What Made You Cry Today?

RockOn · 07-28-2014, 10:34 PM

Last Wednesday night very late, I googled pit bull kill shelters. I have been considering getting another 4 legged companion for Kevie and I. A little lite weight mixed bully girl. I thought I should rescue one from a kill shelter. Well, these heartbreaking images came to my screen, one in particular, an enormous mound of dead bully types inside a kill shelter. That photo is and will forever haunt me. Next day at work, on into the morning, I went searching for my little girl bully ... ended up at NY high kill shelters. There are 3 there. Now I have fallen in love with these dogs. I know their names, which of the 3 places they are located, their antics, I watch videos of these precious babies. I have memorized their ID numbers. I am not sleeping much, up checking to see who made it through their "date to destroy." I've been sitting at work, looking at their status. When I see the word GONE beside one's name, hot burning water falls out of my face and throat feels like it is choking to death on a softball because they did not make it past their destroy date. Not just today, but every day beginning last Thursday. Most of these dogs are less than a year old up to about 2 or 3 years.

I must figure out a way to get a handle on this and a stronger hold on myself. I have been crazy about dogs since I could crawl. I have photos of me still in a diaper sitting in a puppy pile of my grandfather's collie pups - so happy!

Dogs rock and they are the greatest ever. (in my book, anyway) They will never belittle you, betray you, slight you or play games with your head. And will always love you, be happy to see you. That is right.

SirenManda · 08-04-2014, 10:22 PM

Dealing with PCOS while I already don't feel good. Back hurts, sides hurt, couldn't even finish shopping today. Just stresses me out, causing me to be upset and cry cause I hate feeling like I can't do everything all the time.

cinnamongrrl · 08-04-2014, 10:37 PM

missing my girls....

missing my lil Cricket...

I really wish they were here with me...all of them....

MsTinkerbelly · 08-05-2014, 12:22 AM

My daughter left today for Illinois to help care for her Father, and i am so proud of her for putting her life on hold to help out.

I got a little teary eyed when she took off.

LaDivina · 08-05-2014, 08:06 AM

This is from a couple days ago...being able to apologize to my first partner for the way I treated our friendship after our breakup, and having her graciously and lovingly accept my apology.

*waterworks*

Bèsame* · 08-16-2014, 11:07 PM

I'm watching the dynamics of my parents relationship change as they age. I'm sure their fear of losing each other is terrifying for them, just as it will be for us when we lose one. As my brothers and I rallying around to help and support, it absolutely kills me that one of them rejects our help.

I cried along with my brother today, after hearing what happened today. No one said this was going to be this painful. It's not fair of us being robbed of our time to spend with them before it's too late.

ProfPacker · 08-27-2014, 08:32 PM

my wonderful older, grown up daughter calls me to tell me that a close friend of mine and the family (my partner and I started the adoption process from China with them) died suddenly today.

I am in shock and crying but I hold in my heart my daughter calling and saying "I don't know how to break this to you easily" she told me and she said that there never is an easy way to take this in. She made sure that we were all going to go to the family. She reached out to her friend right away. I admire her strength and her ability to not shy away from the hard things in life. Maybe I did something right. My children are beautiful, caring kind people and citizens of this world.

Kenna · 09-22-2014, 01:44 PM

What made me scream and cry...
I just fell up the brick porch steps rammed both legs into brick just below knee. Had caught toes on bottom step where rain recently washed dirt away. Am waiting on roommate to get home. May have broke left leg.
So much for plans to grill my rainbow trout tonight.Dammit.

SleepyButch · 09-22-2014, 03:22 PM

A song and a memory.

Kenna · 09-22-2014, 03:43 PM

I'm not crying now but I am worried and scared. Ice is helping some with swelling but not pain.

clay · 09-22-2014, 03:46 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Kenna

I'm not crying now but I am worried and scared. Ice is helping some with swelling but not pain.

So sorry for the fall, Kenna! Sending positive energies your way for it to be soft tissue contusions and no fractures!

