40 Questions

[MysticOceansFL]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago? Giving helpful advice to others.

2. What's been on your mind most lately? My Mother , My Grand Mother and my older sister husband * they have passed away.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? 1.health 2. love 3. happiness 4. money 5.fame, I could do with out.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? A g/f a wife companionship, loyalty trust , friend, more love.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Studying

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? My faith and the thought of my mother.

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am someone who will fight for the right cause and stand by the weak.

8. What do you want to be known for? My compassion with people and helping when I can.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?My family , I've moved away that many miles and came back home glad I did so.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? I'm always growing spiritually and always learning about myself.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? I do

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? trust, compassion, understanding

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? Being a boss to everyone else. In other words taking on more response ability at work when I used to work.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? Not much really.

15. What stands between you and what you want? Nothing

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? Be with family members and socialize.

17. When did you first realize that life is short? When my mother passed away at a young age.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? Need to start going back to bible study groups.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? I have confronted most of my issues.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with? People always testing people online or in a chat room.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you? That I'm slow or they think I'm femme which I am neither.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you? My faith

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? My truck

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? Having a relationship , a life partner.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? How the students reacted to me the first semester of college.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months? Getting my health back on track physically.

27. If not now, then when?soon

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? Served in the Military

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? That I am a good listening and that I have compassion for others even if they are pissy with me.

30. What do you want to remember forever? Can't answer this question.

31. What could society do without? War

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? Me

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? To get along and listening to each other. We are all related in one way or another.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? Broke up with my ex of 6 years long ago.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? I like trying different foods.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? Being in love.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? Go to college first and then go into the Military

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? cremate me and toss me to the sea and then go have a party because I wouldn't want anyone to be sad in my passing.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? I would have done more than said I think.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? Is there anything else I need to do while on this planet we call earth.
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[little_ms_sunshyne]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Remove myself from emotionally unhealthy situations.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
Am I living and enjoying life the way it should be...

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Happiness, Love, Health, Money, Fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
To help my sister find peace and ease her worries about my nephew

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
loved

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
To find true happiness

7. In one sentence, who are you?
I am a sister, daughter, aunt, friend, teacher, student, perfectly imperfect, and simply me.

8. What do you want to be known for?
The teacher that made a student love to learn, the friend that made you smile when you needed it the most, and the person that loved out the ends of her fingertips.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
My sister

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
Every year has brought so many changes for me. I hope just to be wiser, happier, and healthier

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
Mi Abuelita

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Has a great sense of humor and gets mine, trustworthy, and honest (can they also like really ridiculous movies like Space Balls and Stepbrothers! Not important but would love that!)

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Recently, letting my walls down to get to know anyone romantically.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
to learn how to swim :/

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Fear of being hurt

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Go for a long drive or spend time with my very best friend. She makes me laugh until I cry. Then I cry and cry and cry! Usually it is needed.


17. When did you first realize that life is short?
The morning of June 8, 2010!

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Less work and more time with friends and family. Just time to do things that make me happy!

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
The hurt my dad caused a long time ago.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
UHAUL!

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
Hmmmmm...they think I am proper or shy. I have a sense of humor ya know and a few other things people miss

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
My independence and humility.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
A little piece of wood my little brother gave me when he was 5. He said his teacher said, so long as a person you love carries it with them, they always remember you. Nine years later, it is in my wallet, and I have carried it with me every day since.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
The ability to trust without fear.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Walking down the streets of Castro in San Francisco with my best friend and feeling like I belonged.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Let my walls down...

27. If not now, then when?
When I am ready

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Every year since I started teaching, I have taught my students that kindness is the one thing that will make you the better person. For some of them, that idea has stuck

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I have cravings and desires that I never knew existed *shy smile*


30. What do you want to remember forever?
There are so many things! My Abuelita's words of wisdom, my mother's kindness, my nephew's smile...the feeling of being loved!


31. What could society do without?
LABELS!

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
The core of who I am, even if we are always evolving.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
I love just like you love, I feel just like you feel, I want so many of the things you want as well...We are not that different.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Bent over backwards for someone that didn't deserve it.


35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Coming out...I did it! Never thought I would.


36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
EEEks...not sure. I pass!


37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Get serious will ya! There will be more time for that later!

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I am sorry I didn't show you how much I love you all. You were always loved.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I really hope not.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Is this how you want to live the rest of your life?

[fatallyblonde]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

Really REALLY stand up for myself

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

Losing weight, paying my rent, Christmas, existential life questioms

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

Money (without that stress it makes it easier to be happier and it can buy good health care!), happiness, health, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

To fit back into all my old clothes, to have a successful full time nail art business and the butch of my dreams

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

Working lol

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

Dreams

7. In one sentence, who are you?

A broken hearted but tough as nails femme princess with a passion for fashion who is eternally dreaming

8. What do you want to be known for?

Amazing nail art, great Marilyn Monroe impersonation

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

My niece!!!

