PTSD and Trauma recovery

[Andrew, Jr.]

There were times during my abuse when I remember the prayer Jesus said. It went something like this..."Ask and you shall receive; seek and you shall find; knock and it shall be opened to you." Well, I also remember saying and thinking wtf? Where in the hell are you?

Today, all these years later, someone reminded me that it is not our will but God's will that will be done.

[Apocalipstic]

My belief in God is all tied up with the crazyness of my father. His being a missionary and evangelist preacher...so many of his actions explained by "God told me to".

He said God told him to act like he did, so many times. It has always messed with me.

So Andrew, I don't know what is real and true religiously, but I do know that things happen in their own time and somehow things eventually seem to right themselves....

Except, our bodies and minds are left with the scars and the coping mechanisms we learned to deal with our individual traumas....coping mechanisms that seem all out of whack with everyday life.

I wish you and everyone who posts or reads this thread a peaceful evening and a good and refreshing night of sleep tonight.



Jen

[Andrew, Jr.]

Jen,

Thank you. I needed that. This afternoon was very rough. Very rough.

Peace to you,
Andrew

[Princess4u]

Originally Posted by apocalipstic

My belief in God is all tied up with the crazyness of my father. His being a missionary and evangelist preacher...so many of his actions explained by "God told me to".

He said God told him to act like he did, so many times. It has always messed with me.

So Andrew, I don't know what is real and true religiously, but I do know that things happen in their own time and somehow things eventually seem to right themselves....

Except, our bodies and minds are left with the scars and the coping mechanisms we learned to deal with our individual traumas....coping mechanisms that seem all out of whack with everyday life.

I wish you and everyone who posts or reads this thread a peaceful evening and a good and refreshing night of sleep tonight.



Jen

I didnt grow up in a religious family, I have searched in my heart for answers to my questions about God and the power of prayer. I think I do more talking to God than praying. Because in my experiences, when I have prayed, they have never been answered, when I have asked for something good, I usually was given bad, when I closed a door, I find myself alone in a black room without an exit. But yet I talk to God no asking, not praying but just talking. I have no expectations of our "conversation" other than I hope someone or something hears me because I have no one else to listen to my darkest fears and secrets. Perhaps its just my way of coping, I dont know. But I have no expectations of God or of prayer. What may be will be and I will just have to suck it up and deal with it as it comes. I dont know if that helps Andrew...its just my little way of making it minute by minute sometimes.

Love and Peace to you all...
Princess