Friends of Bill W.

[LeftWriteFemme]

Originally Posted by Tommi

It's been a bad week...a sad week, and I feel weak.

It has been a journey. I have found the mountains, and loved to climb them. When little creatures and kids fall down, I know I can pick them up and cradle them until they heal, or pass into the valley of death.

"Steel on the outside , velvet on the inside", she says, in the special way she sounds when she knows, and I know, I am filled with the awe with the power of clarity, in those few words.

Ice water has been my drink of choice today. How about you?

I'm so sorry that you have been having to go through all of this. The price of loving those feline deities is their life span is so much shorter than ours and we are destined to live so much of our lives missing them. I love you and hope that today is at least a break from the sadness and grief.

All my love,

the girl

[LeftWriteFemme]

March 6

The Price of Today’s Ride



Much of my spiritual awakening has been spent separating myself from the nightmare of the past, reassuring myself that in fact, it the horror, is over. As my present has improved my reactions are still invested with the hide or fly coping of a child dealing with terror. Things get better yet barricades are erected, departing flights secured. Disengaging the clutch of fingers wrapped so tightly around the escape hatch takes a great deal of my short supply of faith and confidence. Laying down my anticipatory reluctance in favor of optimism has had the breathtaking feel of pain, though in fact it was only the separation from a poisonous crutch and the vacuum it creates. Allowing myself to see beauty at the same time as I deal with the truth of the past; standing in the full light of morning and not blocking out the brilliant pain of night is the outstanding gift my spiritual path affords me.



Open stored creativity



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ECHOES OF ACTION

Squares of light outline a patchwork on walls and ceiling.
Ripples of water formed this ancient glass.
Three hundred years these waves have shone through those panes.
Three hundred years these waves have held,
Like stability in a world of change.

Looking through the window
The City rams life down it's own throat.
The ripples are invisible,
Caressing currents imbed the glass
The wavelengths shining projections only with the street lights.

How much mundane activity is captured,
Only revealing itself surreptitiously.
What is not echoed from year to year comes to final rest.
My voice does not terminate at my mouth
How therefore can I consider a blunted end to my behavior?

[Tommi]

Originally Posted by LeftWriteFemme

I'm so sorry that you have been having to go through all of this. The price of loving those feline deities is their life span is so much shorter than ours and we are destined to live so much of our lives missing them. I love you and hope that today is at least a break from the sadness and grief.

All my love,

the girl

Dusty was happy and healthy looking when I went there I went to pick him up and take him to the Vet for his diagnosis. . Knowing death will be scheduled when he turns the corner of health is just weighing heavy.

Was Dr. Death so wrong? We can put animals to sleep....what about it .hearinig you song about algae ...and I smile.

Thanks for the love, the daily inspiration above and the poetry below it. I love having dessert with my coffee.

All my love backattcha.

PS.. I saw that Greyson is signed up for the Reunion.


Should you stop in here, just WaVvinnng at you.. Hi Greyson, HEllo anyone that stops in to read. Jump in the water's fine.

One hell of a week....so, Oscar Movie Preview day is today. The music will be good..

[Greyson]

Waving "Hiya" to Tommi and Lefty. I don't know why, I am just partial to calling you "Lefty."

[LeftWriteFemme]

Originally Posted by Greyson

Waving "Hiya" to Tommi and Lefty. I don't know why, I am just partial to calling you "Lefty."

I have to tell you a million years ago when I was creating my screen name it never once occured to me that I was going to spend my life being called "Lefty" ..........lol

Waving HI back at you, Greyson!!!!!!

[Tommi]

Originally Posted by Greyson

Waving "Hiya" to Tommi and Lefty. I don't know why, I am just partial to calling you "Lefty."

Hey there Greyson , so good to see you... We are setting up some times and places for meetings at the Reunion. More to follow...Any suggestions are welcome.

Friends of meetings!

Cold embers to a Fire Within. That's how many of us felt, caught between conflicting moralities, maladaptive behaviors, and little understanding, support, or hope of finding it. We had to break our personal block to transcendence. Many of us found it in 12 step programs (Friends of Bill). Meetings will be held on Friday____ and Saturday at ____ and on Sunday at _____. All meetings will be in the ___ Room - "Our Place". No meeting is scheduled for Thursday. If you are interested in leading a meeting, speaking, volunteering in some way, send a PM.

[LeftWriteFemme]

March 7

Migration

Why does an alcoholic leave the drink behind? To go where it’s warm, because drunkenness has become cold comfort, because the climate has changed. The wind resists the flight from the bottle and the initiative to break the flow is rotated among the flock. Though each member of the band plays their part, the one diverting the air just ahead of me and the one just behind trumpeting still hold the majority of my attention. Flocking is my primary purpose because survival is the intention of life, demise the intent of my illness. One more sober day is all I can ask, it’s all I ever need, it’s all that’s ever offered.




Put wheels under procrastination



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POPCORN FLAVORED LOLLIPOP

I can't know it, I can't believe it,
The world of popcorn flavored lollipops
Is now being visited upon me.

Both a surprise and a comfort,
A popcorn flavored lollipop
Given to me by a gas station attendant.

A blast of sugar and salt wake my tongue.
What can a mind do
In the face of buttered-salted bonbon on a stick?

I wouldn't have thought of it, no in a million years.
This is somehow a source of hope to me,
There are open minded people living in the world around me.

I often pray for creative thinking on the part of my Higher Power
I inadvertently dismiss the populace
Who are producing prodigies of ingenious originality and cunning.

I want the world to be gifted with what sobriety has given me.
Candy is not world peace
But many great things start with a little sweetness

[Lady Pamela]

I just wanted to say ty for creating such a great thread! As you already know,you never know who is watching. Or who might need to hear what you have to say.

I am happy to say my daughter just celebrated her first birthday on the 15th. It is nice to get her back...Smile

October 10th will be my 20th birthday since I quit. I am a rocovering addict.

Have a Blessed Day!

[LeftWriteFemme]

Originally Posted by Lady Pamela

I just wanted to say ty for creating such a great thread! As you already know,you never know who is watching. Or who might need to hear what you have to say.

I am happy to say my daughter just celebrated her first birthday on the 15th. It is nice to get her back...Smile

October 10th will be my 20th birthday since I quit. I am a rocovering addict.

Have a Blessed Day!

Thank you so much and congratulations on your recovery and the recovery of your daughter. What a gift to have our kids safe and sober in a world so filled with drunken traps.
You are right I have no idea who is reading but I am always so glad when what I write helps.

Have a great day,

Sherrie

[Tommi]

Originally Posted by Lady Pamela

I just wanted to say ty for creating such a great thread! As you already know,you never know who is watching. Or who might need to hear what you have to say.

I am happy to say my daughter just celebrated her first birthday on the 15th. It is nice to get her back...Smile

October 10th will be my 20th birthday since I quit. I am a rocovering addict.

Have a Blessed Day!

Welcome. Addiction runs deep. I am so glad your daughter found her way out, and with a bonus to meet a Mom who knows the struggle. Congrats on the almost 20.

and , again my thanks to LeftWriteFemme for keeping the light on and her daily inspiration and poetry.