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

I hope that I will have an established nail art business that is going well, fit back into my old clothes and maybe even be seeing someone...!

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

Looking beautiful, spending time with my niece, creating things that others enjoy

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

Loyalty, stubborness, love of gossip

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

LOL EVERYTHING! Not really but it has held me back a lot. I would love to be a successful Marilyn impersonator but a nervous breakdown held me back from getting established...

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

Be an actress

15. What stands between you and what you want?

My fear and mental health

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

Talk to a good friend or read a book

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

When I hit my late twenties!

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

Not procrastinating

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

Fear of failure, my past traumas

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

Judge women who have worked in the sex industry and treat them badly

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?

Either that I am a bimbo or that I am unapproachable

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?

My heart

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

Water and coke zero

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

My idealism and innocence

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

Times with my niece and some good fun with a couple of good friends

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

To overcome my fear of failure and pursue my nail art dream!

27. If not now, then when?

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

I have created a bunch of stuff that resonates with people hugely... some costuming, some nail art, some stories... it is good to know people have loved that stuff.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

I am braver than I knew

30. What do you want to remember forever?

My niece

31. What could society do without?

Misogyny and racism

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

I have beautiful clothes

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

Don't be misogynists

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

Had crazy nail art on my hands lol

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

having genital piercings - took em all out!

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

My burlesque hobby

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

Don't eat emotionally, go after your dreams NOW, learn how to do better hair and makeup NOW

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

GESPATCHO SOOOOOOOUP

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

I always fear the answer is yes but objectively... no!

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?

Can I do this? Should I do this? Will I be alone forever? Will I get this done?

[anaisninja]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
I'm living in a place that allows me to keep my dog with me. I had to give him away in August of 2012 because my living situation was untenable to keeping him. It's a miracle (or a vision board) how I got him back and if you buy me a drink sometime I'll tell you the whole story.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
How to make my big adventure happen.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? 1) Love trumps all. 2) health. 3) happiness. 4. money. Fame is not on my list. I would never want to be famous. I feel sorry for people who are famous. They need the riches in order to cope with not having any privacy.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Seriously? You know it starts with s and ends with x. A good snog would suffice.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Recovering from a trauma. Sadly that is true. Also, falling in and out of love again.

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
To live a life that is true to who I really am. To seize every opportunity to make the time and space to find peace, love and fulfillment.

7. In one sentence, who are you?
A work in progress.

8. What do you want to be known for?
That I loved well and could bust a move.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
My friends and family.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I will be in a setting that I chose from a place of love. Doing and being and loving. Collecting experiences instead of things.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
I've got some really good friends who mirror my best self to me.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Loyalty, humor, and a car.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Too many things. Fear is a killer. Choose love instead.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
To be loved and accepted, just the way I am.

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Aha! You are a tough one, oh internet questionnaire oracle. My own fears and self-limiting beliefs, of course. Hah!

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
I meditate. Sit with the pain or whatever it is. Embrace it, let it be.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When I was 11 and my mother died of pancreatic cancer at age 36.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
- sitting in silence - listening to my intuition - loving myself - moving my body - laughing - doing things that bring me joy

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Unhappiness with work.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Vote against their best interests because they believe the lies told by corporations/the Koch brothers/Fox news/fill-in-the-blank.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
Just because I'm easy-going doesn't mean you can violate my boundaries.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
My breath.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Music.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
Missed opportunities.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Getting my dog back.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Number one is get healthy. Number two is quit my toxic job. Or maybe the other way around. Somehow I believe that one will follow from the other.

27. If not now, then when?
Exactly! You read my mind.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Risking it all to live my truth.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I'm attracted to butch women!

30. What do you want to remember forever?
All the good stuff.

31. What could society do without?
Lust for power. Jimi Hendrix said it best: "When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace."

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
That in my heart of hearts there is a knowing that I can trust.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
"Bark less, wag more."

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Hm that's a tough one. Will think about it and get back to you.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Religion, mostly.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
My marriage.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Kiss more girls! (And stay away from the evangelicals!)

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
love love love love...

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I don't like sanctimonious questions like this. But I get the point. I want to be a woman of action.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
How can I make XYZ happen?

[Chad]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago? I can walk without a cane.

2. What's been on your mind most lately? Building mother a cottage.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health
Happiness
Love
Money
Fame


4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? Peace of mind.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Workaholic.

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? Work.

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am one of many that help wildlife and protect their habitat.

