PTSD and Trauma recovery

[Jet]

Shortly after my trauma I prayed every day. I went to Mass, said the Rosary, prayed incessantly for help. I will never forget the day I sat in the St. Peter's school chapel in front of the Blessed Sacrament in a hour of Perpetual Adoration. A fire alarm went off. And the principle, who was nun, came in and quietly said to me, "you and Jesus are in a fire drill."

Well, He and I are still in a fire drill because of a raging fire. But He's bringing me through. Thanks for your prayers.

[Apocalipstic]

Originally Posted by Braedon

I will be turning 30 later on this month and I have also found that this seems to be My watershed year. Coming out as being FTM has helped Me alot with really beginning to see Myself in a whole nother light. I've often started writing My dad a letter, wanting to tell him how I feel but I've always chickened out right near the beginning and it ends up getting thrown out. Maybe this will be the year, that I will finally be able to let all of My emotions go and be able to tell him how I truly feel. Maybe ..........

Most of My adult life has been filled with people who are negative in some aspect or another, and I am trying to weed through that because I can tell that its affecting Me overall. I've noticed that I have been in a happier mood lately, maybe because I feel now that with starting to come out as being a guy and with so far having a fairly positive response to it overall its just been making Me really happy about My life. I am being more of who I want to be now, and its been doing wonders for My self-esteem and My confidence

I looked through one cross-stitch book this morning and found three different patterns that I am going to use to make three separate projects to send down as part of our basket ~ pretty awesome I must say



Thats a great idea Andrew. I know that with living at home, stuff I would normally put out to bring My comfort and joy I wouldn't here (mostly because I don't wanna have to explain Myself to My father when he gets nosy). I'm looking at possibly moving out into My own place this summer ....... I desperately need My own space, and I think that its about time I did something for Myself

Have you thought about keeping the letters just for you. Writing the letters helps you, even if you don't ever give one to your father.

If you do give him a letter, maybe waiting till after you move would be a safe option? So you don't have to live in "his" house when he reads it. I know in my case, I could never had done it if I was dependant on my father for anything.

Yeay on the crosstitch!

Sending positive thoughts for a smooth move to your own place very soon!

Originally Posted by Ol' Jet

Shortly after my trauma I prayed every day. I went to Mass, said the Rosary, prayed incessantly for help. I will never forget the day I sat in the St. Peter's school chapel in front of the Blessed Sacrament in a hour of Perpetual Adoration. A fire alarm went off. And the principle, who was nun, came in and quietly said to me, "you and Jesus are in a fire drill."

Well, He and I are still in a fire drill because of a raging fire. But He's bringing me through. Thanks for your prayers.

It is like a fire drill isn't it? Full alert. Fight or Flight.

Thinking about you and hoping your week is good.

[Princess4u]

Originally Posted by Ol' Jet

Shortly after my trauma I prayed every day. I went to Mass, said the Rosary, prayed incessantly for help. I will never forget the day I sat in the St. Peter's school chapel in front of the Blessed Sacrament in a hour of Perpetual Adoration. A fire alarm went off. And the principle, who was nun, came in and quietly said to me, "you and Jesus are in a fire drill."

Well, He and I are still in a fire drill because of a raging fire. But He's bringing me through. Thanks for your prayers.

My dear Jet,

Fires do burn out eventually...hang in there my friend...when i lived in florida the summer of 1998 there were many wild fires which threatened us....my county had to evacuate and the firemen stayed to safe our town....one day 3 fire walls..merged into one and were head towards a subdivision of homes which they were already trying to protect....all they could do was take a fire blanket and cover themselves for protection...praise Jesus...they all survived...the LORD....is your fire blanket sweet Jet....use HIM to cover you from this wall of fire....

[Apocalipstic]

I'm having a symptom-y week. It's nice out which helps, but memories running around in my head, hypervigilant and in very fight or flight mode.

Earlier I hear someone calling my name, no one around...which creeps me out to no end. My therapist says as long as I know no one is there and I am just hearing voices, not believing in them its OK.....but still....Creepy.

[Andrew, Jr.]

Apocalipstic,

The person who showed up at my door unannounced (no call, emails, etc.) I kicked her out. Never to return - thank God above. The only problem is the constant gossip that continues on. Do you remember the game we used to play as kids called "telephone"? It is like that.

As for the hearing your name called - it is a part of what is called learning/auditory processing delay. Some folks actually wear hearing aids for help with this. It isn't tinnitus, it is something totally different.

[Apocalipstic]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

Apocalipstic,

The person who showed up at my door unannounced (no call, emails, etc.) I kicked her out. Never to return - thank God above. The only problem is the constant gossip that continues on. Do you remember the game we used to play as kids called "telephone"? It is like that.

As for the hearing your name called - it is a part of what is called learning/auditory processing delay. Some folks actually wear hearing aids for help with this. It isn't tinnitus, it is something totally different.

On the gossip, I like to think that at least I am being talked about and not forgotten. People who know you know its crap..and yes, it is totally like Telephone. I am finally getting to the point I care not!

I need to look up that auditory processing delay, never heard of it. Thank you.

[Andrew, Jr.]

I have it. I would like to afford the hearing aids, but they are out of my budget. There is a book you can read on it called "What the brain can't hear" or something close to that. It is just about this disorder.

[Apocalipstic]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

I have it. I would like to afford the hearing aids, but they are out of my budget. There is a book you can read on it called "What the brain can't hear" or something close to that. It is just about this disorder.

I just read about it and have for a while been thinking about getting a hearing aid, even though my hearing tests normal.

I have to ask people to repeat over and over what they are saying. I have almost every symptom listed in the articles, except I read very well and have ease with languages except spelling and typos (but that is because I go too fast and can't see the spellcheck thingie, unless I go back and edit.)

I wish people had known about this stuff when I was a kid. Seriously.
They just thought I was not applying myself. It makes me angry.

What the artcles I read did not mention is hearing voices. Is this a part of it?

[Canela]

Hi everyone!

So good to see you out and posting today! This is my first stop when I come in here...I look forward to it...watching us, share, learn, help, support, nurture, vent and all that we do...I feel more at home here than anywhere else...I post in others, but this has become my home thread, if you will....

As for the basket, that is so fabulous that you all are thinking about contributing...no gift too small, homemade is so special, I'm thinking of adding a jewelry set I've made as well as the pampering stuff...It sounds cool to me...

Apocalipstic, I hope you meant that comment for me about heaading up this basket donation cuz I am willing and ready and able...(I am already thinking of other things to add...)lol...

Andrew, hi brother! I missed you...Jet, glad to see you sharing again...Princess4U snaps to you, you're awesome! Braedon, I thank you for the hug back....I love hugs...Ima hug everybody when I see you (if/when) I see you at the reunion if y'all make it...

Apocalipstic, thanks for your thread and an opportunity to voice, vent, rant, encourage, respond and share here...you done good...(hope that doesn't sound condescending...)

Love, hugs and many blessings to you all--
Little Shug