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The 12th will be my one month mark... I know I won't give into the cravings but they are some kind of intense these days. Stressing over finances and around the holidays makes for a really tough cry to give into the evils of those damn sticks. My health has been wacked here lately and there is just no way I could even inhale the stuff... hell, I can barely inhale a breath as it is.
Still doesn't change the fact that I'm craving...
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I have quit again. It's been just over 24hrs and I'm reaching the stage where I want to cry and pull my hair out. It doesn't help that I am totally hormonal, as well.
But I really want this. It is time. It is the last vestige of the old, unhealthy me that remains. I am a healer, for crying out loud. I can't be putting my smokey hands on people and preaching about their health with my smokey breath. Makes no sense. But addiction rarely does. My reckoning is here. I'm ready for it - regardless of the fit I'm about to have.
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hey ms. do what you gotta do. scream, yell at folks lol. so what, it's tough. keep your hands busy. stay on the quittin' side! ![]() mac |
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OhMyGod!OhMyGod!OhMyGod!
Ok ---- just venting. Thanks.
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With all my medical stuff creeping up on me, I am asked quite regularly, when I last smoked. I've had a couple of professionals say to me that they think with all that's going on, this will more than likely be my last time fighting it.
Yeh, I have to agree... it's just not worth the hassle when it comes to all the negatives it's brought about to my body. Two months now for me! |
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So glad you chose health or continued cell generation..smiles I can so relate to the medical side of things. Keep it up! .
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And keep posting...smile
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Approaching the 72hr mark. It's hard. They say to identify your triggers and make changes around those but I find this impossible. There are too many. Mornings and late nights are hardest for me. I think because I am sleepy and my defenses are lessened. Last night, after I went to bed, I was craving so hard that I said "fuck it" and actually got up and dressed, bundled up and went out toward the car with intention to go buy some. I stood there with keys in hand, hesitated and agonized, then went back inside and took off my shoes and coat. Then I put them back on and did the same thing two more times before I finally came back in and put myself back to bed, having not smoked.
Having not smoked. I am a non-smoker. I can do this. I release all of my attachments to addiction and all the emotions, insecurities, and anxieties that I associate with quitting.
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I slipped. Just a little, and I am ready to recommit. I am not much of one for beating myself up when I am imperfect because that really doesn't help - took me a long time to learn that. But I do think it is important to keep myself accountable for the commitment I've made to myself. So I thought I'd come here and "say it out loud".
I am committed to being a non-smoker. I have the strength and ability to overcome my addiction starting right now.
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Cut down before you go cold turkey..re read idea through this thread. I know you can and will do this.
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I quit 9 months ago!! I can't believe I quit, yet I find it really hard to believe I ever smoked. I hate the smell and the taste! Go figure
![]() You would think I would have quit sooner. My mother passed away in 2006 from lung cancer. Good luck to all, you/we can do this!!!!!
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This is my 50th time! I was quit for a the year 2009, and for 6 weeks last winter (taught myself to crochet!), and numerous less successful times before, in between, and since. I've cut down from a pack a day, to half a pack, to 1/3. I've got so many tools and coping skills in my arsenal, it's ridiculous. And I'm a little embarrassed - but that's why I'm talking about it. Shame has no place here, and it will just make me want to smoke more. This is totally a psychological issue for me. I've done so much growth and healing, but cigarettes have been my only constant since I was a teenager. Even though I hate smoking, it's like the death of a beloved friend. There. I said it. It's really feels that dramatic. Maybe I need to allow myself to grieve the loss of this companion that saw me through so much, while recognizing I don't need it anymore, and letting go...
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You got this!! I quit 1 year and 1 day ago!! It is possible even if it makes us do the most bizarre things. It gets easier!! Don't anyone of you give up!!!! That means you to Strappolina!
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hey stone. i think we come to a place where we just quit. a brick wall. whatever it takes for you not to smoke, ... reach out and use that resource(s). i quit cold, and i've gained too much weight lol. but i haven't had a smoke in 6 months. the cravings haven't gone away, ... but less. the bottom line for me is i don't want to die a smoker. smoking kills. my lungs are damaged, yes. but smoking does just as much damage to your heart. for me, more so to my heart at this stage in my life. you can do it. i believe in you. mac |
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So excited for you...way to go !
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