8. What do you want to be known for? For my contributions to science and my relationships.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? Texas food.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? I hope to have my mother living in a cottage on my land.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? My family and my friends.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? Honesty, humor, and kindness.


13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? Carpentry, I feel as though I can't nail two pieces of wood together so I stopped trying.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? A big farm or ranch with lots of animals.

15. What stands between you and what you want? Money.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? Talk to my family and friends.

17. When did you first realize that life is short? Losing my grandparents very early.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? Socializing in person.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? Confrontation its self I say nothing instead of confronting people.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with? They hide their true selves.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you? Maybe that I am a party guy because most people only see me at parties.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you? My believes and my ideals.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? Chapstick, I am addicted to chapstick.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? Lost family, friends, and pets.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? Treating Mother to a happy Thanksgiving this year. Last year was the worst Thanksgiving in my family's history.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months? I need to find balance between work and fun.

27. If not now, then when? It must be soon.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? I have served the environment well and I have raised two kids with my bestfriend (now gone).

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? My strength, I am stronger than I think sometimes.

30. What do you want to remember forever? Life with my bestfriend and the kids. It was a magical time.

31. What could society do without? Prejudice against everyone and everything that is different than them.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? I am loved, safe, and happy.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? Great job friend!

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? Be a workaholic.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? The importance of relationships with friends and family.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? Some relationships.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? Have patience.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? Tell them that I love them.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? No, I will not.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? How do I find balance and when can I retire.

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[Leigh]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago? Making decisions, owning upto my mistakes, appreciate what I have already

2. What's been on your mind most lately? The last week & everything thats happened

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? Love, Happiness, Health, Money, Fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? to snuggle with the one i love the most

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Whirlwind

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? making a better life for myself & my honey

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am human.

8. What do you want to be known for? for my personality & being a good person

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? my mom, sister & friends

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? hopefully going to school & getting a good job

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? the one i love

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? honesty, sense of humor & personality

13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? everything

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? i can't remember lol

15. What stands between you and what you want? only i do

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? listen to music

17. When did you first realize that life is short? just in 1998 & 1999 when my mom's parents died 360 days apart

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? taking care of my health

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? my weight

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with? holding a grudge

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you? that i must be lazy because of my weight

22. What’s something no one can take away from you? my happiness

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? the internet

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? my grandparents & my cousin Tia who all died of cancer

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? reconnecting with someone that i never stopped loving & coming home to them

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months? lose weight 100%

27. If not now, then when? better start now

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? finished my G.E.D

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? i'm stronger than i realize & i can make hard decisions

30. What do you want to remember forever? being in love

31. What could society do without? haters

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? i'm finally home with my true soulmate

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? love one another, don't judge & be yourself always

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? not sure

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? what i wanna be when i grow up

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? my transition b4 deciding to remain female cuz it taught me so much about myself

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? keep a job, maintain your weight & don't ever be afraid to live life

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? i love you to my family, friends & my honey

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? i sure hope not

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? what is my purpose in life?

[Chelsius]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

I make better decisions, have gotten better at handling my anxiety and have learned to let go.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

Finances

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

Love, Happiness, money, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

To shake this joint pain!

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

In transition (mentally)

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

Independence, I suppose.

7. In one sentence, who are you?

A compassionate, empathetic being capable of endless things.

8. What do you want to be known for?

Genuinely caring about people.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

My brother, and parents.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

I couldn't say, but I hope I've made even more progress.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

Family and friends.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

Sense of humor, honesty, compassion

13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

That list is endless.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

To be a mom.

15. What stands between you and what you want?

Me

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

Nap, cry or sing. Or all of them.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

Probably when my grandpa died.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

Taking care of myself.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

I try, but I consistently have to retry not bottling up my feelings.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

The whole group mentality thing that happens.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?

That I'm cold or arrogant because I can be shy. And sometimes my sarcasm/sense of humor is misinterpreted.

22. What’s something no one can take away from you?

Self-worth.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

Chapstick

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

My cousin, my aunt. Many people that passed.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

My progress

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

I need to start going to therapy again.

27. If not now, then when?

Now, right?

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

Surviving.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

I'm tough.

30. What do you want to remember forever?

That I'm not alone, and I am loved.

31. What could society do without?

Zealots

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

I'm alive.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

Be kind to each other and to yourself. We need one another.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

Smoked

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

So many things! Career aspirations pop into mind first.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

A lot of relationships. Friends and lovers.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

Breathe. It's going to be ok. You're worth this life.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

I love you to my family and dog.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? ..

Probably

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?

Why am I here?

[bright_arrow]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
- Change out doorknobs, plaster holes

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
- Finding a job that will challenge me in a good way..Obtaining my Bachelor's to be a good role model for my daughter.. Extending our family..

