SMOKERS... LETS KICK the HABIT!!

Originally Posted by Ms. Meander

Just chew some gum and say F*ck You.....I love it!

[Julie]

I fell!
A couple days ago - I had a meltdown. A genuine meltdown directed at my three son's. I became hysterical (lol omg so dramatic) and stole one of Isa's (middle son's) cigs and smoked it, as if I had never quit. And then another. And then the next morning, snuck into his room and stole one out of his pack, and then another. Then yesterday same routine - except Isa left for the week and then some of Ben's friends came over who smoked and when they were not looking, I stole theirs!

How Pathetic!

I just charged my e-cig and at some point this morning will go get some mild filters. I am not sure why I cannot manage my emotions, except ---- I did just get my period, a week early and I am emotional for a variety of reasons -- But why the cigs? Why do we always reach for the cigs?

That is all - I am not ashamed, just a bit disappointed in myself. I am glad the kids left for a few days - I need to regroup and find some *me* time and get back on track. AND - I told Isa, you cannot come back home with cigarettes. I am not strong enough yet.

Julie

[gaea]

Originally Posted by Incubus

don't hestitate to ask for support...don't struggle in silence, come talk about it, there's loads of us who know the highs and lows of this journey.

Originally Posted by Julie

I fell!
A couple days ago - I had a meltdown. A genuine meltdown directed at my three son's. I became hysterical (lol omg so dramatic) and stole one of Isa's (middle son's) cigs and smoked it, as if I had never quit. And then another. And then the next morning, snuck into his room and stole one out of his pack, and then another. Then yesterday same routine - except Isa left for the week and then some of Ben's friends came over who smoked and when they were not looking, I stole theirs!

How Pathetic!

I just charged my e-cig and at some point this morning will go get some mild filters. I am not sure why I cannot manage my emotions, except ---- I did just get my period, a week early and I am emotional for a variety of reasons -- But why the cigs? Why do we always reach for the cigs?

That is all - I am not ashamed, just a bit disappointed in myself. I am glad the kids left for a few days - I need to regroup and find some *me* time and get back on track. AND - I told Isa, you cannot come back home with cigarettes. I am not strong enough yet.

Julie

You are human love. just keep pushing through because you want this...

For me the meltdowns make me want to smoke as well...they are emotionally charged..for me those bad days i want more than anything to smoke and i do not...for me it was always about , are you ready for this....i smoked to "AVOID" emotion.....nice huh... now im 41 with the emotions of a teenager wtf is that about....

so now i dont smoke and i have these things called "emotions" creeping up on me all the time...learning to deal with them one at a time...

there was this old thought
"If i smoke i don't have to deal with the bad stuff"

Here is a new thought
"the bad stuff is gonna happen anyway, no need to smoke"

Originally Posted by Julie

I fell!
A couple days ago - I had a meltdown. A genuine meltdown directed at my three son's. I became hysterical (lol omg so dramatic) and stole one of Isa's (middle son's) cigs and smoked it, as if I had never quit. And then another. And then the next morning, snuck into his room and stole one out of his pack, and then another. Then yesterday same routine - except Isa left for the week and then some of Ben's friends came over who smoked and when they were not looking, I stole theirs!

How Pathetic!

I just charged my e-cig and at some point this morning will go get some mild filters. I am not sure why I cannot manage my emotions, except ---- I did just get my period, a week early and I am emotional for a variety of reasons -- But why the cigs? Why do we always reach for the cigs?

That is all - I am not ashamed, just a bit disappointed in myself. I am glad the kids left for a few days - I need to regroup and find some *me* time and get back on track. AND - I told Isa, you cannot come back home with cigarettes. I am not strong enough yet.

Julie

There, you hit it on the head Julie, there's no need for shame just a bit of disappointment in yourself...none of us will be ashamed or disappointed in you. We're here to support not knock folks down. You've charged your e-cig...well done!!

I think you have every right to expect some support in this from your sons if they live with you.

The line I will continue to use is...

Keep the faith and don't give up giving up

[gaea]

Keep on Keepin On....

couldn't resist