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Kudos to all of you for the incredible strength, resolve and will power. Keep sticking to your plan!!
Had a great weekend beginning with our WW weigh in on Saturday. I am making more progress towards my goal and lost 2.4 pounds. Even better, finally can wear 38's in my Levis comfortably again. I used to be a complete clothes horse. So as the years have added on pounds I have hoarded away my smaller clothes and am so thankful for that as it is helping me stay motivated to get into things I haven't been able to wear in quite awhile. For all the grief I got from apretty about being a clothes hoarder it's paying off now! But in the ultimate anti-hoarder move I am also enjoying getting rid of my larger sizes and hope that it helps my motivation to never go back to size gigantica jeans. My workouts last week seem to be more intense and I added some new exercises at the gym. I know we've talked about how music is really important to some of us when we get our cardio going. I finally got around to listing some favorites on my ipod. I hope that some of you will share your favorite musical choices for workouts as I'd love some new ideas! Have a great day everyone. Thanks for this thread! Punk: Kiss Off-Violent Femmes California Uber Alles-Dead Kennedys What do I get?-Buzzcocks Oldies: I’ll be Good to You-The Brothers Johnson Lowdown-Boz Scaggs Rock: White Room-Cream You’ve got another thing coming-Judas Priest Ironman-Black Sabbath Rock & Roll-Led Zeppelin Ladies & Gentlemen-Salvia Master of Puppets-Metallica Enter Sandman-Metallica Sabbra Cadabra-Metallica Testify-Rage Against the Machine Guerilla Radio-Rage Against the Machine Dance/Electronic: Absolutely Not-Deborah Cox Queer as Folk Soundtrack 2nd Season Underwater (Mauve’s Dark Vocal Mix)-Queer as Folk Soundtrack 2nd Season Hold It Don’t Drop it (Club Mix)-J Lo Moto Blanco Mixes No More Drama-Mary J Blige (from the Dance For Me EP) Tush (Anthony Acid X-Rated Club Mix)-Ghostface & Missy Elliot I Wasn’t Kidding (Freemasons Vocal Club Mix)-Angie Stone Boys wanna be her (tommy sunshine mix)-Peaches Beautiful Liar-Shakira & Beyonce Weapon of Choice-Fatboy Slim Downhill Racer (Kenny Dope Remix)-Everything But The Girl
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This is what I am listening to:
It is a mixture of videos from the Vevo app on my iPhone, YouTube and the iPod on my iPhone. Vevo: PitBull: Shut It Down Give Me Everything Be Quiet Hey Baby <Drop It To The Floor with T-Pain> Jennifer Lopez On The Floor <Featuring PitBull> Waiting For Tonight Do It Well Enrique Iglesia I Like It <Featuring PitBull; Jersey Shore Version> Rihanna S&M Remix with Britney Spears S&M Original Video Katy Perry ET <With Kanye West> Waking Up In Vegas Britney Spears Circus I Wanna Go Til The World Ends Lady Gaga Bad Romance Judas Guns N Roses Patience Sweet Child of Mine Paradise City Welcome To The Jungle November Rain Poison Every Rose Has It's Thorn Nine Inch Nails Down In It Head Like A Hole YouTube: Rammstein's Du Haust Metallica One Seek and Destroy Master of Puppets iPod The Cure To Many Songs to List Black Eyed Peas Lacuna Coil Loreena McKennitt Marilyn Manson Michael Jackson and Cradle of Filth I truly am a music junkie, lol.. Zimmy Quote:
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![]() I wanted to share the website I spoke about earlier... myfitnesspal.com or you can download the APP to your android/iphone for free I have forever been on diets and such, this is the only thing that has helped me stick to my calorie and exercise goal. the community there is amazing, the success stories are inspirational and, it really works. you HAVE to put every single thing you put in your mouth (hah!) and I mean everything : creamer in your coffee, little mayo, anything. You will be amazed at how many empty calories are going into your body. I was eating almost double than I should of been eating! I mindlessly ate all day not thinking that a bagel for breakfast took most of my daily calorie intake then grazing on a little here, little there...it does add up! now my day is like this (I eat what I want, just not as much): Breakfast Luna Bar - Iced Oatmeal Raisin, 1 bar 180 calories Dunkin' Donuts - Medium Ice Coffee With Cream and 2 Splenda, 24 oz 85 calories Snack 1 Mw: Generic - Fuji Apple, Medium, 1 small 80 calories Lunch Home Salad - 2 cups 180 calories Chicken Salad Sandwich Lunch 290 calories Snack 2 (is coffee a snack? lol) Starbuck's - Venti Iced Coffee - Nonfat Milk - Dc, 24 fluid oz. 160 calories Dinner Wonton Soup, 1 cup w/ 2 wontons 115 calories Chinese - Steamed Chicken With Broccoli (No Sauce), 2 cups 280 calories Chinese Mustard Packets - Chinese Mustard, 7 tablespoon 35 calories Chinese - Fortune Cookie, 0.5 cookie 13 calories all under 1500 calories for the day + going to the gym, per my heart rate monitor, I burned 235 calories in an hour ![]() |
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OH and I downloaded an APP on my phone called JANGO and it has helped me forget I am even on the treadmill at times.
I like the hip hop station. I worked out to Dr. Dre and Snoop tonight ![]() it's like Pandora but a million times better. lots of stations AND you can skip songs as many times as you want to! |
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Let's talk about emotional eating!