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
- Love and happiness go hand in hand.. health, money, fame.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
- Arms wrapped around me and a kiss to flood me with warmth

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
- Surprises

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
- My wife.. she makes me want to be the best I can be

7. In one sentence, who are you?
- I am someone to everyone, but always myself.

8. What do you want to be known for?
- Keeping a happy, loving home.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
- My whole family, dogs included

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
- It can only go up from here!

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
- My 110% supportive, loving wife

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
- Loyalty, honesty, sense of humor

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
- A degree in what *I* want to do, not what others have told me

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
- I have always wanted to dye my hair a crazy, unnatural color

15. What stands between you and what you want?
- If we are talking about the hair color.. that would be a good job! Money stands between me and the degree I want.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
- Cry. Sleep. Meditate to classical music.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
- When I wanted to end mine.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
- Reaching out to others.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
- Nothing comes to mind.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
- Gossip.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
- That because I am quiet and shy, I shock them when they hear me swear.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
- My love for my daughter as if she was my own

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
- Puppy kisses

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
- Nothing. There is a lot of pain in the past.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
- My extended family and my new in-laws coming to the wedding

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
- Get my diabetes under control

27. If not now, then when?
- There is no future, it is ASAP

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
- 3.7 GPA - hell yeah!

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
- I am not afraid to speak my mind when someone can't take a hint.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
- The way she watches me when she thinks I'm not looking and the smile that appears. I never thought anyone would look at me that way.

31. What could society do without?
- Drugs.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
- My family is happy.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
- Live and let live.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
- Gotten married

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
- I don't have enough years to have changed my mind about anything yet.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
- My last bio-male relationship. It taught me to love myself, that I could be loved for me and all my quirks, and to never settle to spare feelings.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
- Don't try to save anyone who has a substance abuse problem.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
- I love you forever, to the Moon and back.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
- Right now I say more than I do, but I intend to do more.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
- Nothing as of lately.

[s0litude]

Originally Posted by desd

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
- I have always wanted to dye my hair a crazy, unnatural color

SPLAT makes some great colours. I dyed mine "Blue Envy" and it's growing out (my hair grows FAST), but I'd never done it before either. Was a fun experience, but I'll go back natural after this has passed.

Originally Posted by desd

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
- When I wanted to end mine.

Been there, done that, so glad you made it, Sweetie. The world's a better place having someone like you in it. I'm sure Bard would agree.

Originally Posted by desd

30. What do you want to remember forever?
- The way she watches me when she thinks I'm not looking and the smile that appears. I never thought anyone would look at me that way.

I pray for that day for myself. <shrugs> Eventually, maybe. Closest I ever came was forgetting to feed the cat and being stalked / stared down.

[deb0670]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Reaching out to more P/people and not be so shy.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
Ethan and how weird it is going to be to have Him home after being gone for over two months.
Will i be granted my disability on June 14th?
The Reunion
my sissies

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
i would rank health to be the most important, love, happiness then money.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
For my head to stop hurting and to be able to actually sleep well.. once.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
limbo

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
my youngest daughter

7. In one sentence, who are you?
just a girl wanting and willing to be the best girl she can be.

8. What do you want to be known for?
Being caring and compassionate

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
my kids

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
i will either have a job or my disability.. i will be well into my Bachelor's Program.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
my F/friends and F/family

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty, compassion, trustworthiness

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Telling my honest full feelings, being myself, coming out of my shell.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
to be accepted.

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Fear, lack of self love and worth

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Reach out and try to be there for O/others and help T/them reach T/their happiness.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When my youngest daughter turned 16.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Homework ( icky), cleaning, connecting with different O/ones.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
my homework( Algebra), my desires and needs that are buried deep

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Lying, and hurting others.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
That i am not shy. i reach out a lot.. and i do have a passion for P/people, however, face to face.. i am incredibly shy.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
my heart for O/others.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
the internet or some sort of connections with F/friends and F/family

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
my dog Scrappy

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
making new friends that turned to dear sissies

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
my self-worth

27. If not now, then when?
as soon as possible

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
helped a sissy recognize her self worth

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
it is ok to not be so reserved.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
how it feels to have nothing, so i will not ever take what i have for granted.

31. What could society do without?
debt, bullying, the innocent dying for no reason

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
i need sleep

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Treat others the way you want to be treated. Kindness is contagious. pass it on.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Treat my kids the way my parents treated me. ( yes i have repented for that)

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
How i viewed others.

36. What didn't last forever, but was still worth your while?
different friendships that have either diminished or grew a part

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Do not drop out of school and it is ok to say NO sometimes.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
i love Y/you and please take care of You

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you've done?
Unfortunately, yes...

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
When are you gonna stand up for yourself? When are you gonna be happy? when are you gonna get your homework on time? Really?

