The Loft: Butches and Femmes in their 40s, 50s and over.

starrynitesfemme · 05-23-2012, 08:24 PM

Hi there, I'm happy to see this space, at 43, i'm still trying to sort out being this age... I wrote this, and thought perhaps I would share:

Growing older is an odd thing, to feel 15.. but in this 43 year old body.. to be growing older at all, considering my history is.. a miracle. A miracle I say many prayerful thanks for each day, as much as I may grumble and fuss about the aches and pains. But growing older gives us something else, this powerful space of.. THIS is who I am, take it or leave it, like it, love it.. or walk away. I truly love growing into that space, feeling myself stretch and grow, knowing myself better every single day. There are very few things I can say with confidence about myself, but one very important one I can: I love well. I love wholly, unconditionally, without boundaries and with no apologies. I find some folks are very uncomfortable in that space, but now, older, perhaps wiser, I no longer apologize for it or me in any fashion. I am grateful to be here, now, my feet on the earth, my hands doing their very best to type the words my mind feeds them and love in my heart. I am grateful for each connection, each moment, each breath.. and each step, because the next step, is all I have to worry about.

I hope each of you has a wonderful eve.. ♥

rustedrims · 05-24-2012, 05:26 AM

Verrry well said..
I like it..All of it..

05-23-2012, 08:24 PM	#1
starrynitesfemme Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Queer, Femme Preferred Pronoun?: she, girl, femme, babygirl Relationship Status: Single Join Date: May 2012 Location: oregon Posts: 40 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 185 Thanked 158 Times in 37 Posts Rep Power: 1662974	Hi everyone... Hi there, I'm happy to see this space, at 43, i'm still trying to sort out being this age... I wrote this, and thought perhaps I would share: Growing older is an odd thing, to feel 15.. but in this 43 year old body.. to be growing older at all, considering my history is.. a miracle. A miracle I say many prayerful thanks for each day, as much as I may grumble and fuss about the aches and pains. But growing older gives us something else, this powerful space of.. THIS is who I am, take it or leave it, like it, love it.. or walk away. I truly love growing into that space, feeling myself stretch and grow, knowing myself better every single day. There are very few things I can say with confidence about myself, but one very important one I can: I love well. I love wholly, unconditionally, without boundaries and with no apologies. I find some folks are very uncomfortable in that space, but now, older, perhaps wiser, I no longer apologize for it or me in any fashion. I am grateful to be here, now, my feet on the earth, my hands doing their very best to type the words my mind feeds them and love in my heart. I am grateful for each connection, each moment, each breath.. and each step, because the next step, is all I have to worry about. I hope each of you has a wonderful eve.. ♥ __________________ HonorIntegrityTrustHonesty* “It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.” ― Oriah Mountain Dreamer, The Invitation

05-24-2012, 05:26 AM	#2
rustedrims Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: she/her Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Northern Ohio close to Lake Erie and ice-cream places Posts: 444 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,123 Thanked 2,553 Times in 367 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	Hey Starry Verrry well said.. I like it..All of it.. __________________ I don't want to be perfect because if I was then I will loose the ability to learn.