If You *REALLY* knew Me...

[Beloved]

Originally Posted by Glenn

If you really knew me you would know that the first thing I do when I wake up is go outside on my deck, and yell "F*** you all!" I don't know why I do this.Sometimes my senior neighbor will be walking in the woods nearby and holla back, "Good-Morning!" Lol.

I can't stop laughing. This really cracked me up. You're awesome.

[ferret]

If you really knew me, you'd know that I've never given up hope for the one who's my other soulmate, other half, etc. Even though I've set myself up plenty of times for hurt and disappointment, I still hope and desire that for myself.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm my own worst enemy. No one can hurt me any more or punish me any more than I punish myself.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm more than a name on a screen. I'm more than the words I type, and gee, I actually have feelings.

If you really knew me, you'd know I struggled with depression. I can function okay and not have to struggle with getting up in the morning, but this has been something I've had to deal with since I was a teenager.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I came from an abusive family. My father drank, he was mean when he drank, so I'm sure you can put two and two together. I haven't spoken with him since 1994 (my choice), and I'm better not having that bullshit in my life.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I wished that I was less wound up and uptight pretty much all the time, and people can feel that when they're around me. It's not much fun for them, either.

[Ginger]

If you really knew me, you'd love me.

[*Anya*]

Originally Posted by AlixKnight4All

you would know...
That just because I id as masculine I do not hate all men or women that id as lesbians.

What does having a masculine ID have to do with not hating "all men or women that ID as lesbians"??

[Miss_J]

You would perhaps understand why silly little things are so important to me.

[thedivahrrrself]

If you really knew me, you'd know why I have no pity for almost anyone, even though I think I'm pretty compassionate. Pity is just not in my vocabulary.

IYRKM, you'd know when you lose my attention, but you wouldn't take it personally.

IYRKM, you'd know I'm long-winded and there's much more to come...

[lusciouskiwi]

that if I'm really upset I tend to isolate myself

If you really knew me you'd know the impact my father's violence had on all of us.

If you really knew me you'd know about the only two songs I know all the lyrics to are Bohemian Rhapsody and Mahnamana

If you really knew me you'd be coming over to Malaysia for a holiday because I love playing tour guide

If you really knew me, you'd know that for me to say what I *really* feel is a big deal because it's not always easy for me

If you really knew me, you'd know that if I try to make amends or right a hurt my actions may have caused you, it's because I know personally that life is short

[Mr Nice Guy]

If you really knew me then you'd know that I have strong shoulders to lean on and it's ok to lean.

[thedivahrrrself]

IYRKM, you'd know I work in spurts instead of spreading things out. This means I get involved in a project for entire days sometimes instead of doing little bits at once. My "flow" is very important for finishing things. I find I don't finish a lot of things I start if I try to piece them out.

IYRKM, you'd know I'm a harder worker than you might imagine from my current level of productivity.

IYRKM, you'd know that, although I am pretty self-motivated, it's nice to have someone who pushes me to be better. I am better when someone expects the best from me, particularly if that person is someone I admire.

IYRKM, you'd know I'm not as tough as I present myself to be and that my feelings get hurt quite easily, though if you don't know me well, you may never realize when they do.

[stepfordfemme]

-You'd know how much I struggle with being vulnerable

-You'd know how much I'm working on making my life happen

-You'd know that I really just want to go on a Buddhist meditative silent retreat or to the mountains for a few days.

-You'd know that I've made some scary changes.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Originally Posted by *Anya*

What does having a masculine ID have to do with not hating "all men or women that ID as lesbians"??

If you really knew me you would know that I have been accused of those two things on a consistent basis since I was 15 in my rel life experience.

If you really knew me you would know I am capable of being single. That I do not need someone to complete me I want someone instead to compliment what I have to offer in a relationship.

If you really knew me you would know I love to travel although I have not been outside of the U.S. yet.

If you really knew me you would know I have a thirst for knowledge and I am constantly trying to learn something new.