[bright_arrow]

SPLAT makes some great colours. I dyed mine "Blue Envy" and it's growing out (my hair grows FAST), but I'd never done it before either. Was a fun experience, but I'll go back natural after this has passed.


I am thinking purple.. or fire engine red!

Been there, done that, so glad you made it, Sweetie. The world's a better place having someone like you in it. I'm sure Bard would agree.

I couldn't tell you what kept me here each time... perhaps fear of the unknown.. I have felt unwanted and unworthy a lot of my life. That is a relatively new epiphany.

I pray for that day for myself. <shrugs> Eventually, maybe. Closest I ever came was forgetting to feed the cat and being stalked / stared down.

You will have it. I promise. No one as amazing as you goes through life alone. xox

[pajama]

Originally Posted by s0litude

Been there, done that, so glad you made it, Sweetie. The world's a better place having someone like you in it. I'm sure Bard would agree.

Agree 10,000,000%

[Bard]

Originally Posted by pajama

Agree 10,000,000%

Oh hell yes it is a better place with Desd and I to had been there done that ... at age 10

[PaPa]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Have ‘Me’ time.
2. What's been on your mind most lately?
How am I going to get where I want to go in my life?
3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
health, happiness, love, money, fame.
4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
What I want most right now it to have my health back and the ability to walk pain-free.
5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Busy.
6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
The knowledge that if my goals take too long my parents will not see it happen.
7. In one sentence, who are you?
Wow! One sentence…I am the authentic, eclectic, original Me! How is that? LOL!
8. What do you want to be known for?
My compassion, intelligence, and the ability to overcome adversities in my life while staying happy.
9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
The wilderness area where we lived when I grew up.
10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
Hopefully, I will have shed quite a few pounds, be walking again, and be employed by the State of Pennsylvania.
11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
I personally believe that is MY job not others.
12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Integrity, Respect, and Open Communication.
13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Fear of failure has stopped me from returning to work now.
14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
To find some way to pay back my parents for adopting me given the fact that my life could have turned out so much differently than the life they afforded me.
15. What stands between you and what you want?
My physical limitations right now stands between me and what I want.
16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
When I get down and nothing seems to lift me up I have responded in different ways. Sometimes I sit in pity and cry, sometimes I pray, sometimes I busy myself to not think about it, sometimes I try to involve myself with others so that I can do something more positive with that energy.
17. When did you first realize that life is short?
I first realized life was short when my ex of 13 years passed away in 2007 from a heart attack. She was just 46 years old and our children at the time were 19, 22, and 24.
18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Exercise is what I really need to spend more time doing if I am honest about it.
19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Wow! Not sure. A year ago I could have said my health because I was smoking and was not eating well. However, now I have quite smoking and am trying to be more conscious of what I ingest so I am not sure how to answer this question. I have slowly been confronting the issues that I have and trying to get better.
20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
It really upsets me that people feel the need to lie, steal, and deliberately hurt others.
21. What’s a common misconception people have about you?
A common misconception that people have about me is that I do not let go of the past. I really disagree with that because our past is who shapes us into the persons we are today. There is a big difference from living in the past and recognizing how that causes our actions and reactions of today. I AM however very totally self-aware.
22. What’s something no one can take away from you?
My thoughts, beliefs, feelings and education are all things nobody can take away from me.
23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
This may sound very immature of me, but at this juncture of my life and having had my parents for so many years I would hate to go a day without them in my life. My father is now 93 and mother will be 88 in October. I have been very blessed but to be honest they are very important to me.
24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
Ugh. Close your ears I am sure you will be shocked if you hear this. I miss school. LOL!
25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
My graduation and passing the national licensure to be a rehabilitation counselor has been my best accomplishment in the past year.
26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Weight loss is the biggest change I need to make in my life over the next year.
27. If not now, then when?
There will not be a when if it is not done now.
28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Quit smoking and earned my master’s degree and national licensure definitely makes me proud of my accomplishments.
29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I can truly overcome all obstacles and be the best Me I can be.
30. What do you want to remember forever?
Love and to be loved and to remember how that felt.
31. What could society do without?
I honestly think technology has been society’s biggest downfall because it has led people to lose a sense of community. People truly don’t give a damn about others anymore….that is said rather loose tongue in cheek because I know some people do but the overall lack of community sucks.
32. What is one thing right now that you are totally sure of?
I am absolutely sure that despite what happens in my world the new day will always come.
33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Be the change you wish to see in the world and live the dream you wish for your life even if you only make one step toward it each day.
34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
I always said I would not cheat on a partner and I did. That is not something I am proud of and it was definitely a learning experience since she died before I had a chance to make amends.
35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
I definitely changed my mind when I grew older about material possessions and their worth. At a younger age those things meant everything to me. Today they mean nothing because they are just things.
36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Past relationships regardless of how they ended. They were all worth it because at one time it was what I valued and wanted. In the end they became learning experiences who shaped who I am today.
37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
For some reason this question makes me think of the song Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd. But what I would say is live life without worry. Just do your best and move forward.
38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I would tell those who meant the most to me that I loved them and ask them to please allow themselves to be happy with their remaining time.
39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I would hope I have done more, but I feel like it will be I have said more.
40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Do I let those who are closest to me know on a daily basis how much they mean to me? Will the obstacles to my vision of my success ever stop?

