Friends of Bill W.

[LeftWriteFemme]

Originally Posted by Tommi

Ahhhh...the Zoom Zoom Zoom of electronics. I need to do the back up thingee too,. Sleep fast, morning is just around the corner..OH wait..IT is morning there..

Love you Daddy, I will be sleeping soon, the backup is at 95%

See you tomorrow!!!!

[Tommi]

Originally Posted by LeftWriteFemme

Love you Daddy, I will be sleeping soon, the backup is at 95%

See you tomorrow!!!!

Yessssss

[LeftWriteFemme]

It's done, I'm off to sleep!

[Tommi]

Originally Posted by LeftWriteFemme

It's done, I'm off to sleep!

G'nite > See you for lunch...It's sposed to be 68 tomorrow....Brrrrrrrrr

[LeftWriteFemme]

April 16




Not Fur but Fin

You can’t delay the river, I’ve tried, all it does is distort. I block the flow and swamp ensues, mighty oaks waist deep in water. The current is strong and I fear being swept away, not realizing I was born to swim. Dreading the swim back for spawn I try to stay too close to my origins, never make it to open water, never to live the life I was intended for. I’ve heard it said, “Don’t push the river it flows by itself,” but I can’t stall it either.









Line up the little endearments offered you


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FEEDING THE MONSTER

Who will feed the monster, once they’ve made her?
Her hunger burns in her like a beacon
Should I let her starve?
Should I put her on rations of old crust and tepid water?

Rebuke her as if she were her own idea
Possibly bind her hands and cover her eyes
Stand her in line with the good girls and fit her in
Turn her visage from her desire and tell her to forget?

Hold her hand and tell her that’s enough?
When I stand in the face of her yawning hunger
What do I say---It's for your own good?
Well that's what THEY said too.

[LeftWriteFemme]

April 17




Like an Elf Working in an Empty Tree

The chairs in the loft are empty, but I still hear the choir sing. The bottle though it’s empty, still sometimes calls my name. Though front pocket is empty and there is rolled up empty sleeve, still the nicotine haunts my dreams. On this empty road I travel, I still long for company. The stillness is not all that’s empty, but I run to fill that spot. Chaos is like a tapeworm it eats me from inside, but in the meantime I still believe it’s filling me.







Curve around what is sharp on your tongue

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HOW THINGS SEEM

Not everyone who pushes me down is my enemy
Not everyone who pulls me up is my friend
I have been seduced by the closeness of people
Who used me as their shield

When I have been held in a place of honor
The point man of life
I forgot that made me the replacement target
For the one who stood behind me

I have been offended as I was thrown to the ground
The hands that shoved me I saw as my rejecters
I was spared the tragedy and peril of the thing which flew by my ear
Thanks only to the grace of a thrust in the right direction

Accurate appraisal is my weakness
Seeing things for what they are is hard
Things are rarely how they seem

[LeftWriteFemme]

April 18



In Training

Like a faithful dog that was hard to train, patience is a thing hoped for yet peevish during the breaking in. Stanch companionability is hard won, but worth the cost of acquisition. And what is the price I truly paid in the end; whatever I gave in the pursuit of patience was a cheap babysitter and kept me from far worse reformation. For what would I do in this late day and age as a tempest torn toddler, no bottle to sooth my woes and bothers. Strictly speaking this is a world ill suited to the edgy intolerant masses and only seems to fit those who can mark time and bend.




Be careful what you do with idols



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SERVICE & SACRIFICE

The difference between life and death in my recovery
Is the equal difference between service and sacrifice
If I offer you what is in my hand, fine
If I also give you my fingertips, I am lost.

Service lightens the load in my heart
Sacrifice removes my tools for living
When I go into debt for your existence
The cheer and optimism is sucked from my awareness

My eyes go dead and soon I follow
The cingulotomy of obligation crucifies my future
And murders true hope and love
Service feeds my heart and yours

Renovating makes space
It builds the muscles for joy and contentment
Pumping and refilling
My plate with spirituality.

[Soft*Silver]

A movie about the beginning of Al Anon is being shown on TV tonight..right now in fact!