I was all hyped up to make this post last night but talked myself out of it because this part of the process is so personal. Today, I said "fuck it", because really, what am I about to say that is going to be so personal when so many people have dealt with this exact issue. Besides, I think talking about the process helps forward our understanding and I'm willing to take the chance on feeling exposed in order to work out my shit around it. So here goes: I had cake yesterday! It was luscious and wonderful! Someone at work sent around an email to our entire unit saying they had "about 50 pounds of wedding cake in their office" and was basically begging us to come and eat it (being facetious here!). All day a steady stream of my coworkers filed past my door with napkins piled high with a creamy-looking white cake. Finally someone said "oh come on angie, you gotta have just one piece of it!". Normally I would have waved my hands and said "Oh no no no! I can't, I'm on a diet!" and would have been all dramatic about how I was just going to eat come carrot sticks or whatever. Then I would have sat in my office brooding for the rest of the day over that cake and being silently (and not super aware of why) irritated and angry. Then I would have gotten off of work and gone straight to the McDonalds drive-thru and ordered a sack of crap and ate it all the way home. Then I would have gotten home and proceeded to marathon-eat for the rest of the night until finally falling into bed stuffed full of food and feeling empty still. Why would I have done that? Because that is my cycle. That's what I do. That is how I self-soothe when I deprive myself of something that is actually a reasonable desire. So what if someone had a wedding cake at work, right? It's a piece of fucking cake. It's not a line of cocaine. I would have been internally deprived and pissed off at myself for saying no to the cake when I really wanted it and then would have proceeded to fill my face for hours after as a way to say "Im now going to punish the external me because the internal me didnt provide the cake." I have come to realize that it is simply NOT reasonable to live as if I am never going to eat another piece of cake as long as I live. It is, in fact, ridiculous for me to think that will be my truth. I am a human being and I am going to eat cake and steak and drink beer and eat ice cream. I'm going to do all those things and I'm NOT going to feel shame about it or guilt and I'm CERTAINLY NOT going to punish myself when I do eat those things. We're good people! We deserve cake! What we also deserve is to eat that piece of cake WITHIN REASON and treat that piece of cake as the wonderful treat that it is and not a requirement for happiness. So yesterday? I ate the cake. It was a small little piece and it was so delicate and fluffy and had this amazing cream cheese icing and almond fondant. I ate it. Unapologetically and without guilt. I STILL don't feel guilty. It was worth it. I counted it in my WW points like I should and was thankful for having the cake. I felt so happy last night because that terrible weight of "I have an emotion of shame around eating the cake so now we must commence with a 4-hour binge that will leave us feeling like SHIT" was GONE. I am still happy today because eating that cake without shame was a victory for me. It was a victory over those bad, ugly thinking patterns where shame and guilt are the driving force for sabotage of health. I encourage each of us to remember that birthdays and weddings and random cakes will happen. It's OK for us to eat small portions and account for those portions in our food plan. It's OK to enjoy eating that stuff! It's OK to be regular, normal human beings who occasionally eat cake or pie or potatoes or whatever your vice is. It is OK because that piece of cake does not mean that our entire day or week or month of working toward health is blown up. I did the above overshare to kinda show how Im working through my process of recognizing what my triggers are and WHY I overeat. Figuring out those triggers and being able to say "Oh ok, this is one of those things" when it happens means that I have a name for that emotion. So I can name it and think about it rather than eat it. If you stuck with me this long, thank you. Again, pardon the overshare. This thread has been an amazing support and I appreciate each and every one of you tremendously.
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Medusa~ I appreciate the overshare
![]() My sister shares in this struggle with me. When we hang out...it is a DISASTER. Once I have one deliciously terrible meal, it is like I have unleashed something in me. The domino effect strikes and I feel like I am back at square one. I have been feeling a little emotional lately and trying at all costs to avoid the binge. Why is this so hard? And Why is it such a comfort? Self-Soothe is the perfect way to describe it because it is. The worst part of it all, if I do over eat then I feel twice as bad. I feel sick and ashamed. Blah! Learning to be able to treat myself without over doing is a battle. But acknowledging that it can be done is helping. Glad we are here to lend an ear (or eyes for reading) and I am glad that there are people out there that share in our struggle. The world is not that lonely anymore ![]() Sorry, thinking outloud. But it helps me to verbalize this all because I relate and for the first time I have found people that understand. Again, thanks for the overshare! It hit home. |
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I totally get what you mean about it being a disaster when you and sister hang out!
I have a couple of girlfriends who would totally be my "eating buddies" if we were both so inclined. It's like having someone to do your addiction with, similar to crackheads finding someone to smoke with. That way you have not only a witness but a cohort. Someone who will enable or support your "habit" so to speak. In the past, I have chosen to either insulate from these friends or tried to get them to do my eating plan with me. I'm at the point now that I accept that I am in control of me and that I don't really need to worry about what my girlfriends are doing. It's hard. SUPER hard. That food bonding is a "warm comfy" for me and it's hard to isolate my stuff around food from other people. It's hard to keep that stuff to myself and have to hold that bag of bullshit because it means I have to sit with the feelings and that shit? IS NOT COMFORTABLE sometimes! I'm glad we all have each other. We can create new food bonding moments over finding fun ways to make our favorite stuff healthy and celebrating our victories. WOOT!
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I also love properly mixed dance cds so the transitions are seamless. four current favorites: Cream Classics Vol. 1, Disc 3 Defected Sessions mixed by Full Intention Hard House Euphoria mixed by Lisa Lashes Disc 1 WURK! mixed by DJs Zero & Steamy Brown, Vixen 6/24/06 I don't think any of these are available on Itunes in the US, but I'm trying to suss out a way to share via a cloud service... if I can't figure it out soon, I'm happy to copy the discs and send them on to anyone interested. Always happy to share good music!
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