[KCBUTCH]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
not take blood sugar meds
2. What's been on your mind most lately?
School
3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
happiness, health, love, money, fame.
4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Taking in RT.
5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Busy.
6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
the desire to be of service in the helping/healing fields
7. In one sentence, who are you?
I am undaunted, genuine, and passionate in all things
8. What do you want to be known for?That through touching a life with love and support that person went on to fulfill their potential as a human being.
9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
my neighbors
10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I will be knee deep in grad school
11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
doing what I ought to because I want to
12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Integrity, Respect, and Open Communication.
13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
nothing.
14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
to be myself and be happy with that
15. What stands between you and what you want?
nothing
16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
help another person
17. When did you first realize that life is short?
maybe later
18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
studying for my CAADE exam
19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
my pprocrastination
20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
judge hypocritically or from their own ideas of what is right for them must be right for everyone
21. What’s a common misconception people have about you?
I am not sure I dont pay much attention to tohers opinions of me-since mine opinion of me is the one that matters.
22. What’s something no one can take away from you?
my perseverence
23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
my dog
24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
working in construction
25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
all the laughter
26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
getting back into the workforce once I finish this semester
27. If not now, then when?
the next NOW
28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
grown into a good person without being cruel to anyone in the process in when I hurt and wanting to make someone else hurt
29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
no matter how much you like something sometimes there can be too much
30. What do you want to remember forever?
that there is no lack or limitations in life unless we makes them ourselves
31. What could society do without?
greed, hate, biases, judgement calls, pigeon holing
32. What is one thing right now that you are totally sure of?
I will succeed
33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
If you want to change the world start with yourself and be the example, be authentic whether anyone agrees with it or not BE Yourself
34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Gone back to school
35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
the ever-changing dynamic between my needs and wants.
36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
every moment of every day
37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Stop trying so hard to be someone your not
38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
"thank you mother father g-d for all you've taken and all you've left behind and each breathe therein"
39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I sure not
40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Do you have to think so much about everything?
Can you focus for a second?
What did I come into this room for?
Do you have to be so impulsive?

[wahya]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Smile

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
Family issues



3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health, Happiness, Love

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Want?? To see a special little kids smile

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Learning

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
My willpower

7. In one sentence, who are you?
A good decent person
8. What do you want to be known for?
Being caring and compassionate with a dash of corniness added

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?My daughter & grandkids friends & the ocean

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
To have a job I LOVE and off of SSDI

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
My family and few close friends and the mirror

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty, compassion, trustworthiness

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Singing and playing guitar in front of a crowd

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
Acceptance from the mother

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Not a damn thing

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Turn up the music loud, Play guitar or WALK til I cannot walk anymore

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
After my own trail of tears

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Studying,meditating

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
I don't.I am a not a runner. Eventually You just tire out.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Procrastinate and complain about how miserable their lives are.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
That I am bossy. I just don't like wasting time.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
How affectionate I am & how big my personality is

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Music

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
The days I grew up as a misspent youth in Germany

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Park time with the grandson

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
100% INDEPENDENCE

27. If not now, then when?
It will happen

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Survived stage 3 breast cancer and it's after effects (Physically & emotionally)

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I am a pretty cool person to chill with. lol

30. What do you want to remember forever?
How to have a good heart

31. What could society do without?
GREED

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
That it could be worse. SOMEONE does have it worse that you.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Law of attraction is real, Karma is real.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Became my mother & father

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
We can't help who we fall in love with

36. What didn't last forever, but was still worth your while?
An ex girlfriend who came in like a tornado. ( If you have ever seen the destruction one can cause you also have seen how breath taking the skies are after one too) And eventually you move or rebuild. I did both.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
School is cool lol

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I was in that situation and my last words were take care of my family and friends.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you've done?
won't we all?

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
I stopped asking myself questions. Just go with the flow now. Too much wasted time already. Now I live in the moment.

[pajama]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

I have the finances to travel.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

Why I fall in-love with the people I do.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

First-Happiness, Second-Health, Third-Love

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

To have spent the day visiting Mom, even if it was in the nursing home.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

Improving

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

Improving my health.