[Lady Pamela]

Just a share...Something I was reading and I found nice to have all in the same place...Kind of a reminder all in the same page...smiles


AA Quotes and Slogans

easy does it
first things first
live and let live
but for the grace of god
think......think.......think
one day at time
let go and let god
kiss---keep it simple stupid
act as if.........
this too shall pass
expect miracles
I can't .........he can..........I think I'll let him (steps 1,2,3)
if it works.........don't fix it
keep coming back..........it works if you work it
stick with the winners
keep right size
sobriety is a journey ..........not a destination
faith without works is dead
poor me.....poor me............pour me another drink
to thine own self be true
I came; I came to; I came to believe (steps 1,2,3)
live in the NOW
if god seems far away, who moved ?
turn it over
aa=altered attitudes
nothing is so bad, a drink won't make it worse
we are only as sick as our secrets
there are no coincidences in AA
be part of the solution, not the problem
sponsors: have one-----use one-----be one
I can't handle it god; you take over
keep an open mind
it works -------it really does ! (page 88,line 8 in the big book)
willingness is the key
more will be revealed
you will intuitively know
you will be amazed
no pain.........no gain
go for it
keep the plug in the jug
do it sober
let it begin with me
just for today
sober `n` crazy
pass it on
it's in the book
you either is-------or you ain't
before you say: I can't ............say I'll try
don't quit 5 minutes before the miracle happens
some of us our sicker than others
we're all here because we're not all there
alcoholism is an equal opportunity destroyer
practice an attitude of gratitude
the road to sobriety is a simple journey for confused people with a complicated disease
another friend of bill W.'s
god is never late
have a good day unless of course u have made other plans
decisions aren't forever
it takes time
90 meetings in 90 days.........90/90
you are not alone
where you go .......there you are
don't drink, read the big book, and go to meetings
use the 24-hour plan
make use of the telephone therapy
stay sober for yourself
look for similarities rather than differences
remember your last drunk
remember that alcoholism is incurable, progressive, and fatal
try not place conditions on your sobriety
when all else fails, follow directions
count your blessings
share your happiness
respect the anonymity of others
share your pain
let go of old ideas
try to replace guilt with gratitude
what goes around, comes around
change is a process, not an event
take the cotton out of your ears and put it in your mouth
call your sponsor before, not after, you take the first drink
sick and tired of being sick and tired
it's the first drink that gets you drunk
to keep it, you have to give it away
man's extremity is god's opportunity
the price for serenity and sanity is self-sacrifice
one alcoholic talking to another...........one equals one
take what you can use and leave the rest
what if........
yeah but.........
if only.........
help is only a phone call away
around AA or in AA ?
you can't give away what you don't have
one drink is too many and thousand not enough
K.C.B. --- keep coming back
anger is but one letter away from danger
courage to change
easy does it, but do it
bring the body and the mind will follow
accept your admission
remember when............
dry and tighten up (financially)
we AAs are 'gifted' people
there are 12 steps in the ladder of complete sobriety
fear is the darkroom where negatives are developed
before engaging your mouth, put your mind in gear!
I want what I want when I want it
there is no chemical solution to a spiritual problem
AA is not something you join, it's a way of life
we can be positive that our drinking was negative
spirituality is the ability to get our minds off ourselves
faith is spelled ...............a-c-t-i-o-n
backsliding begins when knee-bending stops
if I think, I won't drink. if I drink, I can't think
bend your knees before you bend your elbow
the first step in overcoming mistakes is to admit them
formula for failure: try to please everyone
sorrow is looking back, worry is looking around
willpower= our willingness to use a higher power
aa is an education without graduation
when your head begins to swell your mind stops growing
a journey of a 1,000 miles begins with the first step
god=good orderly direction
be as enthusiastic about AA as you were about your drinking
you received without cost, now give without charge
humility is our acceptance of ourselves
trying to pray is praying
get it ---give it---grow in it
faith is not belief without proof but trust without reservation
we're responsible for the effort not the outcome
this is a selfish program
ego=edge god out
keep your sobriety first to make it last
I drank: too much---too often---too long
AA will work if you want it to work
minds are like parachutes----they won't work unless they're open
what you hear and see here, stays here
alcoholism is the only disease that tells you you're all right
if you turn it over and don't let go of it, you will be upside down.
an AA meeting is where losers get together to talk about their winnings
AA is a school in which we are all learners and all teachers
god taught us to laugh again but god please don't let us forget that we once cried
serenity is not freedom from the storm but peace amid the storm
AA may not solve all your problems but it is willing to share them
it isn't the load that weighs us down------it's the way we carry it
principles before personalities
when u do all the talking you only learn what you already know
the 7t's ---take time to think the thing through
there are none too dumb for the AA program but many are too smart
we all have another drunk left in us but we don't know if we have another recovery in us
to be forgiven we must forgive
when we surrender to our higher power, the journey begins
the person with the most sobriety at a meeting is the one who got up earliest that morning
knowledge of "the answers" never made anyone slip---it was failing to practice "the answers" known
H.A.L.T.=don't get too hungry(h).......or too angry(a)......or too lonely(l) ........or too tire(t)
fear stands for Frustration