SleepyButch · 10-19-2014, 02:47 PM

I was coming into the house from the garage and paying attention to the dogs so that they didn't get out. Well, when I slammed the door shut behind me, my left ring finger got smashed! Talk about painful. I had a good cry, put some ice on it and got over it but hell.. it hurt! Still does... aside from the blood collection under my nail, I think I'll live.

cinnamongrrl · 11-10-2014, 06:21 AM

yesterday...

the unfairness of the aging process....

Orema · 11-17-2015, 05:26 AM

secrets

tired of holding onto them

scared to letting them go

one way of feeling in control is in not moving forward

there is a temporary comfort in that

Enchantress · 12-06-2015, 10:14 PM

The death of someone extraordinarily dear to my heart ...

Shystonefem · 12-07-2015, 08:18 AM

I don't cry.....

(Yeah...right)

I don't remember the last time I cried. Was a while ago.

Bubala · 12-07-2015, 11:03 PM

Being all alone in this cold cold world...

08-04-2014, 10:37 PM	#3
cinnamongrrl Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: cleverly disguised as a responsible adult* Preferred Pronoun?: wild woman Relationship Status: No, thank you. Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Home in NC..gonna dig in like a tick this time… Posts: 7,662 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 15,233 Thanked 27,599 Times in 6,957 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	missing my girls.... missing my lil Cricket... I really wish they were here with me...all of them.... __________________

08-16-2014, 11:07 PM	#6
Bèsame* Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Femm Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: loved by many Join Date: Sep 2012 Location: Closer to the waves Posts: 15,391 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 29,141 Thanked 40,957 Times in 10,741 Posts Rep Power: 21474864	I'm watching the dynamics of my parents relationship change as they age. I'm sure their fear of losing each other is terrifying for them, just as it will be for us when we lose one. As my brothers and I rallying around to help and support, it absolutely kills me that one of them rejects our help. I cried along with my brother today, after hearing what happened today. No one said this was going to be this painful. It's not fair of us being robbed of our time to spend with them before it's too late. __________________ kisses A kiss is a whisper in your mouth. Can I borrow a kiss? I promise to give it back.

09-22-2014, 01:44 PM	#8
Kenna Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Fiery, Sassy, Tough As Nails, Femme Tomboy Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: I am your favorite hello and hardest goodbye. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NC & CO Posts: 4,806 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,624 Thanked 12,193 Times in 3,779 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	What made me scream and cry... I just fell up the brick porch steps rammed both legs into brick just below knee. Had caught toes on bottom step where rain recently washed dirt away. Am waiting on roommate to get home. May have broke left leg. So much for plans to grill my rainbow trout tonight.Dammit. __________________ **************************** She has been through hell, so believe me when I say, fear her when she looks into a fire and smiles. ~E.Corona~

09-22-2014, 03:22 PM	#9
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09-22-2014, 03:43 PM	#10
Kenna Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Fiery, Sassy, Tough As Nails, Femme Tomboy Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: I am your favorite hello and hardest goodbye. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NC & CO Posts: 4,806 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,624 Thanked 12,193 Times in 3,779 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	I'm not crying now but I am worried and scared. Ice is helping some with swelling but not pain. __________________ **************************** She has been through hell, so believe me when I say, fear her when she looks into a fire and smiles. ~E.Corona~

07-28-2014, 10:34 PM	#1
RockOn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: sitting over there ----->>>>> :) Preferred Pronoun?: .... Relationship Status: .... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: .... Posts: 3,522 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,081 Thanked 10,304 Times in 2,610 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	Last Wednesday night very late, I googled pit bull kill shelters. I have been considering getting another 4 legged companion for Kevie and I. A little lite weight mixed bully girl. I thought I should rescue one from a kill shelter. Well, these heartbreaking images came to my screen, one in particular, an enormous mound of dead bully types inside a kill shelter. That photo is and will forever haunt me. Next day at work, on into the morning, I went searching for my little girl bully ... ended up at NY high kill shelters. There are 3 there. Now I have fallen in love with these dogs. I know their names, which of the 3 places they are located, their antics, I watch videos of these precious babies. I have memorized their ID numbers. I am not sleeping much, up checking to see who made it through their "date to destroy." I've been sitting at work, looking at their status. When I see the word GONE beside one's name, hot burning water falls out of my face and throat feels like it is choking to death on a softball because they did not make it past their destroy date. Not just today, but every day beginning last Thursday. Most of these dogs are less than a year old up to about 2 or 3 years. I must figure out a way to get a handle on this and a stronger hold on myself. I have been crazy about dogs since I could crawl. I have photos of me still in a diaper sitting in a puppy pile of my grandfather's collie pups - so happy! Dogs rock and they are the greatest ever. (in my book, anyway) They will never belittle you, betray you, slight you or play games with your head. And will always love you, be happy to see you. That is right.

