Disabilities: Visable and Invisable

[Corkey]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

Corkey - you are a hoot!

[Andrew, Jr.]

Corkey, I only have eyes for you.

[Corkey]

Hahahahahaha

Happy Holidays Bro!]

[Andrew, Jr.]

You know, maybe it has to do with the little pills I took this morning. They may have been Rosie's. I just started to well up with tears at a Hallmark Card ad, while I am now wearing my boxers and muscle t-shirt, and all the doors & windows are open.

[Corkey]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

You know, maybe it has to do with the little pills I took this morning. They may have been Rosie's. I just started to well up with tears at a Hallmark Card ad, while I am now wearing my boxers and muscle t-shirt, and all the doors & windows are open.

And here I thought you were inundated with snow piled to the rafters and shivering your off and smoking a

color me confuzzled LOL

[Andrew, Jr.]

I have had either a pipe or a all day today. That is just a given. But this hormony thing...omg.

The snow - 2+/- feet to be precise. All schools have been closed this week. We are well over spending $2 million on salt trucks, snow plows, and the drivers working around the clock to clear the streets, and the hospitals in the city. We are still digging out. Today was the first day I think kids went outside to play in the snow. It was just too deep before.

[Corkey]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

I have had either a pipe or a all day today. That is just a given. But this hormony thing...omg.

The snow - 2+/- feet to be precise. All schools have been closed this week. We are well over spending $2 million on salt trucks, snow plows, and the drivers working around the clock to clear the streets, and the hospitals in the city. We are still digging out. Today was the first day I think kids went outside to play in the snow. It was just too deep before.

Shoulda seen last year..145" of total snow, yea nothing melted for a few months, was a pleasure to drive in, oh what fun!

[chefhottie25]

I think my disability is both visible and invisible. I suffer from schizophrenia...when my meds, therapy, and support groups are working it is invisible..but when I suffer my symptoms I think it is obvious. I haven't had any major issues lately. I did have a small episode last month of hearing voices. I caught it early and got treatment. The fact that I reacted quickly is proof that I am getting better. In the past the voices would have become a full blown psychotic episode. The symptoms used to overwhelm me and I couldn't react. I am still learning to live with schizophrenia, but it has gotten easier since I was diagnosed almost 3 years ago. Thank you for starting this thread, I will surely make use of it.

[Lady_Wu]

That's a difficult disability with which to live. Both the the disability AND the meds used to control it can cause problems. If you don't mind me asking, what meds are you on? I suffer from major depression, PTSD, and GAD. I'm on Abilify, Cymbalta, and Klonopin to control those. Sometimes in the past the combination of all three, esp. the depression and the PTSD, have gotten so bad that I've had hallucinations. Not fun. The psychdocs tried me on a number of atypical antipsychotics. I hated them. The only one I stayed on for any length of time was Seroquel. I finally got them more or less under control through Taoism and Tibetan Buddhism. I still get "anguish attacks" every now and then. Those are like panic attacks but instead of anxiety, I get an acute attack of concentrated depression. It literally feels like someone's stabbing me in the heart. I can't predict them but when one hits, I just double over from the psychic pain. Now when one happens, I immediately do a sitting of meditation. I've only found one other person who experiences these. He was my paindoc for for several years! Basically, all I can do is wait them out, usually through meditation.
The GAD has gotten so bad that I could not handle a regular college atmosphere, even if I could do it physically (no chance). Too many people doing too much at the same time time. I tried going back to school one summer and could do that. The classes were small and not too many people were on campus at one time. Then the fall semester hit me. No way. If I could find a school with small classes and a laid back attitude, plus accomodations for physical disabilities, maybe I could go back. But I'm not looking to do so at the moment. I've got enough on my hands as it is!
Good luck, chef. I think you're doing an admirable job! Please return to this thread for support and general talk. I know Andrew's here for you. Count me as here for you,also. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me!
Lady_Wu

[lipstixgal]

I, too suffer from disabilities, like bipolar disorder but have that under control with meds and lots of rest for sure. I also have asthma and fibromyalgia so its not easy, I can really understand what a lot of people are going through. This thread is great!!

[Andrew, Jr.]