Ego,
Anxiety,
Resentment

the 12 steps tell us how it works; the 12 traditions tell us why it works.........
AA won't ...........keep you from going to hell.............nor is it a ticket to heaven............but it will...........keep u sober long enough.........for you to make up your mind...............which way you want to go!
if faith without works is dead; then .........willingness without action is fantasy
when a person tries to control their drinking they have already lost control
the task ahead of us is never as great as the power behind us
seven days without an aa meeting makes one WEAK
you are not required to like it, you're only required to DO IT
when wallowing in your self-pity ...... get off the cross we need the wood
we in AA don't carry the alcoholic; we carry the message
the results are in god's hand
we are not human beings having spiritual experiences; we are spiritual beings having human experiences
remember nothing is going to happen today that you and god can't handle
when man listens, god speaks; when man obeys, god works
don't watch the "slippers" but watch those who don't slip closely and watch them go through difficulties and pull through
the 3 t's of gratitude to repay AA for our sobriety: our time, our talent, our treasure

it's a pity we can't forget our troubles the same way we forget our blessings
be careful what you pray for; you're liable to get it
the time to attend a meeting is when you least feel like going
work the program from the waist up
AA is the highest priced club in the world.........if u have paid the dues, why not enjoy the benefits ?
the first step is the only step a person can work perfectly
the will of god will never take you where the grace of god will not protect you

your big book is your sponsor too
AA never opened the gates of heaven to let me in, AA did open the gates of hell to let me out

the only thing we take from this world when we leave is what we gave away
time wasted in getting even can never be used in getting ahead
some people are so successful in AA that they turn out to be almost as good as they used to think they were when they were drinking
sobriety delivers everything alcohol promised
possibilities and miracles are one in the same
get out of the driver's seat.......let go and let god
how==honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness
danger sign: when your eyes have wandered from the alcoholics who still suffers and needs help-----to the faults of those whom the program has already helped

first we stayed sober because we have to............
then we stay sober because we are willing to..........
finally we stay sober because we want to.............

slogans are wisdom written in shorthand
active alcoholics don't have relationships; they take hostages
everyday is a gift that is why we call it the present
if you find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere
every recovery from alcoholism began with one sober hour
each and every alcoholic----sober or not----teaches us some valuable lessons about ourselves and recovery
we had to quit playing god
don't compare---identify
don't intellectualize----utilize
RULE 62----don't take yourself so damn seriously!!!!!!!
AA has a wrench to fit every nut that walks through a meeting room door
living in the here and now
how does one become an "old-timer" ? don't drink and don't die!
AA spoils your drinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
faith is our greatest gift; its sharing with others our greatest responsibility
if you want to drink-----that is your business
if you want to quit-------that is AA's business
in a bar, we got sympathy-----as long as our money lasted.
in AA, we get understanding------for nothing!
even my worst day in sobriety is better than my best day drunk
the elevator is broken-------use the steps
let it begin with me
when all else fails.........the directions are in the big book
trust god.........clean house........help others
anonymity is so important it's half of our name
if we don't grow, we gotta go
all you need to start your own AA meeting is a resentment and a coffee pot!!
religion is for those who fear god.........spirituality is for those who have been to hell and back
there are no atheists in foxholes

three suggestions for making an AA speech:
1).BE INTERESTING
2).BE BRIEF
3).BE SEATED

when you are a sponsor, you get out of yourself. if i serve, i will be served
why recovery never ends: the disease is alcoholISM, not alcoholWASM!
the AA way of life is meant to be bread for daily use, not cake for special occasions
the smartest thing an AA member can say is, " help me "
you are exactly where god wants you to be
god will never give you more than you can handle
slow but sure
in AA we say a "coincidence" is a miracle in which god chooses to remain anonymous
it takes the good and bad AA meeting----the good and bad AA talk -----to make this fellowship "work"
give time .......time
faith is a lighted doorway, but trust is a dark hall
the lesson I must learn is simply that my control is limited to my own behavior, my own attitudes
the AA paradoxes:
---from weakness(adversity) comes strength
---we forgive to be forgiven
---we give it away to keep it
---we suffer to get well
---we surrender to win
---we die to live
---from darkness comes light
---from dependence we found independence

