exciting for me. I still remember the feeling of shopping in the men's section for the first time. I am who I am. I am by no means perfect and never will be. I am always evolving and learning about myself, the good and the bad things. I am chivalrous, caring, funny, sarcastic, and romantic. I like to put my hand on the small of your back as I lead you through the door. I am protective and a care taker, which is probably why I became a nurse. I like to hold you but I also at times want to be held. I love to have my hair played with... unless we are going out.. don't mess it up... lol. I am human. I have feelings just like everyone else even though I try to hide them at times to portray that I am strong and can handle anything. I've learned how to cry even if I don't like it. I am proud to be Butch but that does not define everything about me. I am sure there is more to what I could say but for now, this is a good start.