Hi Chefhottie52! Glad you are here. I have a friend of my family who has the same as you. However, she is married to a doctor, and has 6 kids. Now, she is living in the midwest, and seems to be handling everything very well. She goes to therapy with a psch. 2/3 times a week, is on meds, and also AA meetings. While she was younger she would drink like a fish, and it was discovered that she is chemically dependent. She has taken on every thing by the horns. Live one day at a time. And means it literally. I am proud of her. She literally pulled herself up by her bootstraps.


Hi Lipstixgal! Welcome. I have no clue what bipolar disease is. I will let you handle that.

Andrew

[chefhottie25]

Originally Posted by Lady_Wu

That's a difficult disability with which to live. Both the the disability AND the meds used to control it can cause problems. If you don't mind me asking, what meds are you on? I suffer from major depression, PTSD, and GAD. I'm on Abilify, Cymbalta, and Klonopin to control those. Sometimes in the past the combination of all three, esp. the depression and the PTSD, have gotten so bad that I've had hallucinations. Not fun. The psychdocs tried me on a number of atypical antipsychotics. I hated them. The only one I stayed on for any length of time was Seroquel. I finally got them more or less under control through Taoism and Tibetan Buddhism. I still get "anguish attacks" every now and then. Those are like panic attacks but instead of anxiety, I get an acute attack of concentrated depression. It literally feels like someone's stabbing me in the heart. I can't predict them but when one hits, I just double over from the psychic pain. Now when one happens, I immediately do a sitting of meditation. I've only found one other person who experiences these. He was my paindoc for for several years! Basically, all I can do is wait them out, usually through meditation.
The GAD has gotten so bad that I could not handle a regular college atmosphere, even if I could do it physically (no chance). Too many people doing too much at the same time time. I tried going back to school one summer and could do that. The classes were small and not too many people were on campus at one time. Then the fall semester hit me. No way. If I could find a school with small classes and a laid back attitude, plus accomodations for physical disabilities, maybe I could go back. But I'm not looking to do so at the moment. I've got enough on my hands as it is!
Good luck, chef. I think you're doing an admirable job! Please return to this thread for support and general talk. I know Andrew's here for you. Count me as here for you,also. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me!
Lady_Wu

Thank you Lady Wu for your support. I have been through a lot of med changes...but this combination I am on now seems to be the best. I take 80mg of geodon twice a day, 75mg effexor, 2mg artane, and 10mg of ambien to sleep. I have been on this cocktail for almost a year, with a few minimal episodes. I too have turned to taoism and buddhism to manage and find inner peace. I also meditate daily. I am still learning how to live with this disorder and being clean and sober. I hope that my new life will feel comfortable soon.

[Lady_Wu]

Originally Posted by chefhottie25

Thank you Lady Wu for your support. I have been through a lot of med changes...but this combination I am on now seems to be the best. I take 80mg of geodon twice a day, 75mg effexor, 2mg artane, and 10mg of ambien to sleep. I have been on this cocktail for almost a year, with a few minimal episodes. I too have turned to taoism and buddhism to manage and find inner peace. I also meditate daily. I am still learning how to live with this disorder and being clean and sober. I hope that my new life will feel comfortable soon.

Chef:
Have you visited the Planet's Sangha? I try to post there every couple of days with quotes from H.H.The Dalai Lama and from the Tao Te Ching. Sometimes I add my own thoughts. It's a small community but a good one.
On Taoism, Deng Ming Dao has a book called 365 Tao. It is a serires of daily meditations on the Tao, extremely good. I highly recommend it. I use it every day for inspiriration and a guide for the day.
Right now in Taoism I am studying Alchemy. I am lucky enough to have found a Taoist Master with whom to study. Alchemical Taoism is extremely complicated and difficult. I have been studying Taoism for a long time, enough to have prepared me for this. I am also the age to begin studying Alchemy-almost 50. If you ever want to discuss Taoism, please feel free to PM me. There are a few other Taoists on the site. Perhaps I should start a Taoist thread?
May you prosper; may you be in good health; may you be in peace!
Lady_Wu

[naturlover_52]

I like several here deal w/ mental illness. I was diagnosed back in 1992 with OCD. BUT that was the wrong diagnosis. I have GAD, adjustment disorder and was recently diagnosed w/ borderline personality disorder along w/ a degenerative disk in my low back.

I can empathyse w/ all of you have these invisible and visible illnesses..IT can make life difficult and hard. BUT it seems that we all are survivors and strong.