AA works for people who believe in god
AA works for people who don't believe in god
AA NEVER works for people who believe they ARE god
just for today I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle my whole life problems at once. I can do something for 12 hours that would appall me if i felt that i had to keep it up for a LIFETIME
there are two days in every week which we have no control over----yesterday and tomorrow. today is the only day we can change.
it is not the experience if today that drives people mad----it is the remorse or bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread of what tomorrow may bring.
slippers in AA use the rdp---revolving door policy
pain is the touchstone of spiritual growth
god has no grand kids
there is a god and I am not it
the road to disappointment (resentment) is paved with expectation
be nice to newcomers .........one day they may be your sponsor
denial is not a river in Egypt !
guilt is the gift that keeps on giving
the flip side to forgiveness is resentments
there is no magic in recovery only miracles
fear is the absences of faith
courage is faith that has said its prayers
depression is anger toward inward
alcoholics heal from the outside in.........but feel from the inside out
3 A's in AA-----affection (thoughtfulness)
-----attention (listening)
-----appreciation (gratitude)

if it is meant to be...........I can't stop it
if it isn't god's will ............I can't make it happen

there are AA members who MAKE things happen
there are AA members who WATCH things happen
there are AA members who DON'T KNOW anything happen
WHICH ARE YOU ??????

[Soft*Silver]

wow...thank you for that list!!!!

[LeftWriteFemme]

April 26


Imperturbable



Perfectionism is a cover, a blanket of lead; hard to move and rich with poison. What it tries to hide is my unwillingness to struggle and strive. It’s not a fear of failure, but the horror of success after a long hot pursuit. If I can stall on the intricacies of the first move there is no further movement. If I can fail before I begin there is no sweat, no stain, no stink. Catastrophe is no bother, but skinned knees are my undoing. Winning is not so important to me; my unfortunate goal is to look untroubled.





Snap a picture of your beliefs


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TRANSITIONS

During the months of winter
The trees stand tall and leafless
Static in their appearance, frozen in direction

The insurgence of spring brings to life the truth
The buds and flowers show the draw of the their owners
The pull of life from the earth and sky.

Other trees have begun to restore the gifts so graciously given
These leafless giants open themselves
As home and sustenance to the surrounding community

Returning favors and flavors, coming to terms with wholeness
Celebrations of all I have, call for me to give back
Even during the time when we all look the same.

[LeftWriteFemme]

April 27


Blinded


Alcoholism hits me like a kind of blindness. I stagger through the living room cursing anyone who changes familiar placement or published timetables. Like every aspect of this disease shocked sightlessness is mine to deal with. I must pick up the white cane, procure the Seeing Eye pup, learn to read clustered braille. When my vision clears in these well worked spaces I am relieved, but I must accept that when I walk into a new room more often then not I will be blind again and must pick up my walking stick once more.




Apply a timeframe to misery


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STREET SIGNS

Hanging out on the corner of Disillusion Boulevard and Grief Road
Then returning to that special spot on Despair Avenue
Was my daily routine.

I made the circle and never looked far afield
Widening my circuit
Allowed me to find Anticipation Place and Hopeful Terrace

I pushed my search and found roads
Whose existence I never fathomed intersected
Creating areas of intrigue

Optimism Court interfacing with Realization Way
Is the fairest of my finds
But many a fine street corner has me lurking

Catching stray sunshine and encouragement
I make my home wherever the hospitality is available
And return less often to the dark and stifling places of the past

Happiness is where you find it
Just make sure to read the signs.

[Tommi]

Wandering down that happy road of destiny, seems like the street signs are flourescent at times, and at others they are jsut burned out and dark. I miss many things on the road, and take time to park at the roadstops and just be. Be in the moment. Be here. Be me. Me on the happy road meeting others that are just there.

For today, I crank the engine, and merge into traffic watching my blindside.

Tommi

[LeftWriteFemme]

Originally Posted by Tommi

Wandering down that happy road of destiny, seems like the street signs are flourescent at times, and at others they are jsut burned out and dark. I miss many things on the road, and take time to park at the roadstops and just be. Be in the moment. Be here. Be me. Me on the happy road meeting others that are just there.

For today, I crank the engine, and merge into traffic watching my blindside.

Tommi

You are so very clever! Thank you for everything, for your love and concideration and thank you for reading!

All my love,

the girl