08-04-2014, 10:22 PM	#2
SirenManda Member How Do You Identify?: . Preferred Pronoun?: . Relationship Status: Married Join Date: Apr 2014 Location: . Posts: 257 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 162 Thanked 959 Times in 232 Posts Rep Power: 6492221	Dealing with PCOS while I already don't feel good. Back hurts, sides hurt, couldn't even finish shopping today. Just stresses me out, causing me to be upset and cry cause I hate feeling like I can't do everything all the time.

08-05-2014, 12:22 AM	#4
MsTinkerbelly Timed Out - TOS Drama How Do You Identify?: ... Preferred Pronoun?: ... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: ... Posts: 6,573 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 30,737 Thanked 22,907 Times in 5,017 Posts Rep Power: 0	My daughter left today for Illinois to help care for her Father, and i am so proud of her for putting her life on hold to help out. I got a little teary eyed when she took off.

08-05-2014, 08:06 AM	#5
LaDivina Member How Do You Identify?: Lady-femme Preferred Pronoun?: Lady-ones Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Central Massachusetts Posts: 524 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,084 Thanked 1,725 Times in 413 Posts Rep Power: 20699138	This is from a couple days ago...being able to apologize to my first partner for the way I treated our friendship after our breakup, and having her graciously and lovingly accept my apology. waterworks

08-27-2014, 08:32 PM	#7
ProfPacker Member How Do You Identify?: butch/MOC Preferred Pronoun?: Hy/hym/hys but in circumstances like work and some other places she Relationship Status: single Join Date: Sep 2013 Location: nj Posts: 1,365 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,023 Thanked 4,815 Times in 1,187 Posts Rep Power: 21474849	my wonderful older, grown up daughter calls me to tell me that a close friend of mine and the family (my partner and I started the adoption process from China with them) died suddenly today. I am in shock and crying but I hold in my heart my daughter calling and saying "I don't know how to break this to you easily" she told me and she said that there never is an easy way to take this in. She made sure that we were all going to go to the family. She reached out to her friend right away. I admire her strength and her ability to not shy away from the hard things in life. Maybe I did something right. My children are beautiful, caring kind people and citizens of this world.

10-19-2014, 02:47 PM	#12
SleepyButch Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Dude Preferred Pronoun?: He, Him Relationship Status: Taken Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: Hidden Valley Ranch Posts: 3,511 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,220 Thanked 11,248 Times in 2,754 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	I was coming into the house from the garage and paying attention to the dogs so that they didn't get out. Well, when I slammed the door shut behind me, my left ring finger got smashed! Talk about painful. I had a good cry, put some ice on it and got over it but hell.. it hurt! Still does... aside from the blood collection under my nail, I think I'll live. __________________ . You cannot embrace those things that will not embrace you back.

11-10-2014, 06:21 AM	#13
cinnamongrrl Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: cleverly disguised as a responsible adult* Preferred Pronoun?: wild woman Relationship Status: No, thank you. Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Home in NC..gonna dig in like a tick this time… Posts: 7,662 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 15,233 Thanked 27,599 Times in 6,957 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	yesterday... the unfairness of the aging process.... __________________

11-17-2015, 05:26 AM	#14
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12-06-2015, 10:14 PM	#15
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12-07-2015, 08:18 AM	#16
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12-07-2015, 11:03 PM	#17
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