Cancer Support and Caregivers Who Are Trail Blazers!

[SugarFemme]

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I'm sorry I brought my stress to the group. I was having a pain-filled night and felt like poop (No pun intended LOL). I'm usually very upbeat and the cheerleader of the group. Just couldn't summon the energy last night. Again, my apologies and love and light to all you courageous people

[Countyfem]

Clay BIG hug! your in my thoughts today, hope all goes well..

OOAK hugs to you! Is natural to feel down once in a while but you seem
to bounce back quickly.

Tommi so glad to read your doing well! My hopes are that you have it beat!

I do not have the big C but it does run in my genes and I have seen family members go thru the trials and tribulations that all of you here on this thread have and are going thru and I salute you for your courage and ability to keep on keeping on. You all have awesome spirit and are a true inspiration to others..

[deb_U_taunt]

We all have those days. There were times I would lay in bed with my face to the wall wanting it all to stop. It is healthier to be honest, than to hide behind false cheer and bravato.

Originally Posted by OneOfAKind

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I'm sorry I brought my stress to the group. I was having a pain-filled night and felt like poop (No pun intended LOL). I'm usually very upbeat and the cheerleader of the group. Just couldn't summon the energy last night. Again, my apologies and love and light to all you courageous people

[deb_U_taunt]

I am off sleeping for a couple weeks and this thread gets busy. Sorry, to hear the reasons it is. We are troopers, though. If any of you need/want to talk, PM me and I will be happy to give you my cell.

Update: I only have one more week of radiation left. YEEHAW

[SugarFemme]

Gawd, I wish there was a way that we could all get together to laugh, cry, dance, hold hands and just be together. I know we could all benefit from it. Keep each other in the light.

[SugarFemme]

[clay]

Evening all my brave Warrior buddies!!! I came to post a brief update..I am exhausted, to say the least. I have been through the wringer the last 3 weeks..and esp. this one..
The colonospcopy did reveal a mass...he wasn't able to tell me where or what size...and wasn't able to go on with endoscopy...so a biopsy was done. I got the results yesterday afternoon..it is an invasive malignancy...and I am scheduled to see a Surgical Gastro Oncologist next Tuesday, and I will have a CT scan of Chest..to rule out any mets there. The mass is in the transverse colon..and explains the dull, achy, nagging discomfort to the right lower flank area the last 16 months....so I don't know much else til I see him next week....sorry! My appt today with the Gynecological oncologist went well...she is deferring the hysto until I see the gastro onc. and they confer as to right course of treatment to handle both areas of cancer. She is giving me an excellent prognosis and feels she can eradicate the uterine ca with vag hysto with tubes and ovaries..lymph are in limbo at moment...and is hopeful the two specialties can do simultaneous surgeries and only one anesthesia...so I am hopeful....she is also hopeful there is not any other ca elsewhere and both can use the Da Vinci robotic arm for the surgeries...and I will have a hernia repair from my open lap chole last year (open Gallbladder surg)....either way I am going to dig my heels in and fight this darn stuff. I am numb tonight..I cried most of last..and just wanted to post something..as you all have been so loving and supportive and I appreciate each and every one...I am just tired, emotionally drained, and unable to write more...please know I think everyone of you are so incredible..and I heart you all...take care..and debby I may take you up on that offer...I have some amazing folks...and I so love them...night and sorry if I am rambling..I just can't go on any more tonight..mind is on overload...just wannna own this right now, mull it, and spend some quiet and alone time...I know each of you understand...love Clay Glow worm

[clay]

Tonight, all I want is a loving body to lie down by me, to hold me, to soothe my weary body..and to tell me this will be okay, to tell me how she loves me, and will walk this path with me...just a soft, sweet, and comforting body...to make me feel her love...and comfort me..where are you? I so need you...tonight..for a couple of nights..let my body be wrapped in yours...please?

[clay]

OOAK:
I think that would be just awesome. I know I could use every thing you mentioned...blow bubbles, color in a book, laugh, and just console..yes..we should...let's....smiles

Originally Posted by OneOfAKind

Gawd, I wish there was a way that we could all get together to laugh, cry, dance, hold hands and just be together. I know we could all benefit from it. Keep each other in the light.

[clay]

1OAK....I LOVE that image...it is so warming, so captivating, and gives me such a warm, comfy feeling..thanks for sharing that with us....


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[Novelafemme]

{{{{Jo}}}} I apologize in advance if this is none of my business, but since I am going through a similar situation with my father perhaps we can commiserate.

I finally realized after this last go around with my dad that I can't make him share with my siblings and I that which he himself cannot even come to terms with. I feel like I have been chasing him around the block since my mom died nearly three years ago and to be quite frank, I'm tired of it. Since I was a little girl I have had my dad on a pedestal I'm not all together sure he is deserved of, and I'm just now...at the age of 38...coming to this realization.

So, my decision is/was to not feed into his BS. I can love him to the moon and back and hope for the best but after all is said and done I can't make him better nor can I make him change his behavior or the way he fundamentally is as a human being. And I have finally come to a place of peace in my heart about this. Well, I still get teary at times over it all, but I have done all I can do and I know how bad it feels to bend over backwards for him and then get this passive/aggressive, shoulder-shrug response.

Hang in there! Are you still coming to AZ soon? xoxo

[JustJo]

Originally Posted by CatalinaRose

{{{{Jo}}}} I apologize in advance if this is none of my business, but since I am going through a similar situation with my father perhaps we can commiserate.

I finally realized after this last go around with my dad that I can't make him share with my siblings and I that which he himself cannot even come to terms with. I feel like I have been chasing him around the block since my mom died nearly three years ago and to be quite frank, I'm tired of it. Since I was a little girl I have had my dad on a pedestal I'm not all together sure he is deserved of, and I'm just now...at the age of 38...coming to this realization.

So, my decision is/was to not feed into his BS. I can love him to the moon and back and hope for the best but after all is said and done I can't make him better nor can I make him change his behavior or the way he fundamentally is as a human being. And I have finally come to a place of peace in my heart about this. Well, I still get teary at times over it all, but I have done all I can do and I know how bad it feels to bend over backwards for him and then get this passive/aggressive, shoulder-shrug response.

Hang in there! Are you still coming to AZ soon? xoxo

Thank you so much...and you're absolutely right. I'm just going to need to come to grips with the fact that this is how she is...and cancer doesn't change any of that, of course.

And, yes, I'm here now....just arrived late this afternoon, and just sent you a PM (great minds think alike ). I'm only here a few days, leaving early Thursday morning.