7. In one sentence, who are you?

The daughter of William S.

8. What do you want to be known for?

Laughter and living life to its fullest.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

If my son didn't move with me, then him.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

I will be much healthier.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

That I have good friends.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

That they can make me laugh, that they aren't too crazy, that they can be occasional friends and still be true friends.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

Loving my son fully.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

A monkey.

15. What stands between you and what you want?

Usually a spouse.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

I call a friend that will make me laugh or that makes me feel special.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

At about 25.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

Exercising

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

Why I can't form commitments in romantic relationships.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

Get married.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?

That I'm a party animal.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?

My personality.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

The interwebz.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

My Mom and Dad.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

Waking up to a text I received during the night while I slept.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

Open my heart/mind to love again.

27. If not now, then when?

As soon as I'm able.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

The Boy makes me proud every day.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

That I am picking unatainable women in order to prevent from having to make a commitment, open my heart.

30. What do you want to remember forever?

What my parents taught me.

31. What could society do without?

Religion.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

That I love The Boy.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

Stop killing each other for ANY reason.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

I did alot parenting The Boy that I said I would never do.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

That I always have to be right.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

Love. Always love.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

Study Chemical Engineering, you'll love it.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

J, Be proud of who you are, you are incredible. Be confident in who you are and what you have to offer. Do not follow my examples in love, it really can exist and be wonderful. I love you.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

That is not my intention.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?

Is this all there is?

[s0litude]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
I can say "No", "Go fuck yourself", and "I deserve better" now more easily than I could a year ago. I can brush aside the imperfections-- though I remain painfully aware of them-- and see the value in myself. I'm not dead; I'm still here. Good or bad, I'm still here.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
A certain woman has occupied much of my thought lately. My medical and financial concerns and how that will be resolved to enable me to move to the Northeast to start my life anew when the time comes. Of all the places I've looked at, that area seems best as I love the people there, the attitude, the climate-- not just temperature, the visual asthetics (the architecture there is amazing!), it's friendly to both LGBTQ and Kinksters and has a lot of activity in the community, and a run down I-95 will take me right to my family if they need me-- close enough to visit them but far enough away so they won't feel the constant need to come visit me.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
I really don't know. If you don't have your health, none of the rest matters, right? Then again, the same has been and can be said for happiness and love. Ultimately, I'd like to be happy. I would like to love and be loved in return. Money is not a big deal for me as I am frugal and never have much of it anyway. And I don't give two shits for fame.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Her.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Dreaming (with my eyes open)

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
My dad; I can't let him down.

7. In one sentence, who are you?
"I'm Nicholas." It says everything and nothing, and I'm content with that.

8. What do you want to be known for?
Being a good person, a loving and honourable person.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
A mild sense of security; change scares the hell out of me.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I can hope and dream, but I don't know. I would like to be in the Northeastern part of the USA, starting my life over.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
Me.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty, loyalty, forthrightness

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Telling someone how I felt about her; I started being bolder, but it's still not necessarily a good thing most of the time. People don't always want to hear the truth.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
Motorcycle

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Fear, financial means, the fears of those I have valued over the years,... Yeah, mostly fear

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Try to distract myself with things that could generate some amusement-- it beats the old method I had where I'd shut down and sleep a lot or think about offing myself. That's never a solution.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When my grandfather died, I was really young. I probably shouldn't have been at the wake-- and if I were a parent, I certainly wouldn't take a child there so young. But my biological mother nearly fainted when gasps and such filled the room and my dad pulled me out of the coffin. I had managed to climb in and was patting his face, couldn't understand why he wouldn't wake up. My dad took me outside and had to explain things to me.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Just getting out and about, walking, doing something, anything really. Being more active.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
I feel as though my wheels are turning right now, waiting for medical and financial stuff to be resolved. I don't know where my life will lead me, and it's scary to think about it. Some days, I'm filled with hope. Sometimes, there's a void, and I'm simply in too much pain to give a damn.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Lying-- even if it is done to "protect" someone, it's still wrong. We owe it to one another as members of the human race to be honest in our dealings with others. It's the only honourable way to live one's life, to be able to look yourself in the mirror and know you're a good person.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
That I'm outgoing. I'm actually painfully shy. I have to really PUSH myself to get out and do things with others. The community here helps a great deal with that.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
Personal integrity

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Great question, and I'd love to give you a profound answer, but I can't. I'd hate to go a day with access to a bathroom facility. [Camping is the only exception, and that can be worked around.]