[Beloved]

• you would know I'm a keeper and I'm rare.
• you would know I am good at assessing and making sense out of people's feelings.
• you would know I'm open, loving, and affectionate.
• you would know I fall in love a little too fast and I am working on slowing it down.
• you would know that I could make a real "type A" personality batshit insane
• you would know I had 2 relationships that could've worked out if they happened at a different stage in our lives. The other parties agree, but you can never go back. Timing is everything.
• you would know my positives outweigh my negatives.
• you would never want to let me go.

[*Anya*]

Originally Posted by *Anya*

What does having a masculine ID have to do with not hating "all men or women that ID as lesbians"??

Originally Posted by AlixKnight4All

If you really knew me you would know that I have been accused of those two things on a consistent basis since I was 15 in my rel life experience.

You have been "accused" of being a lesbian?

WTF?

People call me a lesbian. I would not call it an accusation.

I call it my identity.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Originally Posted by *Anya*

You have been "accused" of being a lesbian?

WTF?

People call me a lesbian. I would not call it an accusation.

I call it my identity.

No I have been accused of hatting all men and all women that ID as lesbians since I was 15 because I have a masculine identity. Which was your original question. Sorry for not making it clearer.

[girl_dee]

If you really knew me ...


you would know that i'm not so tough and my feelings are actually pretty easily hurt. i try not to let things bother me, but they do hurt.

When my feelings get hurt i get angry with myself for letting that happen.

i don't buy into the internet version of things, and find it quite amusing.

i love looking for four leaf clovers.

i am semi panicking because the thought of never riding a bike again scares me, i have got to get my lungs in order.

most thing people find as vicious i find as quite sad.. very sad.

i am not a very social person but i am so looking forward to the reunion and so excited that my partner wants to take me and is making that happen.

To get my respect the walking the walk part is crucial, words are nothing without action.

[Just_G]

If you really knew me, you would know that I don't have an angry bone in my body. When most people would get angry, I retreat in to my shell. I will stand up for myself and speak my mind, but pretty much shut down after that. I don't like to beat a dead horse....I don't like to drudge up the past...that is useless.

[girl_dee]

if you knew me you would know that it's not always as it appears with me. i don't usually go around justifying my actions because of what people may be thinking about me. Just because i don't post it on the internet does not mean it didn't happen sort of thing. Then again some people carry their entire existence on this internet so i can see how they would get wrapped up in it, it's very easy to do apparently.

If you knew me you would know many people don't like me because i see through the saccharin version of what they are trying to sell. Deep inside, i know the truth, and they know it and i don't think people like that very much.

If you knew me you would know that i have a good sense of humor, i need it to survive!

[Soft*Silver]

IYRKM you would know:

I crave sugar like an alcoholic craves their drink of choice. It is my hardest addiction yet to crack

I am wildly crazy about projects. And I finish them if nothing gets in the way. And I dont mean small projects. big ones. Like my store. Going to college to learn how to ID trees. Working at a zoo and creating a primate environment

I read the paper back to front. But I rarely read the funnies anymore.

I play gnometown and people make fun of me for it. Shame on them!

I coloured my hair blue black. Dropped a few more years off my looks...

I am not afraid to fight with someone. I have huge balls and have taken on people with guns and knives (back when I worked as a Domestic Violence director and again, when i ran a homeless shelter) and wont take shit from anyone who hurt or is mean to someone in public. I might be a femme but I have a touch of insanity when it comes to protecting the wee,the innocent and the needy

[thedivahrrrself]

Originally Posted by Cajun_dee

If you knew me you would know many people don't like me because i see through the saccharin version of what they are trying to sell. Deep inside, i know the truth, and they know it and i don't think people like that very much.

If you knew me you would know that i have a good sense of humor, i need it to survive!

IYRKM, you'd know how much I adore people like you. I think it's my naivete. For the most part, I take most people at their word, because I'm a pretty open book and I forget other people aren't. I love the no bullshit people. Teach me your ways....

[Scuba]

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