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
Other than loved ones who have passed away? My innocence.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Realizing I no longer have to be strong, that I don't HAVE to be "Superman" anymore, sweep in and rescue everyone. I can be simple, quiet "Clark Kent", go about my day-- rip off the suit if needed, step up if I must, but it's not a demand made on my life anymore. I realized it when I decided to become a submissive [BDSM]. I felt it finally at a good friend's feet-- of which, I am so grateful; she allowed me the chance safely to explore that.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Figuring out the whole legal paperwork for my medical concerns and how it will impact my life going forward.

27. If not now, then when?
When what? Be more specific with the question next time.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Recognizing that I deserve better than the manner I've been treated in the past.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I look better without the facial hair.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
Who I am; the calibre of man I am and that I've lived to that standard.

31. What could society do without?
Greed, hypocricy, bullshit-- society is suffocating on it.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
I know what I feel in my heart is right and real.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Don't walk the same road as everyone else; get a REALLY large knife and carve your own path.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Fall in love, open up, let myself be vulnerable-- it's scary, painful, and uncertain.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Caring so much what others think about me. It used to matter so much what everyone thought, and now, it matters most what I think-- though I value the opinions of a few.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
My previous marriage; sadly, I learned a great deal from it

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
You ARE good enough. Don't let others tear you down.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I'd call HER, tell her I love her. I'd want her name to be the last thing on my lips, her face etched in my memory. Sadly, I don't even KNOW that it would matter. I'd NEED to tell her for myself.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Think about it-- don't we all? We all dream more than we have the time or power to achieve.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Why am I here? Where am I going in life? What will be said about me when my ashes are scattered and I've bid farewell to this life?

[Jesse]

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
I can do many things today that I did not know how to do a year ago. Mostly, it involves bushcrafting skills and making things with paracord. I have also learned how to dehydrate and can foods safely.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
That would likely be my adopted Father, who I consider my Dad. He has diabetes and a diet that continually worsens the effects of the diabetes, just had a pacemaker put in and as if that is not enough, he has been diagnosed with Parkinson’s recently, after having the symptoms for the last 4 or 5 years. He turned 74 today, but I feel like he will be gone soon.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
· Happiness
· Health
· Love
· Money
· Fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? I would like for all of the starving children to be fed on a regular basis, and for those who are being otherwise abused to be protected. I want rape and battery of women to be a thing of the past, and I want those of us in the LGBTQ communities to feel safe and validated by society at large.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Laughter

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? I’m still working on that.

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am an earthy spiritual being, interconnected with all other spiritual beings on a journey through a life of learning.

8. What do you want to be known for? For being, just, kind, honest, and truthful. Also, for bringing laughter to others, and being of help to others when I am able.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? The Florida winters, or I should say non-winters.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? I am not sure, but I look forward to finding out.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? I alone am responsible for how I feel about myself.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? Communication, depth, responsibility for their behaviors, and a bent sense of humour. I know, that’s four.

13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? Far too many things. It is not necessarily fear of failure, yet fear nonetheless.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
A family.

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Luck of the draw, I suppose.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? Research something that I am interested in learning about, tie knots,(make stuff using paracord or hemp usually) work with Sadie on her training or take her to the park and walk the trails…if all else fails, sleep.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When I was 7.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? I need to spend more time walking in and amongst nature.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? I have no idea what you are talking about! Pfft!

20. What is something a lot of people do that you disagree with? Assume others think or believe a certain way, rather than asking them how they think/believe about a thing. Sit in judgment of others. I am not sure that I feel comfortable answering when the question is asked using “a lot of people” because it is such a broad question. So I will clarify by saying that I disagree when anyone does the above things I mentioned, including me, when I mess up and do it.

21. What is a common misconception people have about you? That I am so strong that I do not need others support and guidance at times.

22. What is something no one can take away from you? My feelings, beliefs, ethics, and my God.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Sadie, my dog.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? Lost love, and my service dog, Bear.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Getting through it.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Lose weight.

27. If not now, then when? Sooner or later

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
I stopped smoking almost 2.5 ago.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? That I am more capable than I often gave myself credit for.

30. What do you want to remember forever? How to laugh and love.

31. What could society do without? Hatred and fear.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? That for me, God exists.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? Let go of your fears and hatred, we are all one and need to work together to heal ourselves and our earth.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
I rarely if ever say never, so I have no idea on this one.


35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? Growing up!

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? A couple of past relationships.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? Run, Forest, RUN!
No seriously, I would say to listen more, talk less. Follow your dream of getting your PHD. Know that you matter!

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? Probably a quick call to God and a quicker call to the person who will take Sadie, when I die assuming both Sadie and the person are still alive.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? Most likely, but much of what I say is good stuff.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Dang, you’re nosey! Lol!

[s0litude]

Originally Posted by Jesse

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Dang, you’re nosey! Lol!

THAT one cracked me the fuck up! LOL!